Michael Singer - From Finite to Infinite

G Gus the Buddhists talk about right understanding look at this the simplest and most basic and important understanding of right understanding is that you are already perfect and that's the truth you already enlightened they already won with God they never weren't listen to me you never weren't you never left it's a question of understanding what's going on the example I always use because I think it works for you is you live in a house you have a family you have a job there's a beautiful Outdoors you you have a very nice life then one day

you turn on the TV and there's something on that either really excites you or really disturbs you and you're going to find out that you can't take your eyes off of it you're going to find out that you become like transed you sit down on the couch you don't even know how you got on the couch and you are glued to the television you're enthralled you're captured I don't know what you want to call it during that time when you are that enthralled and engaged and hypnotized if you will into what is going on on

that TV you don't have a family you don't have a house you don't have an outside you don't have a job you don't even have a past not at that moment because your consciousness is who you are you are what you're conscious of period you are conscious of thoughts so of course you identify with those you're conscious of feelings you identify with those and you're conscious what comes through your senses and that's who you are at that moment there is something you are not conscious of doesn't exist to you do you understand that period it

doesn't exist you're not conscious of it could be right next to you so calling your name but you're so absorbed in the television that you don't hear them therefore they don't exist to you do you all understand that you've been there haven't you okay when you go to movies I use that example in the book when you go to movies you hope that happens to you you don't to be sitting there in a dark theater next to a bunch of strangers for two hours that's not what's supposed to happen is it right the movie is

supposed to engage you it's supposed to capture your attention your awareness if it does you're not in a movie theater I mean you are but you're not you're in the movie see the difference that is the essence of spirituality that's right understanding what's going on you are the awareness of being Consciousness your Consciousness pays attention to what we call in the trade objects of Consciousness it could be a television it could be a person it could be a snake it could be a thought and your awareness of being you you in their High your awareness

of being focuses on either one or a number you can multitask a number of different things but not a lot of things like I mean how many things are go on in the universe right now that you could pay attention to about 700 billion zillion all over China and here and everywhere understand that but you're not paying attention to it period how many thoughts could you have 100 billion zillion but you're only experiencing the ones you're experiencing I mean big deal two three four five who cares right the point is it's very small isn't it

so your Consciousness is limited to the objects of Consciousness that it's paying attention to there is that simple and those are very few in comparison to reality comparison to the whole universe so why make such a big deal about that exactly I know you won't believe me but exactly what is happening when you sit down and get enthralled in a TV show and that becomes who you are for that period of time you have to think this is who I am that's who who you are why because there's nothing else there's no other thoughts there's

no other feelings if you have thoughts and feelings they're about the TV show you feel compassion for the characters instead of feeling compassion for your children or your husband there's no children or husband going on in there unless they're in the TV okay why don't I Mak such a big deal out of it because I'm telling you that is what's happening instead of your Consciousness being lost and limited to the TV your Consciousness is lost and limited to you to the TV that's playing inside your thoughts your emotions and what is coming in through your

senses right there's like a flat screen TV in there that you're watching it talks to you through your thoughts I don't know why he did that but maybe I should go over it no I don't want to go over it you pay attention to that don't you all right feelings I don't want to talk about those right you got those they come up they capture your attention don't they all right if you come to me and you sit there and you say I won't let you but if you come to me you sit there and

say oh since my boyfriend or girlfriend left my heart it hurts so bad you don't want to hear the therapy I'm going to give you that's why they won't let me do it I know what I'm going to say oh my heart hurts so bad and he left and ever since he left it just feels like it's being ripped out of my chest you want to talk about this and I'm going to interrupt you which is not nice and no good therapist would do that all right I'm going to ask you how do you know

how do you know your heart hurts the same way you know what's on TV the same way you know what's in front of you you are conscious of it right right or wrong at that moment a hurting heart is the object of Consciousness that you're most aware of sometimes you can get so aware of it you just get lost in it who is mean there's nothing else in your life you you don't remember anything from the past nothing good ever you understand that you're just lost in your hurt heart who is you are the same

person that used to like the open heart was it a different you who notices the hurt heart that noticed the Open Heart the nice heart it's the same you they just you were you in there when you were six just I want an intuitive answer but last week were you in there paying attention to the thoughts and feelings how about three years ago were you in there when you were 6 years old were you in there you always been in there haven't you when you were six or eight years old did you ever stand in

front of a mirror and look at your body did it look like it looks now was it you looking question is who are you who are you that is in there that is watching what the emotions are that is noticing what the thoughts are and it is noticing what's coming in through your senses you have five senses they come in and you're aware this is what you're looking at like you're looking at me all right who is you know maybe you're interested in what I'm saying I want to know who is in there noticing that

there's this guy up here talking okay you notice if I Disappeared wouldn't you and you notice that your thoughts where'd he go what you're noticing everything that's going on who is that is what spirit spirituality is about under all conditions it is about you you Christ said it the kingdom is within you right that's literally that's my favorite part what Christ said the kingdom is within you and he knew what he's talking about literally it is within the you that I'm talking about but you don't hang out with the you you hang out with what

you're aware of you hang out with your thoughts your emotions and what is coming into your senses and that's your life you understand that that's exactly the same as if you walk into the house and instead of paying attention to what's going on in the house and everywhere else you sit down on the couch and get sucked in the TV you've limited your Universe to what you're aware of which is very small when you're watching TV isn't it okay it's tiny compared to the rest of what's going on you already understand that so you have

