start before you know how.

sometimes I feel a little stuck like there's too many options and if I choose the wrong one well my life might just fall apart and I find that I distract myself so I don't even have to make a choice my mornings look the same every day wake up at 7:00 do a little bit of exercise make a yummy breakfast eat an apple and then my favorite part having a cup of coffee after that I like to go for a walk where I can think of new ideas and that's when it happens every time I start

to question everything am I making the right decision do I really know what I'm doing how will all of this come together and my mind starts to race but it wasn't always like this for a while I didn't have to make any choices they were made for me Andrew Andrew can you take the trash out yeah it's not that I didn't know what I was going to do it's that others made all of my choices all I had to do was listen until one day I realized I wanted to do something different I picked up

a camera for the first time in 2018 I had a fascination with images mainly images that convey an emotion I quickly realized that I didn't know how to take photos but I went for it I would go out every day and just try to capture a photo that meant something to me I tried so hard for years to get big jobs and take my photography to the next level but it never happened honestly I wanted to give up I felt like I had made the wrong choice in this Pursuit but with every day that passed

I continued showing up and 5 years after I picked up a camera for the first time I was asked to shoot for Grammy award-winning artist de Grammy goes to De don't let me down thank you I felt like I wasn't ready for this opportunity mainly because I always viewed my work and my skills still as a beginner I had never worked on a set before so to be thrusted into the lion's den I felt I was out of my depths but just as I did every day leading up to it I tried to capture a

photo that would convey an emotion there was something so surprising about realizing how far I had come simply by showing up every day and trying to learn something new with each day looking back I realized that the fears and doubts that you have when starting something new don't always go away and sometimes they morph into new fears but being able to ignore them and press forward you realize they hold no weight and that takes us to our next Endeavor which didn't go so well I've always wanted to create some sort sort of brand and after

a few years of doing photography my friend Meredith and I decided to create a brand to bring creatives together it was called made by Saturday the goal was simple create a brand that would bring not only our friends together but also creatives we had never done anything like this before so we weren't sure how to start there was a strange piece in not having any expectations of what it could be our main goal bring people together and that's exactly what we did designed shirts and sweaters and hosted our first popup and it went perfectly musicians

Baristas and a lot of our friends came we also sold out of everything that we designed from there me and Meredith were eager to get back to the drawing board and that is where it all changed you see after our first popup I had put an unrealistic expectation on myself the feeling of being successful had polluted my thinking I didn't want to be viewed anymore as a failure which led me to play it safe I found myself disagreeing with with May on her ideas I didn't want to do anything that was a maybe it had

to be perfect I found that in the beginning stages of doing anything new you'll be bad and you need to be okay with that because that allows you the freedom to explore and try new things the lack of embracing that ultimately led to the end of made by Saturday and experiencing all of that is what allowed me to follow through with Endeavor number three YouTube something that I always wanted to do yet at the same time it seemed like an impossible dream I was already editing for a YouTuber and I knew how to make videos

but anytime I clicked record to film myself it seemed like I didn't know what I was doing there's a harsh reality in starting new things first it's exciting and then that excitement wears off really fast you can't get many places you go through a process of uncertainty and fear and it's easy connect your identity with what you're doing to everyone else it was a cute little hobby but to me it was something more it was something that I had to see through I had grown tired of starting new things and never finishing them I knew

that this time it would have to be different i' would have to give a new level of focus and that is where brick comes in Brick is a physical device that temporarily removes distracting apps but how first you choose the apps you want to block and then you Breck your phone this is is different than the time limit feature on your phone because you can't just add more time with brick if the physical device isn't with you you can't open the app which means I can use my phone more as a tool and less of

a distraction so what are you waiting for use the link in the description below to get 10% off of your next purchase and thank you brick for sponsoring this video ultimately the pursuit of these three things have told me that you can't just wait around and keep wondering if you're making the right choice a mentor of mine used to tell me instead of hoping you're doing the right thing make it the right thing there was something so simple about that I don't think any great inventor or artist started out with 100% confidence in their idea

and even as they pursued it they probably encountered a lot of discouragement I found that within all three of these Pursuits I had to deal with comparison in the early stages I compare my day one to someone's day 1000 and I don't think that's very fair I also found that I can't hold myself to expectations I can't control for example how people receive my art or my videos I can only control the quality so if there's 100 people like it or 100,000 people it doesn't change the quality or the importance of the thing I did

so maybe using the fact you don't know how it'll all work out as a reason not to do it maybe it's the very reason you should do it I wanted to to film this part because this is the reality of the process like you're making something and you don't think it's great but you just got to keep moving forward I guess and I feel like we can watch videos like this and get really inspired and like oh I'm just going to go do it and it negates the reality of the emotions that you actually feel

when you embark on that thing I I took footage of uh me writing I kid you not I'm literally writing this right now and I just I like I just was like is is this is this even good like what I don't even know and I feel like the script so far in the video is good but now that I'm halfway through or whatever I'm just like what yeah I essentially the the intro to my video like you start and then all of a sudden you hit something and then in your mind you're just like

dude I don't even know if this is good and yeah it was just really it was really hard uh I feel like I put a lot of pressure on myself to make this video perfect because my last one did so well and I didn't want to feel like I was taking a step back I wanted to feel like I was progressing and the whole time while making it it just like no the the voice is in my head of like no this isn't a good idea this is dumb this is bad I realized I wanted

to talk about that because you again you can watch a video like this and just be inspired to go do something but that doesn't mean that those voices won't be there having the understanding of like I'm going to go through these like es and flows but if I can just remain consistent through it the final product will be so worth it so I'm I'm like halfway through the video I don't feel great about the video to be honest I'm just going to keep making it and hopefully by the time you're watching this part you'll have

seen the whole thing and think dang that was a good video and I'm glad he stuck with it so I said this in my last video as well that for everyone that watches this this video only about 20% of people will make it to this part um and if you are a part of that 20% leave a comment letting me know that you're a part of the 20% but also what is that what are those questions and those fears that keep coming up every time you think about something you want to pursue and maybe I

don't know someone can read the comment and they've gone through that thing they can they can tell you like hey it's that none of that is true and and you can make it through but yeah I don't know guys um hopefully by the time I'm done this the video will be I'm just rambling I hope this video was good anyway love you guys