This NDE Will Leave You Speechless - Woman Dies of Stroke, Shown Life's Purpose and Past Lives

the sun hit my face as soon as it hit my face I was in my body and then I wasn't I was on the other side and I was in the most beautiful garden I have ever seen or experienced everything within my sight glowed with this almost golden sort of rainbow light that was the most love I have ever felt can you tell me more about your guides because I haven't heard about that in a lot of other nde stories guides are Gail Jessica and Peter I was able to recognize them and walk up to

them not everybody is meant to get to know their guides in each human life I want everyone to know that they are never ever Alone um I have guides and that's wonderful and I can see mine but so do you and everyone listening every human on this planet has guides has a higher energy um whatever you want to call it Source God doesn't matter there's somebody walking with you every moment of your [Music] life my near-death experience was in 2021 Christmas uh and before that I am a wife a mom but I did have quite

a unique job before um I was in mental health and addictions for maybe a decade that's what I went to school for was social work um but in 2015 I accepted my gifts as a psychic medium a medical intuitive a Healer and an animal Communicator it's hard to remember them all so I always say I was born different so I was like an 80-year-old three-year-old um it didn't make sense that I was a kid and doing kid things I was always introverted a little bit more quiet and I could see people that other people couldn't

see until I was about I can't remember 4ish I didn't know that other people couldn't see all the people I saw so like I just thought adults ignored some people and I didn't quite get why again I was just Mom right and I've always with work because I kind of make my own schedule I take Summers off to be with my kids and I take most of December off to be home I'm a Christmas crazy person which I don't know why because horrible things always happen at Christmas but I still love it and it had

been Co and in Canada we did have like some pretty strict rules we had to follow even in 2021 I that was going to be the first Christmas since Co hit that I could have family and friends over and I always have done you know a huge Christmas Eve dinner with like 40 people so I was so excited but the few weeks leading up to it it felt like weird and I just thought you know all of us probably feel like that because of Co we're leading up to Christmas and we did um a day

of like decorating gingerbread houses with the kids and my old foster kids and my husband and it was an amazing day and then at the night time like 8:00 or something we were going to watch a Christmas movie cuz it was December 23rd we were all excited the next day was going to be our first big dinner but I started getting like the worst headache of my life like so bad that I couldn't even see straight so I'm like you know what guys I'm just going to go to bed I feel horrible um and apparently

like an hour later I texted my husband and said could you bring me some Tylenol and Advil they were still watching the movie um because my head hurts so bad and he brought them and apparently then I went into unconsciousness like I I took the medication and I thought fell asleep uh the doctors think I probably started having the stroke around 11:30 at night um and I didn't wake up till 4:45 in the morning and I woke up completely paralyzed on my right side um and nonverbal so I only could say two words my sister's

name and the f word which is really great essentially I tried to get up to go to the bathroom I tried to stand up not knowing I was paralyzed and I fell to the ground and then I couldn't move or get up and I couldn't reach my phone or a light so I tried to army crawl to the door and I couldn't and so there was a wall and I hit the wall really really loud and it woke up my husband and actually my mom as well cuz they were living in my basement Suite um

and my husband came into the room and I was clearly not well um he knew right away it was a stroke cuz he had some first aid training so he called 911 um we got me the hospital the damage was already done in the midbrain um and so they wanted to LifeLight me to another hospital because where I live they can't do neurosurgery they don't have a neur neurosurgeon um and so that's what they decided I was going to be LifeLight they let mik go with me all my family came to say goodbye because the

doctor essentially said more than likely she will die before she gets to the other hospital um so say they even told my kids at the time were 12 and 14 and they said take say everything you can to your bum because more than likely you won't see her again and I took off in the helicopter with my husband beside me and that is where I went to the other side the sun hit my face and my husband went to cover my eyes because I was also getting a fever which can happen when you're sort of

near death your your body can heat up um and and I looked upset cuz he was covering my eyes because that Sun hitting my face as soon as it hit my face I was in my body and then I wasn't I was on the other side like it was that quick and I could see my body I could see my husband but then all of a sudden I could also see uh my kids driving to my house and I could see my sisters and I could like I could see everything the whole time but I