limited your Universe to what you're aware of and if what you're aware of your object of Consciousness is this tiny TV screen you limited it the kids could be crying you don't hear them you're supposed to be doing things you're not doing it you they're not part of your Universe all right this is your Universe I'm telling you someday if you go deep enough and you practice the teachings for long enough you will find out that's exactly what's happening you are not limited to your thoughts just like you're not limited to the TV screen you

just happen to be limiting your Consciousness to your thoughts because those are the things that interest you those are the things that enthrall you if your heart starts to hurt you're going to pay attention to the damn thing so you just took your Universe you went it became the size of your hurt heart because that's all that exists for you that could go on for a while couldn't it some people get all lost in there for a long time and it's the same thing with your thoughts you are not your Consciousness is not limited to

your thoughts your thoughts are just things that are in the realm of what your conscious is aware of they are objects of Consciousness all of your thoughts I don't care what they are good thoughts bad thoughts holy thoughts Unholy thoughts doesn't matter the thoughts clouds are passing in the sky one of them looks like the devil one of them looks like Christ one of them looks like Buddha who cares they're clouds that's what thoughts are there are things that are being created by your mind inside your head somewhere there right and it's just like you're

watching TV you're watching I you know what I call it Oprah has the channel o you have the channel U right you're watching the TV screen of you and that's what you're watching and so it limits your Consciousness to whatever you're aware of and I'm telling you that's what you're aware of and we spend a little time talking about that well why would I spend so much time talking about that what's I got to do with right understanding because I let the cat of the bag you who's looking is the part that the Bible means

when it says Man was created in the image of God I don't have to believe that you should know that explore the nature of self what is the nature of your being all right Yogananda talked about his whole thing was selfrealization all right his is the foundation he made was self-realization Fellowship all right what does that mean self-realization don't just use those words willy-nilly it means realizing the self realizing not the self some object of Soul like people say let's say I'm terrible if somebody asked me they came up they said well M do people

have a soul no people do not have a soul they are the soul you are the Consciousness that's in there who's aware of everything it sees that is what's meant by the word Soul the essence of your being that which is not made of physical matter that which is consciousness it's the Consciousness is the greatest thing in the universe why it's the only thing that knows it and knows it it knows right the piano doesn't know it's there but Consciousness all of a sudden brings light to us it's called The Light Of Consciousness when light

shines on something it illuminates it it takes on its shape it illumines it when Consciousness is aware of something it brings life to it it brings meaning to it if everything in the universe existed and nothing was ever conscious of it it wouldn't be it wouldn't matter it would be zero if nothing nothing ever was conscious of it well what purpose is it nothing the Great Master of Mayor Baba used to say it like this everything in the universe all of it is zeros right take the number one and put it to the left of

all those zeros all of a sudden they're worth a 100 billion zillion trillion that one is consciousness that's what brings life and meaning and Essence to everything do you see the difference okay so it's like talk about Helen Keller I like that that story right they didn't think she was in there I don't know what they thought she wasn't conscious I don't know because she couldn't see or hear Etc but they found out that she could touch that she felt sense sensation of touch and they developed an entire language in touching and they found out

she's in there and she has thoughts and she has emotions and she goes to sleep and she wakes up she's exactly the same as everybody else she just doesn't receive through her senses okay but the point is you're conscious and if you're conscious you're a living being you're present that's the sentin it's the greatness of your being so net result is the question is not are you conscious you are always conscious I like in the comic books when you're knocked out conscious you see stars who does okay there are times when people go into Comas

that they do different things when they come back they got all these stories about what was going on or ner death experiences and they went into the light and they were flatlined here right the question is not what was the light like did you meet your grandmother that's not the question the question is who noticed that who noticed there was a tunnel who noticed there was a light who noticed there was a relative on the other side that's what I want to know is it the same you that was down here noticed noticing what was

on TV or how the car in front of you was driving right as is that the same you who noticed the tunnel and went through the tunnel of course it is there's only one you it's the essence of your being I'm a nice Jewish Yogi but I like Christ teachings right and I have to admit once in my life I read the New Testament in 72 or 73 but when I'm teaching it just comes back it's just ridiculous there is a line in the Bible that says if thine eye be single then thy whole body

shall be filled with light If thy eye be dual How great is the darkness within you probably not word for word but it's close right this is what you're talking about you're talking about if your seat of Consciousness is one there may be many thoughts not everybody in there agrees with you do they forget about everybody out here not everybody in there agrees with you you got have a thought saying this and a thought saying this and a thought saying that a feeling doing this right or wrong is the same Consciousness that is aware of

all of them isn't it it's you right you come and say I just can't do anything with my mind it's driving me crazy I love it that's wonderful who's it driving crazy like when you say that you're a great Yogi you're admitting you're not your mind right I can't handle my mind driving me crazy I'm having a bad mind day I can't would you come to me and say I can't meditate I would love that I don't let you do these things but if I did right you come to me and say I can't meditate

what do you mean you can't meditate do you breathe yeah okay that's if you meditate no I sit down to meditate and my mind goes crazy how do you know do you hear me that's meditation not that you made the mind be quiet be aware of the fact that you are aware that your mind is not shutting up that's a very high State it's called witness Consciousness it's not mind control it's seating yourself behind the mind how do I get behind the mind you don't get behind the mind you are behind the mind there's never

