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hello and welcome to Lost Love Chronicles Doug nursed his drink and stared at the lazy Texas Sunset man I'm going to miss this I ain't going to miss the summer heat but there's something about standing in your backyard wearing only shorts and a t-shirt in November that I could have gotten used to oh and the smell of Texas barbecue damn my mouth is already watering turning I glanced back on the family cookout that was in progress behind me to get together was in my honor celebrating my recent promotion as shop foreman it was labeled an

adult party and the half dozen company employees and their spouses were there without any children I was thankful for that because I had every intention of turning this into my farewell party when I got the chance I went out to my truck I picked up what I figured I'd need for a visual aid I suspected they'd asked me to give some kind of speech and I wanted to make it memorable I stuck my Glock 9 mm into the back of my jeans and made sure it wasn't noticeable under my dinner jacket making my way back

through the guests I saw my boss coming towards me Tommy Peterson was a big fat guy with a smile that could light up half of Dallas even in his 50s the man had a presence about him that both demanded respect and put you at ease beside him walked Martha his wife my problem all right maybe she ain't the problem maybe she's just the who keeps opening the damn door and letting the real problem in it don't really matter either way it gets taken care of today Martha Peterson was more than a little on the heavy

side but was still decent looking even in her 50s she had that kind of personality that Drew people to her and made her mom mama or Grandma to just about everyone problem was she believed the old wives tale Mama Knows Best since I'd move here 11 months ago she made it her mission in life to set me up with the perfect woman it didn't matter what I did or what I said she couldn't get it through her thick head I just wasn't interested in dating I'm still trying to get over my first marriage maybe if

I would have yelled or thrown some kind of fit she would have gotten the hint but that just ain't me I tend to be quiet polite and private I guess if I'd been more of an idiot well that's going to change there they sat Martha and several of the other wives all just beaming like cats that at carouse they found their perfect girl for me and there she was sitting with them she was beautiful barely 5 ft but with a good figure long blonde hair and a very pretty face of course she always looked great

because she worked in a beauty salon I had to give them credit I thought she was the perfect girl for me too till about 2 years ago unfortunately the perfect girl they've been pushing on me the past couple months was my ex-wife Teresa the in fact they knew that is what really boiled my blood I hadn't told them the real story behind my divorce because it wasn't any of their damn business I told them I didn't want to date her or talk to her or even be in the same state as her now there she

sat surrounded by a bunch of women who were extremely pleased with themselves at finally getting my ex-wife and me face to face Teresa probably hadn't told them much about how our marriage ended because she was good at leaving out little things when she didn't want to face something she had a way about her that Charmed almost everyone she met she told them she made a mistake and that I refused to talk to her and forgive her she played the broken and sorry wife role perfectly that and her I pray for the chance to show Doug

how much I really love him routine had Martha and her H party eating out her hand Tommy stood up addressed the group and finally introduced me Showtime I'd like to thank youall for coming out tonight I know this was supposed to be a celebration and I guess it is in a way Tommy offered me the job a shop foreman and I want to thank him for that but sir I'm going to have to turn it down because as of today quit sorry to Spring this on you and I'll understand if you don't want to give

me a good reference but I'm going to be gone tomorrow no matter what happens I watched the startled faces as Tommy opened his mouth to say something Doug this is a party in my home he said sternly no disrespect to you sir you've been more than fair with me and I owe you an explanation but there are others here I said coldly that I sure as hell don't owe anything duve Martha said Martha I think you and the rest of your little coven have done more than enough to me i' made it very clear I

didn't want to anyone and I sure as hell made it clear I didn't want to be anywhere near my ex-wife apparently what I want ain't important so I'm either going to speak now or I leave for good your choice either one sounds pretty good to me right now the group was silent except for the sound of Teresa crying all right then I'll tell you a little story Teresa looked up at me and slowly shook her head her eyes begging me to not go on you see about 2 years ago I left my little Hometown in

