finding your way back to yourself

I feel like no matter what kind of person you are no matter how much you work on yourself or you develop there's always going to be a point or a time or a period where you feel like you need to find a way back to yourself and I don't mean that in a sense of like people actually feel like oh I'm I'm missing part of myself but it's that off feeling that feeling that you no longer either in the state you were before or no longer the person you were before and you know sometimes changing

who you are or feeling like a new person can be a good thing but I feel like it's in times where we feel like we're off our game almost we're off our our motivation off our discipline off of our Progressive Journey towards where we want to go and I think the main thing that's missing there is continued either passion or or pressure I feel like it's a lack of uh discipline rather than a lack of motivation I feel like all of us inherently want to be better at at some point and we get caught up

in you know a lot of life's ordeals to the point where're W unable to move forward with ourselves I myself experienced this not I wouldn't say like to a great degree but in terms of how I felt like right after break and then coming into where I am now I feel like I finally got back to the point I want to be at and it's about realizing what you're digesting realizing what you're taking I got more more social more outward and you know I started deriving time for myself I started taking more time away from

what I used to do which spend most of my time by myself which isn't a bad thing but it's about the it's about realizing you know what you need to do in order to feel most like yourself and also um exist in your own Comfort it gets real easy to just get lost in the loops of life and forget about yourself in a way like forget that you need to take care of yourself forget that you know you have your own passion your own goals your own whatnot that you know you could be focusing on

or you should be focusing on not to say that you shouldn't interact with people not to say you shouldn't be social not to say you shouldn't go out there and do stuff of course you should but I think everything comes with moderation as much as you you know relax you have to work as much as you work you have to relax maybe not 100% you know it's kind of hard nowadays with how it's set up but in terms of like who we are it's one thing to put out I feel like a lot of us

put out or who we are our energy or everything to the point where we feel like we have nothing left or feel like we're getting repetitive or repeating a cycle or like uh playing a character almost it's about about bringing it back in it's about you know meditating cultivating yourself doing the stuff that makes you feel most like you you know being genuine to this to yourself to the point where you know you know what you like you know what you want to do and I know a lot of people don't necessarily know what they're

like it or they don't know you know stuff like that but it's about exploration and when I say exploration I don't mean outward exploration I mean inward exploration maybe through outward action though you know you don't realize you you like thrifting till you go thrifting you don't realize you like to sing till you try singing you don't like to rap until you try rapping like there's certain stuff that you know needs to be done in order to find it you know you're not going to find something like that without you know encountering it or at

least putting yourself in a position to encounter it I feel like a lot of life is prepping yourself for opportunity and allowing the opportunity to come to you or being able to capitalize off an opportunity when it comes to you so realizing that you know sometimes you have to build yourself up before you build everything around you and in the same way that like everything's a reflection of who we are you know our goals our success are our everything our relationships they all start with how we relate to them and in way back to yourself

it's like I feel like a lot of people experience that feeling that you know their past Health they lost their past self they lost their spark their happiness their whatever I feel like most of it is somewhat Nostalgia one and and sort of inability to appreciate what's going on now instead of viewing things as new things in our life or new days new experiences we tend to relate them and compare them to previous ones you know and not to say that you know the now is not going to be better or the the the past

isn't better than the now but to say that there's no cause for comparison there's no reason to to constantly do that you know when you're looking at life from a constant comparison and you feel like you had a major up then everything else is going to look down everything else is going to feel down I mean it works vice versa but I feel like the most healthy way to go about it is to realize that you know each day is new every day you get to try again you know either to try to be better

person try to do more things try to do this this that and the other but also trying to be you trying to figure out who you are and experience yourself for this new day if we're constantly living in the past where we unable to live in the present you're unable to find out new things about yourself if you're constantly worried about the things you used to be it's about somewhat stepping outside your comfort zone like oh see look like even me I realize that there's there's still stuff like I need to work on for short