a moment ever that you were not behind the mind watching the mind you do know what it's doing don't you if your mind says I want something I want it so bad or I don't want this I'm so scared you know it's doing that don't you if you can't fall asleep at night you lie there why my mind won't shut up who mind the word my is a possessive pronoun who who's the owner who noticed the mind that is spirituality all right so the question you have two choices do I spend my entire life focusing

on what I'm aware of or do I spend my life trying to realize who I am that's aware of these things what is the nature of self what is the nature of Consciousness what is the nature of awareness what is the nature of the indwelling we call it the indwelling being who's that you is that funny it's it's a Buddhist term the indwelling being let's not make it sound mystical it's how do I I don't know what word to give to you in there self Atman Soul Essence I am just too many words all right

that's the mind trying to talk about who's watching it you understand that right it's like the it's like the car trying to understand who's driving it right that's silly they do that or or better a computer because a computer can think at least it can make believe it does all right but imagine imagine a computer trying to figure out who you are that's watching it do its thing that's ridiculous you're Transcendent to the whole thing that's what the word means you live at another level you're outside of it's like a light that shines on something

the light illumines what it's shining on but what it's shining on is not the light it has nothing to do with the light the light is coming from the source it's just projecting its Essence its Radiance onto the object it is the same thing with your Consciousness your Consciousness is back in here back back that's I'm going to tell you back it's back behind from the seat of Consciousness it's like the your couch where you watch TV from the seat of Consciousness you've heard that term seat of Consciousness now hope it means something to you

right it's not something you get to think about because if you're thinking about it you're watching your thought you're not in the seat of Consciousness I wonder what the seat of Consciousness I wonder if I think I'm there the the seat of Consciousness is what is watching yourself think about the seat of Consciousness it is the awareness of being so I told you the choice of your life your whole life is is do you spend your life devoted to the objects of Consciousness and I'll talk about why you do that and you do do that

spend your life devoted to the objects of Consciousness what are the thoughts what are the feelings and what is coming into the senses okay that's I'm devoting that I don't know anything about who I am I'm devoting all of my energy and all of my will and the essence of my being to the objects that are passing before my Consciousness all right or and this is what there this is essence of spirituality everything else is just mind do I devote my life to exploring me who's in their watch and not think about it be it

you understand the difference you can't think your way there because the very Act of thinking is it pulls you down you can't find your kids by looking closer into the TV get a life not in there right get a life means stop watching the TV I don't know how to I don't even know there is no TV I'm in the TV that's where I live right my whole Consciousness is buried inside of there well then what's going to happen okay you're lost that's the fall from the garden by the way and again you you just

have to find it for yourself but someday you will understand the fall from the garden it is not something you go read in Genesis and figure out what they're supposed to be talking about all right you will return and you will watch the fall again you will literally come back to the seat of Consciousness feel the Ecstasy The Joy the expansiveness the Oneness the presence the love of the nature of your being because that is who you are and that is the nature of the most terrible person in the entire world that's the nature of

their being the nature of your being is divine nature of your being was created in the image of God it is ecstasy it is Joy it is love it is universal of Consciousness it is expansive period right the trouble is it is addicted to watch in TV one channel it doesn't even change channels all right it's just watching that one channel of your thoughts your hopes your dreams your Concepts your views your beliefs your polit politics your everything who you like who you don't like whether they're being true to you or not being true to

you can you trust them can you not trust them and I don't want to feel jealousy because I really have trouble with jealousies I don't want to be oh my God are you lost in that channel there's not one moment you're not in that Channel all right but you who is watching that channel have nothing to do with that you're the highest s that ever the face of the Earth you you do you hear me there's again a line of the Bible I me sure I get this one right but Christ says right as I

sit by the Throne of my father now that is not a seat don't you pay me some picture with a gold Throne sitting there or something that's absurd it is a PL a seat of Consciousness it is where are you sitting inside right well I'm lost in this or I have this or I've gone deeper it is a seat of Consciousness they get very high these seats of Consciousness so as I sit by the Throne of my father meaning you've gone far enough back to where you're with God you're you're expansive you're Universal you're enlightened

call it whatever you want right as I sit by the Throne of my father so you also shall sit by my Throne whoa and these things that I do you should do these and even greater things do you understand that so your consciousness in its pure sense what does it pure sense mean it's not focused on an object of Consciousness perhaps you've heard in Buddhism Zen especially there's a thing called empty mind who's ever heard that empty mind it means that the that the Consciousness is not absorbed in the objects within your mind you're welcome

to think anytime you want but it's not like you have to be Lo look just the fact that you're in the TV you could stop being in the TV you could still go back you can watch anytime you want but you're not addicted to being lost in the limitations of the TV do you understand that there is a seat within you where you are not addicted to being you to being this concept of yourself this stupid little whining thing in there that has all these problems and all these Concepts and Views and doesn't like other

people don't agree with it and come on all right you just you just limited yourself to this tiny thing and you think your thing is right that's like saying one channel on the the TV is more right than the other none of them is more you I don't care what it is watch an action film watch the weather watch the news watch the you know preaching channels doesn't matter who are you that's watching it there's no different you understand the G talks about that talks about going beyond the gunas beyond the qualities of nature is

