stop waiting on life to happen

I feel like too often we try to wait for our happiness to be shown to us like we wait for those little positive instantiations of what life is stop waiting on life to happen I feel like to often we get so caught up in in our our daily lives to the point where we fail to realize like all the beauty that's within everything around us and I'm not saying just like Beauty and like a sense that oh I look at the sunset it's beautiful no the beauty in like just being able to experience just being

able to walk through your day-to-day and and realize that you know you're a person you can do so much if you want to make someone smile that day you for sure can't if you want to smile that day you can for sure make that happen I feel like it's kind of like that that quote I said in a previous video um stop trying to see the life start trying to be it we should you try to be the life and just trying to see it I feel like when we're trying to see life when we're

trying to perceive that happiness and derive our selfworth and self- happiness and self-esteem from the external we ought to lose a lot it's like anchoring down and un and you know like uh what is it called ungrounded I material or uh a nonstable foundation when you're not you know directly linking stuff to yourself or you're not positing that within yourself you ought to lose a lot I think the external world is a constantly moving constantly changing thing and it's not always going to be in your favor it's not always going to be you know positively

attuned to what you want to do so instead I feel like we have to posit that within ourselves be able to be happy just just being yourself and understand that your happiness can't come from you know external thing it's always an internal thing I think a lot of time we we reach to the external and try to make things happen to make us happy and often times it doesn't work you know sometimes people will get those grand moments they get what they want and month down the line they don't feel anything it's like it's lost

his it's lost his Kindle and for me in my experience cuz you know a lot of stuff recently has turned around for me for it better I'm super appreciative super grateful but I was already feeling that gratitude before I got it I I don't really know how to explain it further than that but like in terms of my happiness I feel like it's just been growing every day I'm finding a new ways to be happy every day spending most of my day positive like I I'll explain like the other day I had a situation I

I just found myself being angry I just found myself being like H like I I just didn't want to talk to people I was going to crash out in a way um and know I was in a social set I just didn't feel like talking didn't feel like doing much but you know in my head I was like I'm kind of wasting time I'm wasting part of my life just sending this this anger that I don't even know the justifications for I don't even know why I'm like this and it's not benefiting me positively so

you know I went to the I went to the bathroom I just got away you know you look in your look yourself in the mirror for a little bit you know try to figure out what's going on if it's nothing you you just got to turn it around you know sort of make those instantiations of positivity and happiness for yourself like I went back out there and started being myself started you know cracking a few jokes being a little goofy um and it turned my whole night around I had so much fun and that's all

because I chose to instead of like trying to bring in my own happiness from the external world I I posited it myself you know instead of taking the world's vibration I gave my own you know I made the choice for myself instead of letting the world choose for me and that's what it really means to be the life instead of trying to see it if you're constantly letting that choice be made for you it's not going to be positive most of the time you know it's a it's a beautiful world but not so good of

a place in a way like of course there's there's plenty of things going on on the road right now that are not happy not positive in the slightest you know people's lives everybody has you know their dark moments light is only in reference to dark you know sometimes you have to experience the bad in order to have the good but understand when you're plaguing you know creating your own Darkness understand when you're dimming your own light by sitting in a place of I don't know negativity or sitting in a place of uh lowness low self-

image low self-esteem because a lot of that you know what brings me happiness is is being genuine most of the time like being able to express myself in a way that's 100% me and the only way I really got to be able to do that cuz before you know like it was me but now I feel like I can I could basically do anything I trust my I trust my morals I trust my spirit I kind of let myself go I said that in another video I think some of you resonated with that a lot

letting yourself go not in the sense of like oh I don't want to do anything for myself I'm not going to I'm not going to try and this I'm not going to try that but instead just doing what you doing what you want but also realizing your responsibilities I was talking to a friend literally yesterday last night we were walking and I was like yeah um like the happier I get the less I care about school you know un less I care about school but also like the more I respect my responsibilities in a way

like I know what I have to do and it's it's to the point where you know I enjoy stuff so much I know what I enjoy and I know that I like being able to be free in in the moment so much that I'm just going to get my work done early I'm just going to do it early so I can get back to myself in a way and I feel like a lot of us are just in a constant Loop of trying to get to ourselves and I think the first step is you know

