follow your stupid dreams.

so I'm kind of freaking out right now and kind of feeling like this was not a good [Music] idea when I was 7 years old I knew that when I grew up I was going to be an [Music] artist at least until I turned eight when I decided I wanted to be a garbage man and then I turned 11 and realized that becoming a professional skateboarder would be even more fun than riding on a trash truck eventually I grew up I made it into college to study mechanical engineering and I finally figured out my dream

I going to become a snowcat driver [Music] but I never did and not because I never had the opportunity as a matter of fact I actually turned down my dream job I think I felt like it would be stupid to follow my dream when I had just finished working so hard to get my degree and my dream job didn't really line up with the stable responsible person I thought I was supposed to become it was a seasonal job it didn't pay that well and I didn't want to feel like a failure if my dream wasn't

all that I'd imagined it to be but what's worse a failed dream or an abandoned one I can get out of it at any point it's all have to to me I kind of do is I owe it to myself can leave it anyway all I can do is think about everything that I love so I don't even know why mov than I have no real and then other times I just pic really weird it feels like I'm a major part of myself [Music] I still regret not taking that snowcat job and it's not because

I wish that that was my job currently I've moved on from that dream regardless but I regret missing the opportunity to learn to trust myself and to see that it's okay to chase a dream even if it's temporary even if it doesn't turn out that great even if I fail and that sense of regret is one that I'm trying to never feel again okay I'm less than two hours away now and I can be prone to overd dramaticized things I think but this is feeling like a really big deal to me I mean it's a

dream it it's a dream that I'm that I'm checking off the list that I I wondered if I would ever do or not um I'm I'm proud of myself I'm proud picturing the little kid version of me that loved playing with cameras and making art um I think that version of Jake would be [Music] stoked see it see the city [Music] [Music] I'm trying so hard not to get my hopes up for this place cuz I tour just the most perfect spot ever it's massive it's affordable it's right in the neighborhood I want um but

I just got to wait and see should find out tonight though other news oh I see this is what roof it's good to get to clarification like is it is it a oh my god look like Spider-Man up there oh this is cool it's the moment in the film where you're where someone's falling off a cliff and you're holding them it's like and it's got to be like that something oh my God God into the trop is ocean waves and me [Music] kissing all of my ties and we want [Applause] to life is endlessly complicated

and it never feels like the right time to make a big change there will always be plenty of logical practical reasons of why you shouldn't make a change and shouldn't follow your dream so when shade a company based in New York City reached out wanting to work on a couple videos together it was just enough of a push to take the leap and make this dream happen I don't know what I'll be doing a year from now I don't even know what I'll be doing a month from now but today at least it's a dream

come true as the Americans would say we we out here which we are we are out here on on this loud fire escape on Broadway I mean I I run a project called mandal bro that's a a music project but also kind of a YouTube channel that I run and I'm trying to figure out how to find a way to make music and perform it live in a way that a conventional band would but also to join that with my other love which is which is YouTube and storytelling 2 years ago I I decided to

quit my job all of the conventional stuff I did and live off my savings for like a year to start this band and to make music my full-time thing and as incredible as that whole time was by the end of a year and a half which I kind of stretched it to I was just completely broke and there was no sign of the music career starting up anytime soon like it was that's still years of work left I felt so so stupid at that point like ending it with oh I just ran out of all

my money and I'm broke and it hasn't really worked that was very hard to sit with no amount of success or failure will get you to to a point where making stuff isn't a struggle and it isn't like there aren't existential questions around what you're doing like that is I'm always going to be in doubt having this whole uncertain mentality just comes hand inand with the kind of person that ends up doing really interesting things like I see that in everybody all the successful people that I've met all the people that I admire they all

have those doubts and they just keep going or they work through them to then have more doubts the next day like it is not [Music] solved sometimes I feel a little silly for doing this when I already feel a little silly about wanting to make YouTube videos for a living it feels even more Sil to move to like the epicenter of Art and music and theater and film and all these beautiful art forms and I mostly just want to make YouTube [Music] videos the great irony of having dreams is that by definition they aren't real

they're imagined they're mere hopeful projections and the moment a dream is achieved it's no longer a dream anymore it's just reality and the shine and Sparkle of that reality might still last a really long time but it also could prove to fade quite quickly and while I still believe that chasing every single dream is worth it I am also reminded once again that whatever I'm trying to gain by achieving a dream it's already been right in front of me all along I got you a surprise you did yeah you got me a present [Laughter] yeah

I don't know if you know do you know the scientific term for that camera uh a dad camera nail [Laughter] bit that's the dad [Music] can Junior Prince videographer no way you're the Jedi Master videographer I learned Lear from the best we're on the hunt for an alleged secret fingerboard park in Queens keep the shot tight so no one know where we are yeah we're at an undisclosed location in Philadelphia right now looking for a secret fingerboard Park that I don't think is so secret but it looks insane we're going to find it Isaac's first

day ever in New York City man it's going [Music] Philadelphia this place is it's Utopia it's actual [Music] Utopia I feel like I just SM like three [Music] cigarettes all right I'll get it Hey Jake uh I hope you're doing well this is really out of the blue but I have a a proposal for you so for the past 6 months I've been working at this startup called shade and we're basically building a tool for creatives to help manage all their footage to help and collaborate over the internet to help make making videos and making

art just a bit easier and more effective and you know it's something I really care about and this team is really passionate about trying to make something that helps in the creative process and I think what we've got now really does that and so we're trying to figure out how to get the word out about it how do we Market this thing and here's my idea we want to spend our marketing budget just getting really cool things made put this product in the hands of creatives and get them to run with it and see what

they can make um if you have a specific video you want to make you've always wanted to make I want to support you in making that I want shade to be able to support you in making that I know that's perhaps not how Brands usually sponsor things but we are a company that supports creatives and I want us to act like it so don't worry about an ad read or anything like that just tell your story make the video and if you could mention shade at some point in the video that would be great that's

all I ask um yeah let me know what you think that's about it uh dude I really hope to see you in New York soon and uh yeah take care