very deep goes the qualities of nature nature itself meaning your mind your heart and the world have it says three main qualities they call them gunas Thomas Darkness sloth low energy call it whatever you want right things are like that aren't they uh rajas passion action I don't care if it's passion for it passion against it fear desire lust greed whatever it is that's different than sloth okay the Thomas is to Define many different words could be used for those things right so Thomas is the low energy and your mind can have low energy your

heart can have low energy you can have low energy the world can have low energy right all kinds of things and or it could be passionate action right weather could be stagnant right that's Thomas or it could be active in storing right stuff are going on or then it's satvic satv the other Guna is pure peaceful High quiet not passionate lustful running all around just deep sense of of peace and wholeness and greatness and what the Gita teaches don't get lost in any of them that's why the Gita is so deep it's it's hard for

people to read it right it says who's watching those it literally says that who is it that notices that there's low energy some sometimes you have low energy sometimes you have passionate or fearful energy that drives you to action and sometimes very rare he gets quiet in there then she says lovey doy just leave me alone I want to be alone it's nice the G asked the question fine who are you that notices this variation of these different states that's who you are you are the one thing that doesn't change all right so basically again

I ask you are you going to spend your life trying to get it so that the objects of Consciousness are comfortable to you so that in essence spend your life sitting on the I love the example that's why I keep using it you're going to spend your life and devote it to sitting on the couch and finding a channel that you're comfortable with you hear me you it doesn't matter what channel you're watching your Consciousness is limited to this tiny little thing in the universe right the fact that you kind of don't you're not suffering

as much because you found a channel you're a little comfortable with or you're a good Surfer a channel Surfer you keep changing it right that's all you're doing when you Channel surf boom boom boom boom right is trying to find something you stay in the TV something will catch your attention and make you feel comfortable all right that's what you're doing with life you're sitting in the seat of Consciousness your seat you don't know it just say you don't know yourself sit on the couch when you watch TV don't say to me I don't know

that I'm in a SE of conscious I don't know what you're talking about of course you don't just like if you're in the TV and you're completely lost of the TV you don't know you're on a couch do you you don't think about it you don't feel like anything that's exactly what's happening but you are on a couch aren't you right you have nothing to do with the TV you've just projected your Consciousness your awareness onto that object that is what you've done here you're a great being and great is very great all right you're

Universal your nature is univers you're infinite you're Eternal I don't usually use the words with you I assure you right that see they preach that to you they don't know what they're talking about right you the self is not made of matter it will never be born it has never died it is consciousness and it is part of the Divine it is array of the Divine Consciousness and it's Universal and its nature and beings can return to that so Christ meant when he said my father and I are one a yogi understands that not like

weird okay like wow it was enlightened this whole individual Consciousness that used to watch TV let go enough to where not individual anymore it fell back into the source it's like getting up from the couch how much bigger is your world there's a line in the Bible that says in my father's house there's many mansions in other words it's way bigger it's way big when you get up from the TV there's lots of places to see aren't there if you're in the TV you can't even imagine imagine how many more there are there's a whole

universe out there a whole world it's the same thing with your seed of Consciousness so what it boils down to is your awareness of being is lost in your thoughts your emotions okay and because they are so important to you you pay attention to them all that has to happen is one thought poping in your mind bye-bye one thought could pop in your mind you're not going to sleep for two days right well what what he's not he's not home hasn't quot what what if he's out with somebody else oh my God what would I

do what are what are you doing that mess you up good won't it him too when he comes home it doesn't take much for a thought to pop in your head or an emotion to emote out of your heart or something to unfold in front of you you understand that you could walk out and forget where you parked your car and while you're looking for it your mind could say oh my God somebody stole it they stole my car oh my God I'm going to get in so much trouble I borrowed it from my parents

what and and all that's going on and you're getting yourself completely upset and then oh there it is yeah I kind of remember I put it there right you're still upset you understand that that upsetness ain't going away because you found your car you got yourself all messed up your aura is all messed up this is what it's like to live in there that's what it's like for your Consciousness to be absorbed in this tiny little space of you all right it challenge youed to ask my students as follows right how many things are there

that your mind could think about at any time anytime Mars Saturn the Rings about Mars planets around you I mean how many things are there in the universe you be thinking about right now 800 billion zillion trillion correct right what percentage of your thoughts have something to do with this five or six foot by two foot three foot little space that's right here that little box how about 99% do you understand that what do I want what do I not want oh my god when I was little my parents got divorced it bothers me still

it's what what in the world right you are completely your Consciousness is completely addicted to you to this little box of objects that make up your thoughts your emotions and what's coming in through your senses or what has come in so you are limited what are you limited to the experiences you've had there not a single thought going on in your head that there wasn't something you experienced like Freud talks about suppressed stuff you only suppress what already happened to you you didn't suppress something that didn't happen if you've never experienced anything you don't know

anything about it so you've gone through life let's now let's start building how to get out the way to get out is to figure out how you got in how'd you get caught in here because that's your Escape Route by walking your way backwards you can't just all of a sudden just start think of something else yeah you have Buddha say work at the root you have to understand the root cause of this how did you get so caught in in there right if you're the highest being that ever walk the face of the Earth

and you are okay you are as great as they come right why in the world would you limit yourself to that and you know what that I'm talking about that little whining creature that is so hard to live with you take I can't I I remember when I first caught on I was like I can't take him anywhere anywhere I take him he's embarrassed he's a shamed he doesn't know his hair looks okay do his shirt tucked in or the thing did he say something wrong oh my God he might say something wrong he didn't

say something so impressive I thought of that why didn't I think what is this guy I don't want to take him anywhere he's no fun okay so you wake up all right first why is it like that your conscience is going to go on that which interests you the most if you're watching a TV show and you're all sucked in the commercial comes on you're back you hear me unless you happen to be into commercials all right then you're not okay but basically if it doesn't interest you I love that word interest you if your