also wasn't in my body I woke up or not really woke up just opened my eyes I didn't go towards the light you know there was no tunnel or anything like that I just woke up opened my eyes and I was in the most beautiful garden I have ever seen or experienced I don't think Earth could have a garden like that I opened my eyes I was wearing a beautiful white dress and my feet I didn't have shoes on my feet were on the grass and looking sort of around me I was in a field

but there was so many flowers and there was like a little Pond type thing and then a gazebo that had like a Creek Running under it and my guides who I already knew because of my work you know I worked with my guides all the time were sitting slash standing by the Gazebo and then sort of to the left was my crossover loved ones so two of my grandparents uh my mother-in-law um my dogs because that's helpful and and I just you know you miss your dogs when they're on the other side but then there

were some things that I was like well that's a little bit odd but not my one of my dogs that was still alive was there um but she was 17 and a half and she actually ended up dying four days after the stroke when I was still in the ICU so she was like with certain people that have Alzheimer's they're kind of in both places and so I'm assuming that's why I could see my dog that was still alive but also my husband and my kids were there um because I was there to make the

choice of whether or not I wanted to come back I think for me if the choice was leaving my kids to suffer I obviously would have come back no matter what so I needed to know that they were going to be okay and I was going to be with them no matter what and then kind of to the right and up like the field there was a giant group of people from all time Dimensions past present future all genders all Races all cultures and those and I know a lot of people don't believe in this

and that's okay but that was all of my other lives so it was just to show me the interconnectedness I think of our paths here but also our sort of journey within our Collective Consciousness um and so so as I was standing there it felt like I was there for 50 years 100 years I I could feel through the grass everything around me and everything within my sight glowed with this almost golden sort of rainbow light that was the most love I have ever felt there was no pressure but there also was no words like

physical words not one word came out of my mouth because everything was telepathic you think it and everyone around you knows it they think it and I know it I didn't run up to like my nana who was I loved her so much we were so close and you'd think you know you see somebody that's been dead for a decade or maybe more I didn't run up to her and hug her because you didn't need to because you just knew what everyone was thinking and feeling and you could feel their love through the love that

was all around me and so all of that I could pay attention to while also checking on like my family and it is very true that when somebody is dying especially some like I was obviously a youngish I was 40 when it happened yeah there's a lot of bargaining if you save her I promise I will do XYZ if you let her live until I can see her again I will like and almost all of them um were bargaining panicking my sister poor girl I talk about her and it's probably embarrassing but anytime she's under

stress or somebody's hurt or sick she has a horrible belly and she had to go from the hospital to her house which is like a 10 to 15 minute drive like not only panicking and bargaining but really needing to get to a bathroom but she didn't want to stop anywhere because she wanted to pack her bags to go but also it was Christmas and the next day was Christmas Eve and you know my sister has young kids and it's everyone was panicked everyone was bargaining everyone was sad but also everyone was shocked so there wasn't

a ton of like crying because they were shocked and then I could also see me and my husband because at that point I had gone into unconsciousness and he was panicked he doesn't like helicopters so he was nervous for that the weather was not great so he was nervous for that and unlike me he knows nothing about medical anything and so in his mind it was going to be okay and he wasn't going to listen to the doctor um so it was a lot happening at once but for me it was very peaceful I didn't

feel like a lot happening because it just felt like I was home and I was being given this amazing gift of time to make the decision on what I wanted to do did you recognize them right away as your past lives how did you know that was also you because you know everything as soon as you're there you understand everything I often say there are no why's there's never a why why did I do that why did I make that choice who are those people what do they want to say there's no The Who when

where why how doesn't exist on the other side it just everything makes sense not only did it make sense that I was so connected to all of those people and that they are all either living right now in this present time or other times or other dimensions I also was very sort of connected to what I was going to do for the rest of my life if I stayed and what all of my family would do for the rest of their lives if I chose to uh not come back um nothing felt confusing and I

just knew because even though they didn't look like me a couple of them look similar but they didn't look like me it was like they were all me so I I didn't need to kind of go okay who are you hello where are when are you living how are you living it was like okay I remember that life and I remember what I looked like and I remember that that path and everything I did you just know everything I think it's a blessing and a curse because I wanted so bad to remember absolutely everything every

