Doctor Dies and Meets God On The Other Side, Is Sent Back With A Message (Near Death Experience)

I had big depression from being back because it it is not this world and it is it is so full of love it makes the love we have on Earth plastic in comparison Mary Joe rini's needed experience happened in 2003 at that time she was working as a psychologist for the lobik Southwest Cancer Center I will die we all will die and you know so much of our life is dreading it is being afraid of it of telling ourselves terrible things about our death when in fact maybe what we should do is start looking forward

to that I started living my life like I Was preparing for that I was at the gym in Gold's Gym in LEC Texas and I was working on my upper body strength it was a Saturday it was Holy Saturday the day before Easter and I had a lot of things on my mind Ron my husband's mom was just diagnosed with breast cancer and she was worried about that and I was having people over for Easter dinner so I went to a spin class to kind of get my aerobics in and then I was lifting weights

and I was working on my upper chest and I did this machine where I pushed the bar forward and it was really hard I had put more weights on it and um and I after I did it I kind of saw stars and I went oh my God like that took a lot of strength and so I'm only going to do one more because I know I'm pushing too hard and I did one more and that's when I believe the aneurysm burst it was a sharp pain in the back of my neck it was the

kind of pain that is just so so awful like you can't you know it's a kind that could drive you mad like I active I actively thought someone had shot me or stabbed me but I knew nobody was there so I right away I was a nurse before I was a psychologist I was thinking you know what can that be because I think in the when you when your body is hurt you automatically go inside and you kind of scan everything and I was doing my internal scan and I thought oh my God I think

I broke my neck but then I thought maybe it's a Vaso Veo and that's when the Vegas nerves get stimulated and that has happened to me before where I feel like I'm going to pass out and if I drink water it helps so I stood up and at that time it was very clear something really bad was wrong because I could barely walk and all of a sudden I couldn't see like only little pin holes out the side of my vision my peripheral vision and um I kind of stumbled over to the bubbler and when

I pressed down on the late on the lever um my whole right side just started like bouncing up and down uncontrollable I was basically having a seizure and that really scared me so I just laid down and then this guy he was at the gym all the time he came back and he called me muscle woman and he said muscle woman you know what's the matter and I said go get somebody in the front like I think I broke my neck and he went up to the front of the of the place and this woman

came back and she I had had her as an instructor before and she put her arm around me and she goes you know what's the problem Mary Joe and I said I don't know I I just the back I the back of my neck hurts something bad's happening I can smell blood she said well should we call an ambulance I said yeah I think so my husband was working in Houston Texas at the time but he was home for the weekend Easter holiday I gave them his number in my record when I first joined the

gym so they called him but he didn't answer and they called the home number and that's where my daughter answered so all of a sudden the ambulance was there and um they took my blood pressure and it was extremely high and I kept saying am I bleeding am I bleeding cuz I smell blood and they said you're not bleeding on the outside but we think you had a bleed inside all of this was telling me something was really bad and then they put me in the ambulance and took me to the hospital and all I

remember is any bump they hit hurt so bad that um I wasn't sure I could stay in control of the pain and at that point I submitted to God I I said you know thy will be done Lord this is in your hands you know I've had a good life whatever you will for me I was grateful and and ready to let go I had Within seconds total relief like I I wasn't worried it's still hurt but I just felt such comfort and to this day I know that that that's so important to do to

submit to him and the comfort that comes from that so when they took me to the hospital as luck would have it or as a blessing would have it none of the neurosurgeons were in town they were all at a conference in Santa Fe but my husband was there and he met the ambulance and um he looked really worried everybody at this Hospital knew me because I was the therapist there for cancer patients and I went to all the tumor board meetings and they all knew my husband and I so it was it kind of

felt like a family there but the only neurosurgeon that we really had was this guy that was retired and he came in for this you know emergency and he took Ron back with the scans to show him because my husband's a physician too and um after the scans Ron came back and he looked like he had seen a ghost he's really upset and he said Mary your your head is just full of blood and I said I'm I'm sorry I I think I was pushing it too hard or something like that and and none of

it mattered because I mean I was very lucid I was able to talk throughout the day there they ended up moving me in a surgical ICU they took me across the street because they knew I had a bleed but they didn't know where it was and because there were no adult neurosurgeons or there was a radiographer there who did angiograms and he thought since I was small he may be able to put that into to my brain and actually get some like an idea of where the blood was coming from cuz it wasn't stopping it

just kept bleeding and this was the big problem when he did it he couldn't locate the bleed cuz there was just so much blood so they decided at that time that they were going to to just observe me I was in another state like I was in and out but I I but God was holding me already I hadn't talk to him yet I wasn't getting any meds and yet I was very managed by him they wouldn't give me any pain control because you know they're afraid that it will slow your respiration but they did

have a way that like they could situate my pillow so that it wouldn't hurt so much to lay down I had to be completely still this went on through Saturday night and then on Sunday they were coming in to do Vaso constriction sonograms like every hour I stayed like that on Easter Sunday and we were supposed to have dinner and I was so upset that I wasn't there but I insisted that Ron and the kids Host this brunch for Easter and I said listen this is this is life it was our turn and I was

just being crazy but Ron and the kids you know acques they didn't know what to do if I was dying they wanted to do my my last wish so they had this this brunch and that's when the majority of our friends found out what happened they will never forget Easter Sunday again because after that many of them were coming and just you know telling me they were praying for me that they couldn't believe this happened Monday night they had moved me from the surgical ICU out on the floor and Monday night I had several friends