Consciousness is not attracted to it if it's not engaged with it it's not going to capture your Consciousness so you'll be able to go about your business and not be lost in that you don't have to be as little you're as little as what your Consciousness limits itself to okay and that's pretty little so why is your Consciousness so interested to where it not only does it not free itself but you can't even free it try it sometime try to not think about you see what happens try to not care what your emotions are you

have limited your conscious to this tiny thing why because it is what interests you and because it interests you you don't even know you can get your Consciousness off of it if you watch the TV long enough you don't know you're not a TV it becomes your concept of self so your concept of self now is made up of your body your thoughts and your emotions psychology causes your self-concept I called it your concept of self they sound very familiar right guess what's true about both of them they're not you a concept is not who

you are it is a thought about who you are if I ask you uh here I have a fruit you've never seen before it's called a basa Booka all right what does it taste like you should say to me how do I know I don't have any idea but you don't right you say well it's shaped a little bit like a chicken I saw once it probably tastes like a chicken my concept is it will taste like a chicken right it's something you made up in your mind and created a thought World about it and

you now have a concept about it that's what you did about yourself you should be the self not have a concept about the self a concept about the self is something the self's aware of this is what I'm I have a self-concept that I'm a beautiful young woman but what happened I got old I haven't been happy ever since the first gray hair did it and the first varico vein that was it that ended it all together what what are you doing you made up a concept about yourself and now if it doesn't match your

mind goes crazy so now the question we're asking is why if you are the greatest thing that ever walked the face of the Earth and you are your Consciousness is one with God it's it's born of God it's in the image of God it's pure Consciousness it's in the East it's called satand Eternal conscious ecstasy that's what what happens the closer you get to the nature of your being you just feel this overwhelming love and joy and ecstasy and freedom not bad stuff it's what you're looking for out here is what you are in there

okay this the silliest thing in the world so why can you not remove your Consciousness from the addiction of your tiny little self of these tiny thoughts you have to understand how it got built what happens is when the soul drops into the body when Consciousness becomes aware of the body it loses its sense of self it becomes overwhelmed by the senses that come in through the body the sights and sounds and all this it's all of a sudden it's coming in all right and it has to deal with it and make a real long

story short if you want to go to the whole thing take the course I did online I did a course for you all eight nine hours by the way eight sessions it goes in full detail of how all this happened how you built this mind that you have in there so basically it is is uncomfortable it's it's being pulled into the overwhelming sensory overcharge that's happening it's overwhelmed with a sensus and it it came from a peaceful place and this ain't so peaceful it's all coming in so it immediately and if you had a kid

you'll see it's very young age tries to Define its relationship with the world that it sees mommy daddy blankie crib I said you once before go go ask your child psychologist or Early Child Development years what would happen if every single night you put the child into a different crib and have a different person put put the kid in there it ain't going to work out too good is it you understand that because the child can't build a self-concept the child is overwhelmed with these constantly new things going in and the Soul which has dropped

into the body is trying to get its bearings and it can't get its bearings there is no relationship to mommy there's no relationship to Daddy there's no relationship to crib there's no relationship to mind there's no relation to blank do you understand that so they tell you not to do that guarantee you if you're ever a parent they don't do do that okay keep it keep it pretty stable and standard why the child will then develop a concept that I understand at night I'm going here and in the morning I'm going here and if they

don't they cry a lot right it really is a beautiful thing to watch it's because you're lost and you're trying to develop a concept that's stable so you can hang on to that you understand that so that you can feel some stability and guess what you're still doing it it did not stop at any particular development age age right if somebody I I used to tell the story like this you come in here after we had a Sunday service and John plays the guitar for the Sunday service right and you come here you've never touched

a guitar in your life it is very quickly you never touched a guitar in your life you sit down you pick up his guitar you start struming around playing around sing a little bit right and all of a sudden two or three or four people walk in and they hear you and they stay quiet right and you do this a little while 10 15 minutes and they walk in you realize they're there and you're embarrassed because you don't know how to play and they said how long you been playing you don't want to tell them

10 minutes but you you raise above your ego and you say 10 minutes and all of a oh my God you're like a prodigy why you're really good I mean do you know that you how good you are I mean I know people that played for years and can't play that well you just pick that up no lessons nothing all right fine right now they go out right you're sitting there for another five minutes and you start playing again you're to totally different attitude about you're playing right now do you understand that another group walk

in and sit there and say oh my God put that thing down John would be so upset that you don't even know what you're doing a play guess what's coming out of your mouth I do so do you hear me all it took was five minutes and it became part of your self-concept yes or no doesn't take much does it doesn't take much what's that teaching you you're still doing it you're still trying to find yourself you're still trying to Define a a a thing that you can relate to that this is who I am

and no one's found it yet you understand that and you're defensive if they challenge what you defin yourself as and you're you're trying to grab to get something that other people will be impressed with because you define yourself I don't know what to tell you you're busy defining yourself Jesse if you want to see how much you're defining yourself have somebody challenge how you've defined yourself like that but just a tiny little thing you know you're in a conversation with some friends they say something you say something they then you say something they say nah