moment and the amazing enlightening things I was learning and participating in and even though I remember quite a bit of it it does fade I call it like human Amnesia so like the things that I got to see or feel or hear um start to fade so that I will stay here because let me tell you it's so much easier there coming back into a paralyzed nonverbal body that couldn't eat or talk or do anything I definitely wanted to go back can you tell me more about your guides because I haven't heard about that in

a lot of other nde stories so I think again like it's Unique to each person so in a way I think we do sort of manifest and I think this is where people's argument of like you made it up because you saw what you needed to see or wanted to see and somebody else might just see black or it might not feel good um and for me I had a relationship already with my guides uh my guides are Gail Jessica and Peter and so Gail and Jessica were sitting there Peter is a part of the

collective Consciousness his name is not Peter I named him that because his name is weird like K or raw or some weird thing so it feels weird call him that so I don't I call him Peter which I know is weird but works for me um and I had such a close relationship with them already that I could was able to recognize them and walk up to them I think a lot of people see what they call either Angels or Guiding Light or something like that because not everybody is meant to get to know their

guides and each human life and if you're not meant to or if it's not part of your path then they probably won't come and show up in your nde maybe it will be a grandma or a loved one that says oh you know what you have to go back right but not everybody will get that gift of their guides being there but my guides because they knew me so well and I had been working as a psychic medium in partnership with them since 2015 it just made sense that they were there directing me and kind

of cool to see their actual physical self you know when I do work I can feel them I can see them if I really need to but not like concrete humanly like it's I couldn't touch them when I'm like now if they stand in the corner of the room whereas I got to hug them and I got to like actually feel their energy and like the guidance that they've been giving me my entire life um and they were so great at sort of helping me understand the outcomes of each decision um and also the things

that would happen um if I went back and I think that was super helpful in making the decision and I could argue that no matter what I was going to come back because we do plan our lives and I needed the nde and I needed to go to the other side in order to sort of live the rest of my life um but it did F feel like a decision like no matter what there was no judgment and whatever way I wanted to go uh they were there for me were you presented with the decision

or did you just know coming there you had to decide whether to stay or to go back home I think I just knew because again you don't have to necessarily talk but while being able to sort of see everything they also helped me to see and understand um the good and the Bad and the Ugly so they did say you know if I chose to go back the next 18 months would be the hardest time of my life and I would regret my decision I would wish that I had stayed and I would be very

angry um and it was really true when I woke up I was on a high for two or three days um and it just I had this glow of the other side and it very quickly went away once I realized ized oh wow like I'm paralyzed I can't talk I have tubes everywhere I've been tube fed I couldn't go to the bathroom um I was so brain injured and all the things that they said I would do I was like yeah right like obviously I was dreaming because how am I going to get to where

they said I would be you know doing like public speaking and talking about the collective Consciousness and writing books and like inspiring people how will I do that if I can't talk you know how can I do that if I can't walk and I didn't understand that you know what they said was actual reality especially because the doctors were pretty much saying you know yes okay she's survived because my husband actually decided not to do the brain surgery um we got there and I very quickly had a Grand Mall seizure and then continued to have

seizures um until they got a bunch of meds in me and helped stop it and once they got the seizures stopped the neurosurgeon came to my husband and said you know I know she came here for brain surgery but the damage is kind of done they did another scan and like my stroke was completed the other one had stopped and I had had TPA which is a very very strong blood thinner and so surgery is super dangerous after TPA and so he said you know I can still do the surgery if you want but more

than likely it will kill her and so much damage is done it would be minimal Improvement after the surgery um and my husband had no idea what to do and there was nobody else there it was just him and so he said to the neurosurgeon um you know if it was your wife like if it was your wife in that bed what would you do and the neurosurgeon said I wouldn't do it I just wouldn't and my husband said well you're the expert I'm not doing it and so I didn't get the brain surgery and

uh I think the doctor then just sort of said how she is is how she's staying and he said you know as she's in the ICU if she survives this in the next couple of days you're going to have to start looking at long-term care she's going to need care for the rest of her life pretty much she's going to stay how she is I also was blind in my right eye so I would be half blind uh non-verbal paralyzed never able able to eat because I had no swallowing reflex I had no bathroom cues