Georgia for the first time in my life I left behind a destroyed marriage in a family who turned her backs on me I came here 11 months ago trying to start a new life but it seems I can't get away from my past it just keeps finding me with the help of others I glared at Martha until she looked away I married my high school sweetheart 5 years ago she was everything I ever wanted or dreamed of we got married after she graduated and for 3 years I thought we had the perfect marriage she worked

in a beauty salon and I worked in one of my family's garages my dad owns several garages across Northern Georgia so that's where I learned to be a mechanic but just like the Garden of Eden had a serpent so did my marriage unfortunately my serpent turned out to be my kid brother Billy Billy is 3 years younger than me but he's always been the center of attention in my family he's supposedly a recovering drug addict and has been since he was 15 and dropped out of school all my life my parents have a looked out

for him sacrificed themselves and me for whatever was best for Billy I heard Doug we have to help him he's sick more times than I can count so 3 years ago when I heard he'd been evicted from his latest dumb I wasn't surprised my family including my wife wanted him to stay with us until he could get admitted into another rehab my response wasn't no but hell no both my wife and my parents were shocked and appalled I could be so cold and turn my back on my brother in my mind I didn't turn my

back on him I just wasn't enabling him over the next few weeks they made my life a living hell pressuring me until I agreed to let Billy come and stay and my reward for trying to be a good big brother I glared at my ex-wife trying to calm my myself I'm not sure what line my piece of brother fed to my wife to get her to spread her legs for him but it worked of course neither one ever bothered to let me know about it 2 months later I got the great news honey I'm pregnant

like a dumbass I was thrilled since we've been trying to have a kid for the past year imagine my surprise a few months later when the doctor told us there was something wrong with a baby that the baby had a small heart defect that was common with women who use cocaine my wife of course denied ever using drugs then the doctor said something that turned my world into a nightmare he said there were studies that said drug abuse didn't have to be from the mother early studies showed sperm from a drug addict could cause birth

defects I started getting pissed he asked me if I've been doing drugs when I told him I hadn't he said birth defects were still a mystery and there must be another reason my wife the one who I trusted more than anyone in this world told me I was the child's father but things weren't adding up right when the baby was born they did the surgery it was considered a total success but I'm not a complete fool so I had a DNA test run when the results came back it was Final I was an uncle I

lost it I threw all my cheating wife's things out of the house grabbed my glock and went looking for that I once called a brother I looked everywhere but couldn't find him my parents had stashed him in some outof State rehab so how did they know well there's another little kick in the boss seems my brother waited a whole week before he told them about sharing his older brother's reason to live then the four of them sat on their butts hoping I would never find out their little secret I file for divorce the next day

as soon as my sunby ex-wife Got Served the non-stop load of started from her and my parents I wouldn't talk to the cheating 304 for weeks I couldn't stand to look at her or even hear her voice I was in shock all my dreams were trashed I've been screwed over and lied to by the ones who claimed they loved me after a week of non-stop crap from my parents I agreed to talk to her I heard all her EXC usus he was depressed and said he'd nothing to live for she felt sorry for him she

was only trying to comfort him and it went too far the weed he was smoking clouded her mind it was only that one night it was just a mercy sex and didn't mean anything seems their first attempt was so bad he started talking suicide the second time she restored his will to live my ex-wife trying to earn sainthood one depressed man at a time makes one wonder if she's been visiting the homeless shelters and spreading her Joy I spit the bile that was building in my mouth Teresa sat there and quietly cried both Teresa and

my parents were on me like flies on crap but they weren't alone they recruited others to talk to me my favorite was when the pastor of the church my family has attended for Generations paid me a visit my family was big in giving to the church and had funded a bunch of their building projects He went on and on about forgiveness after a bit I got tired of it and agreed to forgive but with two conditions the first was that he would preach a sermon a Sunday on coveting your brother's wife the second was that

the following Sunday I would get to stand before the entire congregation and give my testimony before I publicly forgave them I smiled as I remembered his reaction I never heard from him again of course my parents just kept going I snarled I heard all their expected I needed to be a bigger man than this Teresa had made a mistake but her heart was good my wife and baby needed me and a real man wouldn't abandon them they raised me better than this they went on and on my dad finally told me how disappointed he was

in me for not forgiving Teresa and Billy I told them both how disappointed I was in them as parents after that I gave them both barrels and told exactly what I thought of them it was very ugly finally when they asked me if I'd read my brother's apology letter and that I shouldn't blame Billy because he was sick I lost it again I told him I'd wiped my but with his letter I also told them to never mention my brother's name to me ever again they didn't believe me so I decided to convince them I

stare at my audience making sure I had their complete attention reaching behind me I pulled out my glock there were several gasps and more than a few cuss words I thank God I was at Tommy and Martha's House usually pulling a gun in Texas would get your butt shot but I knew Martha had banned any guns from being brought into her home so I would be the only one carrying the Arsenal my co-workers usually carried would have been left in their trucks or other vehicles I lowered my voice to a menacing growl and continued I

see you had the same reaction as my parents parents I remember the words I spoke to them that day you mention that a-hole name to me one more time and I will hunt that low life maggot down and put a bullet in his head I swear to God you will be burying your favorite son within the week I paused to watch the color drain out of several people's faces I made my point apparently my parents believe me since they haven't spoken to me since that day too bad I can't say the same for my ex-wife