that's not right let's Google it you start turn white you turn white let's not Google let's go eat because you don't want to be wrong you understand that some stupid little thing how many words got said on the planet Earth at that moment 800 billion zillion and you said one or two right but man you own no suckers don't you right if it came into your thoughts and it came out of your mouth you die there are people that if they said it it's wrong they will make everyone around them say it's right their wife

their spouse it's just amazing what the self-concepts like isn't it because you're lost in there of course you're lost you're trying to Define yourself as the TV show no you're sitting on the couch hello there's no way you're going to be satisfied being the TV show I don't care what's on or how good it looks you you understand that you will never ever be okay trying to identify yourself with something you're not and that's why you have to keep making sure you're dressing right and you don't smell and the hair right exactly right within a

quarter of an inch too long in the front of the back every single thing it's a it's a bear isn't it it's not so easy to live in there is it okay the slightest thing happen it gets weird inside that's all because you are hiding behind this self-concept somebody wants to ask yoga n to fully enlightened Master what is the ego he didn't say the devil bringing hell on Earth you know what he said the masquerading self what does you mean masquerading you pulled a mask around yourself to hide yourself that's what your ego is

the self-concept that you define yourself as so that's what happened you pull this around you build this thing and you're serious about it how serious dead serious there are here tell is a rumor that it could get so messy in the self-concept that people kill themselves right no one ever killed themselves except that their self-concept got so bad in there that were saying oh my God I'll never find anybody this is terrible why even bother living if she left me and she's out with somebody else I could never handle it what is that that is

a broken self-concept isn't it right and we know a psychology will teach you build a new one make a nicer one you have to have a strong self-concept well that's better than suicide I agree with them you understand that but it's not better than Enlightenment right that's that's the difference are you going to go in there build this mask around yourself because you're lost in there you're disoriented right and live your whole life trying to by to build one and then have the outside world always agree with it come on you relate to me right

never have anything happen that shakes the boat in there right and have everything that's supportive and reinforcing then I'm okay right and that that's that's what you try to do with your relationships I trust him do you have any idea what you mean when you say that you trust him well I trust you all I trust that you'll do what you want to do and you'll behave the way you want to behave and you'll you'll be the way you are guess what I'm always right I don't have to worry about that trust right but you

don't that's not what you mean by the trust that he'll be true to himself or she'll be true to herself and Carry On In accordance to what they think is right no I trust that he'll do what I want that's what you come on that's what you mean by trust I trust that he'll never hurt me I trust he'll never do anything I don't expect him not to do I trust that I always can predict where he'll be and what he's going to do in other words I trust that if I'm in relationship with this

special person that I'm safe safe from what safe from getting hit safe from being disappointed safe from having my self-concept not work will you admit to me that that's what you mean by trust right that's what you try to do with your relationships and guess what Society helps you agrees with you why because they think that's the best that you can do is cope they think the best that you can do is build a world outside that supports the world you built inside so that you can be safe and not be freaking out right I

know for a fact that's not the best you can do it's not even close to me that's exactly the same as sitting here saying just get cut the cord and get these thousands of channel that you can stream and get buttons that can quickly go between them and anytime something bothers you switch to another one switch to another one come on get good at it get good at changing those channels and getting everything the way you want better yet own a hire step Spielberg to make the movies that will most fit your stuff and watch

only those that's what we do is it right just get those all lined up so you're always entertained the way you want to and you're safe and don't let anybody else in put bars on the Windows lock the doors don't anybody borrow it you hear me that's what you're trying to do well yoga yoga and spirituality they don't say that they say you are the greatest being That Ever Walked the face of the Earth you're one with God you're your your Consciousness is phenomenal and look what you're doing with it you're so addicted to the

object of Consciousness that not only did it limit you you're committed to the Limit you get more limited so do you understand that you think the answer is to get it so limited that you can predict everything that's going to happen and it never surprises you or freaks you out at all okay whereas the answer is you have to find out that there's something greater inside of you that what you're looking for is not to be lost and disoriented but to be comfortable settling back into the deeper part of your being that's what spirituality is

that's why people meditate that's why people I I don't like it but they talk about renunciation renunciation is not something you should be doing it's not going to lead you where you want to go why why do they do that what is happening is you are addicted to the world being the way you need it to be so that you feel comfortable you're addicted to the world not being the way you don't want it to be so you don't feel uncomfortable is that a true statement all right and you are very committed to going out

there and trying to manipulate everybody and everything so they are the way you need them to be and they aren't the way you don't need them to be and you waste your entire life doing that why the best you can do is be somewhat okay you understand that why because the world keeps changing it doesn't stay the same from one second to the next have fun manipulating controlling it right and by the way not that much is under your control it's like the whole world belongs to itself it belongs to physics and chemistry and psychology

and there's things going on out there you're going to control everything are you in good luck look what you sold out to so what's the answer the answer in the bottom line that's all I ever want to talk about so you understand once in your life is to stop being interested not to control the mind that means I'm interested but I don't want to be I shut it up not to control the world that means I can't handle reality so I have to make it be the way I need but to literally realize why am