or hunger cues so I wouldn't be able to ever take care of myself and everybody was like that's what everybody was saying for that first couple of days and everybody talked about me around me like I couldn't say anything and yet the doctors in the room saying like this is her she's pretty much a vegetable forever like and like I think for the type of stroke I had your 5e survival rate is between 14 and 28% so it's not great um but then I went from paralyzed non-verbal couldn't eat couldn't drink by day four I

was walking um I had words within a few days not good and not uh expressive I I lost tone so like I talked like a robot and I talked kind of like a baby um but I started walking I got the tube out of my nose like I started eating after a few days I was able to go to the washroom they took like the catheter out and everything and within a week I was up and moving around they were still doing a lot of tests I was still in the newo ICU for two weeks

um but they couldn't explain it and also when I woke up from going on the going to the other side I wasn't blind anymore and they they can't understand it because I was completely blind and so I think six weeks like you go for a followup six weeks after you get out of the hospital and I went and I I had a walking stick because I was still learning to walk but I could talk I could eat I could whatever I was doing rehab and the neurosurgeon actually called down to the emergency room to see

if anybody who was there when I was brought in wanted to come up to see me walk because they just could not because I was young and my kids were there and it was Christmas and all these nurses were just devastated that this was going to be my life and that these kids had their mom taken away on Christmas and uh in my chart at the very top it says I am his miraculous patient that the only reason is a miracle because I shouldn't be here so every time I go in I've had a lot

of Health complications the doctors look and they're like oh so you're his Miracle patient I'm like yeah that's me so the stroke was the in the middle of the night on the 23rd um I stayed unconscious for almost 24 hours after the seizure um so that was just December 24th on December 25th um actually my husband have you w watch that movie The Santa Claus where they went go to Denny's on Christmas burned the turkey anyways that's what my husband did he took the kids to Denny's for Christmas dinner and they came and visited me

but I was in the neuro IU so it's like you can visit for 15 minutes or something like that and the neurosurgeon just happened to be coming by and I still hadn't talked or moved much and he said you know what you guys I know your mom can't talk but have you tried singing with her because beaches on the left well speech is bit confused yeah on the left but singing is on the right and so they sang with me and I sang without being able to talk two songs with them two Christmas songs and

so for them that was like a Christmas miracle but no Christmas was on pause we celebrated Christmas the day after I got home in January um but like I think my first like video that they recorded of me was like the 27th or 8th when I walked so it was still even though it was amazing and a miracle it was a freaking slow one and it felt like dragging my feet through cement for every gain it didn't come even though they said oh wow it's amazing for me it didn't feel like that it felt like

it was impossible and I felt like such a burden because to to learn to talk again you have to so like one word they say the word I wouldn't be able to say it they would show me how to say it and then make me repeat it seven or eight times to try and get it stuck in my head and we did that nonstop and I also was kind of like a baby like you have the emotions of a child and so I was explosive I would cry or laugh at inappropriate times um which is

just part of having a stroke and I was angry um and angry that this is their life now and I just couldn't understand why I made this choice and I had such a hard time wrapping my head around the fact that you know I'm making my kids and my husband suffer like it felt almost selfish that I chose to come back um not forever but for quite a while I also was on very very strong anti-seizure meds um and it made me not only feel very very sick it made me um have the urge to

un alive myself which is a side effect of certain seizure meds so usually when that happens it's just like people who take anti-depressants and anti-anxiety sometimes they just the medication doesn't agree with them and so you have to switch they tried switching me um it almost killed me so I had to stay on that medication for 6 months to protect my brain and so I was battling trying to recover doing rehab struggling with my process and trying not to give into the side effect of that medication which is super hard I was very open and

honest I talked to my family I got counseling and stuff they all knew it wasn't actually me I didn't want to but it was the medication and there was nothing I can do about it um I always say it was like a bad country song because it's like I had the stroke I also then got Co my whole family got Co the co almost killed me um then I got Co pneumonia my one of my dogs died when I was in the hospital then my next dog died in March and that was like so devastating

like it was just like one after the other and then every time it was like okay I feel a little bit better something else would happen you know somebody would get in an accident or somebody would get sick or I would get sick or I would have a Tia or you know it was nonstop my guides were very right that the next 18 months would be hell and it was the first 6 months was the hardest they also took my license um because I have a seizure so when you have a seizure you have to

go on medication and then you have to be seizure free when you get off that medication for however many months so I lost my license for the first year um but it just slowly kind of got better and as I got more independent it got better and then the sort of cycle of every time I had a positive a negative would come or 10 negatives would come it started just going away and started like better things started happening um and then I just started feeling inspired again and my guide started sort of speaking up again