like I did uh this panel I only did part of it I was on a panel for relationships or whatnot it definitely made me realize you know a couple things I have to work on but also in regards to my public speaking ability there's stuff I need to work on like you know just building yourself up enough to the point where you feel like you can express yourself exactly how you want to you know while I did express myself I feel like there was certain articulations and stuff I wasn't able to do just because of

my slight uncomfortability and that's not to say like like I'm saying that not to discourage I'm saying that to like tell you that like there's always more to do in a sense but there's not you know a stress about it like it's one thing to realize but it's one thing to get on yourself about it you know I realize that that's the case and then whenever I have an opportunity to work on that you know I'm going to do so but I'm not going to stress about it now I'm not going to you know get

on myself about it like I did something bad know it's just a reminder of what I need to grow from what do I of what I need to do in order to be who I want and to do what I want the progressive steps forward you know slowly becoming more of yourself I feel like some sometimes finding your way back to self is continuing to grow not necessarily getting back to a place it's continuing to grow I feel like we become stagnant and we become you know nothing seems new to us anymore it's like a

point where you just you've grown and you've been at that point for a while which isn't bad you know if you can appreciate that I feel like it can last forever but you know he who thinks the journey is over is truly lost so sometimes it's like realizing that you still have to move forward there's still more to you there's still more you can grow towards there's still parts of yourself that you have yet to discover and and things you have yet to overcome I feel like part of getting I feel most like myself when

I'm overcoming when I'm breaking down some of the mental barriers I've placed for myself or have been placed on me in in some type of way when I'm growing when I'm changing I feel most like myself I don't know necessarily know what it is but it's like changing in a sense of realizing more about myself you know you know becoming more enamored with who I am and like practicing that self Lov appreciating who I am on a very fundamental level but also like on a very Grand level like how I choose to express myself or

how you know my passion seeps through some article or some vessel some you know form of expression getting back to yourself or finding your way back to yourself it's not about leaving yourself behind it's about sort of looking in the mirror it's about finding something that's been there all along you know the you inside the you the non-external you the internal you the way you actually are or the way you want to be it's all about a relation to who you are a relation to yourself and uh I guess that's the main point I wanted

to cover with this but in general I feel like as as life progress you know our intention really weighs heavily on that as much as like I like motivation as much as I I'm interdiscipline or what not you know I still fall off my game I still I still got stuff I got to get back to and that's fine it's all part of the the process part of the journey I don't think that you ever get to a point or you you know might be able to but I don't think that it comes to a

point where you're just like I'm done I found the answer I found the in you know I feel like to exist in that stuck place is to exist within connotation I feel like that's when you can point fingers at somebody that's when they can point fingers at you and you take it serious you know or maybe you built up enough of a barrier for that not to be the case that's also something I want to touch on maybe in a in a in a later video I realize I'm touching time but it's about finding a

way back to yourself it's also like creating your own definition so like external matters don't really do as much as you you know would think they would there's definitely times in my life where I feel like you know the world I bet I was connotated by the world or I just adopted whatever people were you know necessarily telling about me and luckily like I had a good group of friends you know telling me good things relatively so but for people who don't necessarily have that it's about finding that definition for yourself but not in a

delusional way not in a way that you're disregarding you know other people and disregarding you know the reality ity of it but in a way that you're regarding your own opinion too and if you made it this far the video thank you so much I'm almost I don't even want to say what I'm almost at but I'm about to go live very soon I realiz I haven't been live in like two weeks I've been very busy um school is kind of doing this thing clubs activities organizations but um I've been trying to interact with y'all

more a lot of y'all been sending me like your own work your own music your own writing and whatnot I love it it's very nice um you guys are super talented I also have a Discord up right now I need to figure out or get Nitro I might just fold and get Nitro so everybody can join from the same link but um regardless thank you guys so much um it's been quite a journey like the other day I was almost almost sh a tear just cuz of like it's kind of surreal I've been doing this

for like three years and so but finally got to a point where I feel like I'm actually creating change so it's very like it feels fulfilling almost but I'm just happy that you guys are here I'm thankful for yall um and yeah you made it far thank you uh I got more stuff coming out for you for sure I'm going remain consistent do my best so uh much appreciated