I so interested so what my heart hurts so what somebody said something it wasn't right and hit me the wrong way and I got a little weird so what I don't want to devote my life to the lowest part of my being how about you all right yes I have a weirdo in here do you got one okay and it gets weird really easy it doesn't take it can even weird itself ever heard about scared of your own shadow it is scared of itself right you can't take it anywhere you literally won't go to a

party because you think you might not be dressed like everybody else and it'll embarrass you you're afraid to talk afraid to get up and give a public speech but it's just free speech just talk about what what interests you no I'm not comfortable oh you're so cute you understand the weird I'm talking about you got one of those if you devote your life to that I'm going to cry You're Beautiful People You devoted your life to the lowest part of your being where would that ever get you you hear me you're sitting on the couch

watching TV I'm trying to get you off the couch cuz the whole world out here and you're busy trying to get the right Channel and you think the answer is get the right channel then it'll be fine no it won't be fine goodz you're just tied to this tiny little thing so the answer is get out free yourself how stop being so interested in yourself some people some people call that humility I don't want to give it a name right because then know then you're walking around I'm nothing and you know that's just another self-concept

right just realize that your thoughts are meaningless they are meaningless do you know where they come from you know where all those thoughts come from you've had had experiences in the past lots of them every moment you're having an experience some of them were comfortable some of them were not right rattlesnakes aren't so comfortable butterflies are very comfortable that's the nature like remember we talked about everything has it's nature the gunas right so you've experienced things dark you've experien things neutral you experien things light you've experienced many experiences when they come in some are comfortable

some are not come on man there's a whole universe going on you just saw the part that was in front of you handle it no I can't whoa what do you mean no I can't handle reality there was a snake I saw a snake you're never going to go outside again you're never going to take walks you're never going to go to the zoo cuz there's a a you know snake exhibit right how how far how weird you going to get on me because you saw a snake crawling around and it wasn't so comfortable well

it depends right some people get pretty weird don't they some people don't right can you handle reality that is the question of Yogi spiritual person asks you can you handle reality imagine if you say no if you say no you better get a couch and watch the TV because you better get an alternate reality because you can't handle reality so you better try to create one that you're okay with but that's not reality there did you catch what I just said that's why you're watching TV look life is really interesting there's birds and there's there's

PL there's trees and there's flowers and there's noises and there's shapes and there's colors what do you need TV for right because you're caught in this mess inside and you need something more drastic than the birds and the bees and the different things existing in life to distract you from yourself that's called entertainment that's what entertainment is distract my Consciousness from the mess that's going on inside I'll take a vacation I'll watch a movie I'll buy a bigger TV okay if you get it together in there it's always beautiful you're welcome to watch TV but

it's just part of life there's nothing but because it's not you've had let me finish you've had these experiences I asked you can you handle the experience you had the answer of course is no I can't handle the good experience I had because I want more I can't handle the bad experience I have because I don't want it to happen again right if you meet somebody and your heart pops open that's that's not okay with you is it I want to see him again right it wasn't okay you had that experience you need to own

it don't you come on look at me right you need to grab it Buddhist call clinging you need to grab it and cling to it and make sure it stays with you all right and if you had an experience you didn't like you suppress it you push it away I didn't want to have that that stuff gets stored inside your mind the stuff you held on to and the stuff you suppressed and that is where your thoughts come from that stuff is trying to always release it's trying to release when you're sleeping it comes up

in your dreams when you're awake it comes up is all that background talk I don't want to do that you want to see your sister no I don't want to see my sister why because she had a kid the kids are exactly the age that we were at together when she got that bike that I wanted oh my God woo woo is that really going on in there all right it just you didn't make it say that because you had all that stuff stored in there it's trying to release and so things happen and all

of a sudden it reminds it of it and it starts talking about it doesn't it so your whole past pukes up into your mind and it's disturbing everything so you basically that's how the mind got that way because you stored the things that either bothered you which is most of them by the way or really turned you on they are the ones that interest you if something came on the TV that was about your parents and how they first met and you they never would tell you and here's a TV show how Sally's parents met

what you'd never leave that show in a second if it was an episode you'd wait there waiting for the next episode all right it's like it interest you well that stuff in there interests you by definition it's the stuff you stored it's like a self made House of Horrors I mean no House of Horrors anybody ever made can be as bad as the one you made inside you literally stored exactly the things that bothered you the most didn't you every single thing that ever happened to you that bothered you is still in there you didn't

let it go you couldn't handle it so you suppressed it you repressed it you stored it so now there's a house of horrors in there isn't there and you have to make sure it doesn't get stimulated all right so I explained to you where it came from you got to get out there's no life that's not a life to live inside of this this mess and then have to control the world so it doesn't hit the mess in a way that makes you get weird and it hits in a way that makes you I don't

want to talk about it anymore right I hope you realize this is no if I have put One Life to Live no way no way I'm living it that way how about you okay some of you guys are young you really want to devote your life to that you really think someday you'll get it exactly the way you want go find me the person that did what spirituality says no no no no no no that's no way to live get yourself together right work on yourself right what did Christ say don't worry about the splitter

in somebody else's eye wor about the log in yours work on yourself how well like I said I've done it for a long time and the best the bottom line is this first handle the mesh you made inside if you can't handle it you will have to manipulate everything around you so you can handle it you understand that if I can't handle the fact that my husband leaves the toothpaste cap off or leaves the toilet seat up right and all this sort of thing then I'm not going to like my husband as simple as that