I felt very disconnected from from them for a while um and at one point they said you know you need to paint you need to try to paint what you saw on the other side I'm like what are you talking about like I'm brain injured I can barely write what do you mean I'm going to paint that's ridiculous so I ignored them for a good couple of months and then finally like just try try like just try and I started painting and I couldn't stop and I tried the best I could to start to paint

what I saw on the other side and it just it just got better and then things were presented opportunities you know people asking me to tell my story which they said I would do that and it was going to be so helpful to help people not feel alone like this human world is so I isolated like we're we've never been more connected and more disconnected at the same time it's such a strange world we live in and everything just started happening for the better um they had said I would write three books and I'm like

uh can't type anymore can't write any more barely have words I don't know what you're talking about writing a book but everything just fell into place and every single thing they said was going to happen has happened so far and so now I just work on faith faith that you know there's there's a point to all of it because it's still hard you know even though if you didn't know me you wouldn't know I know all the time every single day I IM missing almost 25% of my brain and it doesn't grow back I don't

know why I thought it it did in my mind I just thought you know when you injure your brain yeah your brain's injured but it's still there no it slugs away and you have a giant hole in your head and so then you can have other little strokes because all of that brain isn't supposed to be exposed but it just started happening in for the better and I don't know another way to explain it than I just had faith that they wouldn't have put me in my family or I wouldn't have you know because I

planned this life um and our my family through this if there wasn't a purpose for it I am not a patient person and I have learned more patience for myself and for other people um but also my whole life I felt so alone and you know even with my kids and my husband and family and friends I could be surrounded to in people and I just felt like nothing made sense and that I was kind of this lone Island and going to the other side and understanding that there was not one moment in my entire

life where I was ever alone not even a millisecond my hardest times in my life I was surrounded did and people who loved me um I think that was a huge takeaway for me because I my whole life I felt so different and I just felt like I never fit in in any group even people that I knew loved me I felt like there was something wrong with me and occasionally still not occasionally 50% of the world does think there's something wrong with me you know it's not okay to talk to dead people as a

job or as a calling it's not okay to talk about these things not in a religious tone or whatever it is but I have never felt more that like I belong than when I'm thinking of and talking about the things that I now know to be true before I accepted my gifts it was very out of control like they were just always there and I didn't understand I could see them but I didn't know how to talk to them like I couldn't have a back and forth like we're having okay um and so it was

just confusing because there was all these extra people around and I didn't know what they wanted or even if they wanted something like maybe they were just hanging out and they actually didn't want anything once I accepted my gifts they only would come around for a purpose so it wasn't like they were just always around me occasionally they are now just in support but I knew what they wanted I know or knew how to talk talk to them and how to get the message across I didn't know how to set boundaries so in the beginning

you know I live in somewhat of a smaller town um it's not tiny but a smaller town and they would want me to go up to people in like restaurants and stuff and I was like I no thank you that absolutely like how long before the whole town thinks I'm completely nuts um and so I learned how to set boundaries it's not okay to say you need to go tell that cashier that you know her mom is with her and whatever so I started to be able to set boundaries and my gifts didn't sort of

turn on all at once uh the mediumship was first and then my psychic gifts and that's the one I fought the most because when I was religious and I was still going to church at when I accepted my gifts the psychic was the part that they were like H like that's kind that's like what do they call it a false prophet um and so that part was harder um then after a while I'm also an empath like a super strong empath so I always say I can read Souls I don't necessarily listen to sometimes what's

coming out of people's mouths because I know how they feel behind those words not good for relationships because sometimes nobody wants you in their head and they don't want you tuning into their soul so it's a lot of boundary work and then the medical intuitive and the healing came and then the animal communicating came after that and so for me now it's just everyday life and I have what I call like a light switch so when I'm working the light switch is on so right now even though this is more like an interview about me