sort of grounding yourself in a moment as well as grounding yourself in your own definition of who you are in you know saying that you know stop trying to pull happiness from the external stop trying to pull your worth and identity from the external too I mean to some extent you know you need other people to balance out your your personality I learned a lot from other people I love my friends I love everyone I interact with they're amazing they make me better but that's not to say that they make my identity you know that's

something I I feel like we have to self-define otherwise you know it's unstable Foundation people you know can easily change their mind someone else can say something and it will throw your whole vibe up it will throw everything you know you thought you knew out the roof and the same way that like people can get a 100 compliments a day they get one negative little thing and then it shifts their whole the whole move and you know I think that's partially because they don't do that for themselves it's about looking yourself in the mirror and

telling yourself almost like I'm exactly where I need to be but I'm still growing it's about positing that that anchor that foundation in your own change you know I feel like sometimes people don't do that I feel like I didn't do that because you know in positing yourself in something that's always changing you you generally think that that's just unhealthy that's not going to work like why would that work if I'm the one changing and it's not necessarily anchoring yourself to the past but anchoring yourself to the present and I was thinking about that literally

earlier today how um I was like how long is this like happiness going to last for me then I was thinking about I was like this happiness this mood that I'm feeling this myself isn't necessarily anchored to a past it's not anchored it's not a relation or comparison to what has happened it's a relation to who I am now I'm doing what makes me happy in the moment so you know it can't really be taken away and it can't ever stop and I think that's sort of the answer a lot of people try to look

for is no longer expecting you know things to make you happy but you know you to make yourself happy and then experience those things I feel like a lot of things are lose their beauty a lot of Life loses its life and our inability to be ourselves in the moment if you're angry you go to a museum you're probably not going to appreciate the art and then in in many ways life is like a a display case life is like a huge mod of art the way people Express themselves the way they talk the way

they write sing dance what music they listen to architecture like all of this is in some ways you know art it's an instantiation of somebody's life and you know it it ought to be appreciated in some way at least in my experience I appreciate it but it's about being able to capture you know the small little things cuz it's not the grand gestures that make life life it's the small little instantiations and choices that we make on a dayto day to move forward you know I feel like it's like that that motivation discipline sort of

thing I feel like it works in the same like motivation it can be like this big spurt big fire but it diminishes over the time because I feel like we can't hold on to that motivation as long as we don't hold on to either our reason or our s but that discipline that discipline is like making those small choices like when you're feeling a little bit you know doing whatever you need to do in order to get back to here it's sort of a weird phenomenon but you know that's what I see that works for

me I don't know if it's going to work for y'all but I think it's a pretty good Baseline in general not even if you if you even take it out the context of just motivation and discipline like being able to choose and get on top of your mind in a sense that you can move forward you can experience yourself in a way cuz I feel like no one truly knows themselves and there's so much left to know he who thinks the journey is over is the one that's truly lost I feel like once we get

that connotation for ourselves or uh once we stop allowing ourselves to connotate ourselves other people are able to do it you know if you don't put that that definition for yourself other people are going to Define you and that definition is not always good it's not always good that's not always bad too but I feel like it's always better to have that definition for yourself and then like you know use others as a reflection cuz I can't necessarily say throw it out the window you know as humans we are social creatures we need to learn

how to interact better I I don't think my interactions where it need where it needs to be 100% but I don't think I interact bad it's about loving how you are now but also realizing how much change you can do and how much potential you have to get better I think there is no there is no answer there is no end to like a self-development journey it's just a constant betterment you know finding new ways to be you stop trying to see the life start trying to be it you know stop waiting on life to

happen I feel like too often we we sit and be like man I'll be happy when this happens or man I'll be so excited when I get this man I'm about to be oh oh my God nah it's about finding those things now or getting to those things now I'm not saying waste all your money and book a trip to Paris or France or something par France the same thing or uh London and just be kicking it there oh my God now you're broke when you come back or wherever you go it's about sort of