right unless he learns to behave himself or she learns to behave herself I'm not going like them well that that's ridiculous so now you got to manipulate and control another person to be who they're not right so they can be the way you want them to be you ever hear somebody say well how are you doing with your new relationship right it's a work in process not so funny in other words you're trying to make the world be the way you need it to be so it fits the mess you got inside well how about

we fix that inside now there's a number of ways to do it I'm am of times going do it very quickly you can go in there and try to change all that you can do stuff to try and you should do the best you can positive thinking meditation this and that right but when it's said and done I don't want you to have to do anything I want you to be free of yourself not manipulative of yourself not if you manipulate somebody else that's worse if you're in there messing with yourself okay at least you're

doing work in the end your Consciousness you can just watch this stuff and let it go if you'd let it go and it happened you'd still like your sister yep she got the bike you wanted you okay with that yeah I guess give her a hug hear me right tell her how how nice she looks on the bike what are the good things to do neutral utze it when it comes in so it doesn't say stuck in there every listening you don't do this do you they they touch a lot of stuff in school they

didn't teach you this right do not let anything negative stay in there if you see a snake and it gets scary and you see the tendency to not like snakes and therefore I don't like walking outside and therefore I don't like people who like snakes and you hear me don't do that don't let it become your self-concept be a conscious being work with it and sit there and say it a snake there are bugs there are snakes there are birds there are butterflies what's it a butterfly and a snake nothing genetics all right give me

a break right just understand that you're okay with it but it was scary yeah but I like scary people go to horror movies they pay money you didn't have to snake made it free of charge neutralize it oh I want to cry when I talk neutralize it when it comes in you're going to have an initial reaction right but don't not be able to handle the reaction so you suppress the thing and keep it inside you let it ruin your life all right so you start now with handling the weather it's hot fine it's hot

it gets to be hot it gets to be cold it gets to be rainy even on your birthday just literally sit there and say I'm a high being and I can handle the fact that it rain on my birthday not funny has a rain for two weeks on either side or it must be a blessing in India when it rains it's called auspicious so you must have a very nice birthday stop making a mess of yourself don't let that happen neutralize it neutralize it work with yourself in the end what you want to do is

handle the moments that are unfolding in front of you so you don't have to suppress them and don't have to like them or not like them you just experience them this is life this is your life and if you'll do that with the moments in front of you you're going to notice it's a warning sign you're going to notice that the stuff you didn't do it with in the past is going to start coming up people say to me oh in the beginning it was so beautiful I was letting stuff go but now it's much

harder I don't know what I did wrong you didn't do anything wrong you have all this stuff stored in there from when you were six and 8 and 10 and 12 and 15 and guess what everything in you wants it out but now that you aren't putting more on it's like a lifeo stack yeah last in first out right you've been shoving this stuff on top of it so the rest can't come out now you stop shoving the stuff on top of it it's go purifying that's what purification is right you stop putting stuff on

top of it it'll start coming up all by itself don't write me and ask me how do I know what I need to let go of you'll know you'll be right in your face but how do I know that this is what I should work with it'll come up in exactly the order it should and just it will do exactly what it needs to do are you capable of handling it can you handle that your parents divorce you feel all the sadness just like you did when you were six and yeah that's right why because

you stored it when you were six and it's stored down there with all the emotions and all the every isn't it come on all right and it will come back up just like that but I don't want it to fine devote your life to avoiding it devote your life to never getting married because if you get married you might have kids and you might get divorced and then the kids would have to go through what you went through there very good that's just wonderful right if it comes up kiss it hello come on up come

on up you're welcome here I don't want you down there causing all this trouble I want to be free I want to be open I want to be able to just embrace all of life if marriage comes marriage comes if marriage doesn't come marriage doesn't come they're beautiful they're both beautiful it's wonderful if I have kids oh it's beautiful I'm going put my whole life the joy of having children if I don't have children wonderful and and you free yourself so the stuff will come up what you need to learn to do is Le keep

your hands to yourself if the TV shows don't interest you you won't keep watching them that's why it's not about renunciation renunciation is it does interest me but I'm not supposed to do it so I won't that didn't get you anywhere you're still keeping it inside it's going to eat away at you it's going to suppress you'll express it different ways we see that going on hear me it's not about that it's not about you think you make me happy but I won't do it right you just come down here and you realize I need

to work to let this stuff come up inside of me cleanse out while I'm just relaxing that's I say relax and release just keep relaxing what do I do with my heart hurts relax how can I relax my heart hurts you figure it out all right it's it's your your your heart hurting is an object of consciousness your conscious does not have to get involved in that you mean I suppress it no don't suppress it what I don't want to do relax relax your shoulders relax your chest relax your buttocks just relax but it gets

tight again relax again that's the highest thing you can do is to relax in the face of what's on TV if you can relax in the face on TV you're relaxed you didn't get engaged you didn't bury yourself in it right eventually you'll say what am I doing I see my life sitting on this couch watching the stupid show you wouldn't even understand why you did it why you you couldn't look back and say why was I ever doing that like a person would stop smoking eventually ew why did I do that you can't even

understand why you break the Habit well you got to break the habit of you you must die to be reborn that's what Christ said that's what it means to die to be reborn you die of the personal self not so you can become something else you are already it you right you have to when you stop watching the TV you don't have to do anything to be you you're it right when you stop being involved in your personal self you will find out that you're not in your personal self where are you in your impersonal

self you are in your infinite self you are in your beautiful self and you bring a blessing down to earth that's right understanding all right