the light switch is on my guides are standing in the corner of the room helping me to tell the parts that they really want to be heard as well as my stuff um and their thoughts become my words so when I'm actually working I sort of put my human self to the side because I think I'd get really tired if I didn't and their thoughts just like on the other side that it's telepathic their thoughts become my words so I don't before the nde I would kind of have to listen and then repeat which is

okay but I think a lot can get lost in translation or like maybe I don't interpret it correctly or I put emphasis on a different thing than they were intending um and then after the nte once I had the experience of complete telepathy it's so much easier which is crazy because I'm missing so much in my brain I don't know how it's so much easier but literally they think it and it their thoughts come out of my mouth so I don't have to interpret I don't have to listen and repeat I don't have to clarify

once in a while I argue if they's trying to say something that I'm like really you think that's going to be helpful or it makes me uncomfortable like I don't think I want to say that to that person um but it's so much easier now and I can do it like in a much more connected way if that makes sense I want everyone to know that they are never ever Alone um I have guides and that's wonderful and I can see mine but so do you and everyone listening it doesn't matter what your religion is

what your beliefs are you can be an atheist or a Catholic or Jewish whatever every human on this planet has guides has a higher energy um whatever you want to call it Source God doesn't matter there's somebody walking with you every moment of your life and people don't have to believe that I had an nde and went to the other side and got to make the choice and that sort of stuff that's fine and you know what like I I know there are people that really think our brains can do that right can have this

crazy dream and that sort of stuff but all of the things that have happened since all the things they said what happen um have all happened and I think it's just Testament that they are with me and they weren't lying and I'm not making them up um but just that we aren't alone and that there is a purpose to everything our Collective Consciousness as a whole is growing and we are going to be seeing more and more people like me being born you know in the 80s when I was born it was nuts to be

a psychic medium like it just it you called the 1 1900 number the 1 1900 dial a psychic and you paid like $2 a minute to get your asol whatever um it wasn't average it wasn't normal it wasn't common um but as the collective Consciousness is moving towards becoming more connected um more children are going to be born like me feeling like they don't fit feeling completely alone even at as a small child and if there's somebody that can tell them hey you know what there's a reason you feel alone there's a reason you feel

like you're so different and it's because you're this wonderful little soul that's lived a lot and you know you're going to you're going to get it you're going to feel like you make sense at some point it would have been so helpful for me when I was young if somebody could just say there's nothing wrong with you you know you are not this horrible person who is causing bad things to happen it's actually not you causing them that would have been so so helpful to me can you tell me about your book yes so it's

called at the stroke of Eternity and I started writing it it came out when a year ago um and so we I somebody helped me so I talked and they typed um and it's also written now looking back like I would change so much just because I didn't have a lot of words like I was still learning to talk um and so it is a very simple um simply written book but it talks about everything so a little bit about my childhood and then about the stroke going to the other side and then all the

lessons that I learned it also has pictures because I'm like I I like pictures in a book oh here I'll show so there you go it's right here it's beautiful yeah and so yeah it has pictures it has poems at the beginning of every chapter because I also um wrote poems I I wrote poems before the stroke I'm just trying to see if my brain is there because I know people don't believe me when I say like I'm missing so much of my brain um oh there we go there's my brain so whoops this is

the the main stroke that big white area and then a frontal lobe stroke cuz people afterwards so many people were like yeah right like I've known people who have had Strokes you have not I'm like I don't think I could fake a a stroke like that it doesn't necessarily make sense but then yeah I also started painting um and so some of my paintings are in there as well um I don't do anything with the paintings they just kind of sit here um but I enjoy it I have fun with it that's beautiful yeah but

and then the last each one of my guides has a chapter at the end so there's a chapter for Gail Jessica and Peter um and then yeah there's chapter on boundaries because it's so important when you want to do any type of spiritual work one on being empath because it's hard um it's hard to feel everybody's feelings especially in this world when there's so much anger and hate and that sort of stuff thank you so much to Amber for sharing her story this was one of the interviews that I've been most excited about and I

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