I Stood Before Jesus. What He Asked Me Will Wreck You!

>> Hello, my name's Eddie Turner. I'm a pastor. Been a pastor for over 40 years.

And even though I grew up in church, my whole life has been around church. My granddad was in ministry. My mom was in ministry.

I heard a lot of wonderful sermons, a lot of wonderful teaching and preach and singing. Oh, man, I heard it. But nobody ever taught me what to think and what not to think.

And when I got in my late 20s, the thought attacks started hitting me. Thoughts of fear, accusatory thoughts, tormenting thoughts to the point that it drove me into paranoia. I got to the point that I wouldn't leave my house.

I couldn't sleep at night. I lived with constant headaches, anxiety ruled my life. And in desperation, one day I screamed out to the Lord all by myself in my home, Lord Jesus, you've got to come and help me.

I'm losing my mind. I'm going crazy. See, I'd seen my grandmother die in a mental institution.

I'd seen my aunt die right after being released from a mental institution. And these thoughts were constantly bombarding my mind. You're next.

You're losing it. You're going to lose your family. End your life.

Just go ahead and get rid of your life right now and don't go through this torment. And in desperation, I said, Lord Jesus, come help me. And that day, as I was laying face first in my carpet.

I sensed a presence, and I raised my head up, and I saw feet and sandals, it startled me. I thought somebody has come in my house, and I get up on my hands and knees, and I raised up my head, and there I looked in the face of Jesus. His eyes were like liquid glass.

His hair touched his shoulders. He had a long robe. His smile was so kind, so inviting, so warm.

And he looked at me and he said, Eddie, what would you have me do for you? And I said, Lord Jesus, these thoughts, they're killing me. I'm losing my mind.

He said to me, Eddie, I told you in prayer several weeks ago, thoughts were like vapors. They have no power. They're just vapors.

And immediately my mind went back to a few weeks earlier when I was praying, asking the Lord, why am I going through this? What can I do to stop this? And I heard in my spirit the words rise up, vapors.

I didn't know what that meant. I had no idea that that was the Lord speaking to me. And I just kicked it out, didn't pay it any attention.

But that day, the Lord said those thoughts are as vapors. And then he did something that I've never forgotten. He reached down to the side of my head.

I can almost feel the pressure when I talk about it. He reached down to the side of my head and he pulled out, the only way I can explain it is a banner. On the banner was written, you are demon possessed, because that's the thought that satan had been tormenting me with.

You say, why? Why would you think that? I don't know why I thought that.

That thought came into my mind one day, and I got to the point I couldn't get it out. And he said, You are demon possessed. That's what the banner said, and the Lord Jesus took that banner and he blew it and it disappeared like a vapor.

And then he reached down again to the side of my head and pulled out another banner. And on this one, it says, God does not love you, because satan had planted that in my mind. I had been entertaining that thought and couldn't get rid of that thought.

God does not love you the banner said. And the Lord Jesus took that and he blew it. And it disappeared like a puff of smoke.

And then he looked at me and he said, Eddie, there's your problem. And he looked to the corner. And when he looked, I looked and I saw two imps, monkey looking creatures.

At that time years ago, I didn't study about demons. I knew nothing about demons. But that day I knew immediately what it was.

Those were two devils. And I looked to the corner and when I saw them, and when they saw Jesus looking at them, they shrieked in fear. They were huddled in the corner.

They wouldn't look at Jesus. I could see the hair on their bodies starting to shake. And the Lord Jesus said, There's your problem.

And then he disappeared. I didn't get free immediately. Several weeks passed.

The thought still they were somewhat better, but the thoughts were still coming. Finally, one day at my desk, as I was praying, I just thought, I can't do this anymore. And the thought hit me.

You're a victim. Give up, just give up. And I thought, you know, maybe I am a victim.

My grandmother had mental issues. My father has struggled with this. Maybe it just runs in my family.

I'm sure I can go to heaven. I'll just, I'm a victim. And I heard these words on the inside.

That's not me telling you you're a victim. That's coming from outside. And immediately I realized Satan's tactic had changed.

Now, he wasn't accusing me. Now he was starting to try to get me to stop fighting the fight of faith. And I said, I will not receive that.

I am not a victim. And as soon as I said that, I felt myself lifting off the chair. I know it sounds incredible, but I felt myself lifting off the chair.

I remember saying, oh, like I was falling or gravity had lost its hold. And the next thing I knew, I was in heaven. Oh, the splendor, the colors, the radiance, the peace.

People ask me was you breathing oxygen? No, I was breathing love. People live on love in heaven.

And the Lord Jesus looked at me. He still his hair was touching his shoulders, his robe, it glistened. It wasn't white.

It glistened. And he said to me, I love you. I love you.

And he hugged me. And when he hugged me, I felt I felt love go through me. And then he started to pull away.

I said, Lord Jesus, I don't want to go back. I don't want to go back. He said, you must go back.

You must go back for your wife and your little boy. I said, But I don't want to. And he said, But you must go back for them.

And he pointed and there was a room, a warehouse full of army cots. I didn't know what that meant, and then a few moments later, I'm sitting back at my desk, and within days people by the dozens started calling and showing up and getting in touch with me, We're struggling in our mind. We're struggling in our thought life.

Can you help us? We're tormented. We're dealing with anxiety.

Do you have any answers? And that moment I realized that's why I'm here today. That's why my ministry, to help those who are tormented in their mind, is doing what it's doing today.

Maybe you are tormented. Maybe you can't get thoughts out. Maybe a thought, or an image, or a scene, or a memory has locked in on you.

I want to tell you, the Lord is concerned about that. He loves you. He appeared to me to let me know what they were.

And then he's taught me all these years that the answer to overcoming oppressive, demonic, accusatory thoughts is in the word of God. You might not have a vision like I had, but you got the word of God like I got. And the word of God is a sword.

It's a shield. It's more powerful than any weapon any country can have. So can I pray with you today?

Can I pray with you right now that the spirit of God would come upon you and give you a sense of peace in your mind? Let's pray. Lord Jesus.

I pray for those watching me today who are tormented. A tsunami has been unleashed upon their thinking and they're having a problem functioning. I pray, Father, that the spirit of peace and the spirit of power will come upon them now.

And I break that stronghold. I break that fear. I break that torment in the name of the Lord Jesus Christ.

And I speak peace over your mind and life to your spirit in Jesus' name. Amen. You can win this battle.

The greater one lives in you. Enjoy the peace and the victory God has given you in His name.