that came to see me I wanted to be there for them but I I can remember that it was it was very difficult and my friends told my husband you know she looks green tonight she does not look good she's got a bad color and Ron said that he was concerned about sepsis or something too you know I remember they woke me up I was startled but then all of a sudden they were Wheeling me down a hall and Ron was there and there were you know people there there were surgeons and doctors they had

the lights on and they were doing things procedures I remember a lot of lines a lot of wires and I noticed up in the right hand corner of the room there was this odd light I call it a light because it looks like a light but I've worked in O and I've worked almost every area of the hospital and I had never seen something like this because my patients when they were dying they used to tell me you know last night I light and I think that was a tunnel and I'm looking at that light

thinking is that a tunnel like I am not impressed it's so small and then all of a sudden it it kind of got nearer to me and it opens and I'm in it and it felt like I was you know I was drawn to it or my or part of my body was but I remember it was lovely it was it was comforting and and I could see like I was going up but I saw what I was leaving and I could see I could see my body I could see they were at a table

I could see their shoes I saw Ron the room that I was in was an luminescent pink I I have never been able to see that color in a paint store and I have gone to a lot of paint stores it's it's not human my my eyes have seen things that aren't human and when you try to describe it it ends up turn sounding corny like cuz it is it's surreal how can we explain it I just remember that um that God held me and I I have no doubt it was God and he said

you you can't stay and I and I was really upset I said I can't stay and I started telling him all all the things I had done that were good I telling God every social Accolade I can possibly think of I've given free care I've I've done I've been a good wife I've been a good mom anytime I sacrificed I tried to tell God this and he said let me ask you one question have you ever loved anyone the way you've been loved here and I said no it's impossible I'm a human as if you

know God wouldn't know that that um and he said you can do better and with that like when I said I'm a human it felt it felt like he smiled or that comment brought joy in some way that I could feel and then after he I said no I'm a human and he said you can do better then I was back on the table Ron was saying Mary you're going to need a you're going to need a surgery and he said they're telling me you might not be able to run you might not think the

same or be able to talk um and and he he was crying and he said I don't know what to do and I said just do what you have to just sign it and he I said I just talk to God and I'm not going to die cuz I was so so disappointed and in fact that was um one of the big hurdles after my nde is I had a I had big depression from being back because it it is not this world and it is it is so full of love it makes the love

we have on Earth plastic in comparison and I know we talk about unconditional love and agapy love I don't think we I don't think we can comprehend it it's so much deeper and bigger than what you have for your child because it includes everyone I'm quite sure God meets everyone in their native language in their native tongue and culture when they when they go to him and my rehab was remarkably quick and um and there were there were scary times when I first walked again it you know they told me the chances that I'd be

able to but I didn't care I was like whatever I'm left with I know now it is his will so I didn't play any games well I hope he gives me my legs or please God help me I just was able to to totally settle in what he gave me back and he gave me more I think than I went in with what was interesting is you know if um if it had been any other experience I would have probably been so happy to be back because I have two children one was finishing high school

and the other was a an eighth grader and I love those kids and I love my husband I loved the life I was living I was so excited about moving to Houston and we had a a new house and everything to look forward to so it shows you the magnitude of what that short time with God did to my whole life it turned it upside down and all I wanted was that compared to all the material all the love here all the riches it could not compare to the one or two minutes with him and

so when I started seeing that in a perspective that that's my gift to look forward to because I will die we all will die and you know so much of our life is dreading it is being afraid of it of telling ourselves terrible things about our death when in fact maybe what we should do is start looking forward to that I started living my life like I Was preparing for that so when people say live your life like you're going to heaven that is not a simple thing I mean you really do you have to

watch how you treat people you have to watch what you do for people you have have to look at the acts of love you offer that in my assignment was I could give more love how was I going to do that God's kind of love not the kind I had had where it was about social accolades and fame and getting recognized no that is that was not sufficient love according to God he needed the real stuff where you where you do acts of love with no watching there's no Praise on the other end for you

you just do it because this is your brother or sister and I think looking at my life like that helped me not only be a better person helped me be a better mom and wife and therapist I'm I'm not perfect I'm still on it I have really good days and really bad days but um just having that perspective has really turned my life around I was very estranged from God when this happened I mean I I was angry at God I was working in a Cancer Center where I saw a lot of people that were

just wonderful people getting terrible cancers and dying terrible deaths I worked with pediatric cancer and watched their parents just get ripped up inside from watching their little child die and I started asking you know what kind of God is this like I would rather not be with this kind of God and it was during this turmoil that this incident happened this blessing if you will and there was no there was no holding back his Mercy for me for feeling that way he accepted me with as much love and grace and mercy you can't imagine was

just abundant I think when people are suffering they're closer to God and I think God makes himself more present to them because I believe God in the end wants us all with him and when we are feeling good there's no problems we aren't as close to God as we should be he's always there but we don't reach out it's during suffering that we reach out to God and when we suffer we give every person that has any view of that or any ear to that an opportunity to be loving with compassion toward us and it's

an opportunity for all of us which when someone's suffering it's unfortunate many times they're isolated because we're missing out on on an opportunity to serve I absolutely believe when we leave this world we go back to him and when we are there we understand it all I I had such an understanding there I I cannot tell you was so different [Music]