I figur I might actually hurt someone if I stayed there any longer so I moved across the state line to Alabama to wait out my divorce I left Teresa and the kid everything but a few dollars I needed to get started again guess I should be grateful it took her 6 months to find me i' heard she had some kind of breakdown and had to be hospitalized seems she tried to kill herself she failed it was kind of like her trying to stay faithful to her husband close but no cigar I stared at Teresa as

she buried her face in her hands her shoulders heaved as she sobbed I like to tell you I felt sorry for her but I didn't she made me what I am now by tearing out my heart all that was left was the pain from my past and a rage I have to fight to control every day over the past 2 years I'd found I couldn't move on the fact Teresa kept stalking me didn't help she'd always said we were soulmates destined to be together throughout time I thought it was kind of silly like she'd read

it somewhere and just like the sound of it I have my doubts now I've never felt so alone like a part of me is missing I find myself looking next to me wanting to ask her what she thinks at times I've even reached out for her hand but it's it's never there I can feel my heart growing colder and the anger growing each time it happens she'd always been there for me before I remembered my graduation my dad wasn't there because Billy had gotten in trouble again Dad had gone down to the police station to

pick him up and to talk with the counselor my mom was so worried that she was a basket case so I told her to just go and join dad so my graduation party included my friends and some family members but none of my immediate family I tried to hide my disappointment but Teresa saw through it right away she made sure I felt love that night several times it really had been my special night I woke up in the middle of the night after my party lying in my bed with her naked body snuggled beside me

I noticed my parents standing in my doorway staring at us slowly I got up put my boxers on and walked over to my bedroom door my dad wanted to say something about Teresa being there but he thought better of it my mom had tears in her eyes they both whispered their apologies to me for missing my party I lied and told them it wasn't a big deal I remember telling them I'd be moving out soon and I'd be moving in with my cousin until Teresa and I could get married then I shut the door in

their faces my attention was drawn back to my audience when a couple started to stand up I cleared my throat and shook my head they quickly sat back down carefully I put my glock down beside me and you could hear the size of relief I looked at them and continued my story when she finally found me she moved into the same trailer park I was living in after I got a restraining order against her and still filed about a dozen more complaint complaints I knew I needed to move again the divorce had finally come through

so I packed up and moved here to Texas she didn't mention the little fact of a restraining order to you when she gave you her sob story about her marriage did she Martha Martha was now starting to cry as she shook her head didn't think so she's pretty good at leaving out little important details when I got to Texas I was lucky to find someone like Tommy who helped me start over again he gave me the chance to prove myself and didn't pry into my past very much i' made it clear I didn't want to

talk about my past and after making sure I wasn't running from the law he was okay with that again too bad his wife wouldn't listen I hadn't told anyone where I was moving not even the couple of friends I still had in Georgia so imagine my surprise when 3 months ago my ex-wife moved into town an even bigger Joy was when my boss wife decided to try to get me and my cheating ex-wife back together again Martha started to speak but I interrupted her you had your chance but you sure as hell never listened now

it's my turn I spewed with enough rage to shut her up I've made it clear a shitload of times over the last year I didn't want to date and didn't want to discuss or have to explain my past I sure as hell didn't want to get back with my wife but apparently what I want is a mean Martha so Doug I'm so sorry I didn't know I cut her off right there didn't know I SP since when you have to know before you'll respect someone else's privacy who the hell do you think you are that

someone has to explain it to you before you'll give him the common courtesy of staying the hell out of his life I could tell my words had hit their mark it was time to wrap up this sad little show so Martha I want to thank you and these other busy bodies for making my last two months of living hell I would wish yall well but that would be a bold-faced liee personally I hope yall turn on each other and make each other's lives miserable I looked down and saw Teresa's tear stre face please baby please

she begged please give me another chance I told you to get the hell away from me Teresa go home to your kid I can't unless I bring his daddy back with me come on Teresa know very well that I ain't his father and I will never be his father it was you who took away that chance of me fathering a child with you and gave that opportunity to a man who just screwed you and ran off into the sunset to get a little more high now you want to find the kid's father go look in

some rehab or in some gutter I picked up my glock put it back in my belt and turned to walk through the crowd they parted faster than a trailer tramp's legs at a NASCAR party I heard several apologies and a few even looked me in the eye as I reached the driveway I heard Theresa's scream behind me Doug way please don't go I can't live without you Doug she screamed as she fell to ground weeping you have to come home you just have to I turned around and looked at her listen you good for nothing