balancing your logic and your like emotion in a way and I feel like I do a pretty good job at this like I sometimes I let a Teater sometimes I you know let one outweigh the other just depending on the situation I'm always going to be conscious of my my finan so that might be a bad thing that might be something I rebuke some sometimes later um cuz I feel like a lot of times we feel like we uh make money instead of earning it I feel like that that's sort of mindset makes it it

seems harder to attain almost but that's that's a that's a story for another day that's a story for another day um yeah stop waiting on life to happen if you if you got a passion it's kind of like the message to go all in or this is your sign to go all in like there's so much out here you know even if you feel like you don't have a lot out there you know if you're able to watch this video there's so much out there you know you have a phone you have a device you

have something you have the ability to create look for new things look you know look for yourself new literature to read new things to write new things to draw new occupations to look for new career paths and it's never over like you always have time you always have time as long as you live and exist you always have time I feel like you know I feel like people get older and it was kind of my mindset going in cuz I'm 19 about to turn uh 20 not really soon but in general and you know it

gets to that point where you're like man I I might have to start locking in but it's it's not like saying that that the journey is over that you can't you know keep doing what you're doing you know in adding responsibility I feel like many adults I don't know if this is necessarily true or not but this is just like my perspective feel like many adults give up on their like uh the part of them that's still a child cuz I feel like adults are just big children in a way you know with a lot

of responsibility is a lot more maturity and I feel like before break I was in that state I was in that state of I got to get these done I'm just getting my stuff done I'm doing this I'm getting my stuff done and I wasn't really appealing to the part of myself that was still a still a child in a way like um appreciation of the past but not like living in it realizing where I came from realizing that I was like man like cuz I I I get real nostalgic at times when I especially

when I see like Tik toks and stuff like old shows and old stuff that I used to indulge in and in doing that at first I was like man like all this time is going away they damn near makes makes you want to cry all this time it slipped away and I didn't really appreciate it but you did you were happy in the moment but that's that's why you were in the moment and right now you're not in the moment so instead instead of uh you know living in the past and trying to reach live

it we live in that happiness focus on how you can make this a better reality how Focus how you can make this present better than that cuz there's always going to be a relation you going to look back and be like man these were the best years of my life I'm going to look back next year and be like maybe I don't know cuz I'm I'm I'm right now I'm I'm trying to get up up up up up so it might be different for me because of the mindset I have now but previously I might

have been looked back like man that was so fun why is it now like that but there's always time to create new memories always time to develop yourself and and become even better so stop waiting on life to happen you know get out there don't do anything crazy but get out there and be yourself you know don't don't put yourself in a box um but also you know be mindful of your own morality and spirit whatever you want to call it you know I think sometimes we unconsciously do bad um not in the sense of

like moral bads but in a sense of like interactions maybe we didn't listen to this person enough maybe we didn't care for this person like we should have just always be receptive but also be able to filter that out some people just talk um if you're watching this far oh my God I started talking so much longer in these videos um you're if you're watching this far uh much love to you I appreciate you so much literally I don't even know what my sub count is right now I've been trying not to look but um

thank you all so much it's so nice to to look at my comments be able to interact with y'all and uh sort of give whatever wisdom I don't know y'all call it wisdom I think I'm just a regular fellow but um being able to talk to you about your issues and you know see some of myself in yall cuz a lot I feel like we all experience the same stuff to some degree just in different shades and different fonts different different filters and we all are tending towards one point all coming from one point in

a way so uh if you're watching this far thank you again thank y'all for however many Subs I'm at right now it's uh it's kind of surreal but in the same way like I I told yall like I was already feeling the happiness for getting that and I feel like that's kind of what brought it I'm like you know I'm just going to be happy creating regardless and all my Creations gets the appreciation that I gave to it so uh can't say thank you enough thank you thank you thank you uh enjoy your day do

what you need to do I have some podcast coming out I think I'm trying to link up with uh Ryan he's another YouTuber um but our schedules don't real line he's like three hours away and I'm I'm constantly busy because I'm also a college student but we'll find a way um stay tuned thank you for watching