swine I don't give a damn if you take a razor to your wrists or not just stay the hell away from me you can screw without me so stop the act of telling everyone that you can't live without me next time I will not be civil with you keep in mind that I still have the restraining order against you and I am very much in my rights to enforce it with violence if you know what I mean I saw everyone staring at me seems I still can't get anyone to listen to me I snarled and

walked to my truck now let's check Teresa's side of the story The Doctors tell me recording my thoughts is good therapy and this will help me discover myself personally I think they're full of crap they don't seem to understand that I've lost my dog he's my rock my soulmate my lover my best friend and until recently my husband I lost him because of one stupid mistake a mistake he can't forgive me for to understand us you need to know our past Doug and I started dating in high school he was a sophomore and I was

just a freshman I knew I loved him from the moment we first kissed we went all through high school together and I knew we would end up getting married 3 months after I graduated we had our wedding I'm sure my parents were thrilled first they were glad I was out of their house and second because we didn't have to get married as good little Southern Baptists I think they were afraid I was going to get knocked up my parents and I were always arguing they Lov Doug but didn't like my lifestyle the sex and drinking

was too much for them of course they knew I'd never do that with anyone but Doug he was all I'd ever wanted he's always been what I thought was my soulmate even when I messed up it had nothing to do with my love for him although he doesn't see it that way all he sees is the Betrayal he doesn't understand that when I see how bad he hurts I die too Doug has always been my rock whenever I would lose control he was always there until now most people think he's shy and quiet but I

know better what he really is is a volcano he's always calm on the outside but inside it can just build and build until he explodes I've seen it happen several times but rarely ever in public one time it happened in front of a bunch of our classmates we gone to a keg party and had been drinking when this jerk Jerry Whitmore grabbed me I turned around and slapped him then the drunk a hole grabbed me and tried to feel me up he must have had a death wish to do that in front of Doc even

though Doug ain't the biggest guy he's strong and in real good shape Jerry didn't even get a punch in before Doug had him on the ground sitting on him and pounding his face it took three guys to pull Doug off him and when they did there was blood everywhere Doug messed him up pretty bad and there was talk of charging Doug but then I threatened to file sexual assault charges against Jerry and everything was dropped needless to say I never had a problem with any other guy after that like I said earlier Doug and I

got married right after I graduated it was the happiest time that I can remember he was already working as a mechanic in one of his father's garages and I went to beauty school soon we had enough money saved to buy our first house it wasn't much just a little two bedroom Matchbox house but it was ours the first two years were tight since we didn't have much money but we had each other and it was more than enough I was so happy it seemed I was living in some fairy tale Doug and I didn't have

a perfect marriage but it sure seemed that way sometimes we'd argue but then I'd pout or cry and he would give in most of the time I didn't do that very very often I didn't want to take advantage of my duck our love was like a protective wall around us keeping us safe from the outside world I guess that's why I never saw the danger until it was too late when Billy was evicted from his trailer our problem started he had no place to stay since he was arguing with his and Doug's parents at the

time even though they didn't want him staying with him again so soon after the last time they didn't want him on the street either they asked us if he could stay with us for a few weeks until they could get him into another rehab center I said okay but Doug said no I knew Doug had lots of issues with his family most of them he had a right to be pissed about Doug's parents Tom and Paula are pretty decent folk they were just unlucky enough to have a son that was a mess that mess tore

their family apart and then killed mine as well Billy was always the loud one the one who do almost anything on a dare while Doug on the other hand was that quiet Force always standing in the background but you always knew was there together they were a team that lasted until Doug went to high school in high school Doug started hanging around his friends and football teammates more Billy reacted by being even more an attention Hound soon it was obvious Billy was going to try to be a bad boy or some kind of Rebel it

ain't a surprise Billy started hanging around the druggies Doug and I were dating by then and I knew it tore dug up watching Billy fall down that hole Billy was a full-fledged addict by the time he was a freshman he'd already torn the family up pretty good by then he dropped out the same year Doug graduated Doug's parents tried everything but didn't know what to do with Billy they tried sweet talking bribing threatening and finally they tried some tough love Billy simply used it as an excuse to drop out of school after that Tom and

Paula ended up caving into him on just about everything while I understood their problem it then became all about Billy they did everything for him and basically left Doug defend for himself most of the time I know that really hurt Doug Billy was just hellbent on destroying his life it was too bad because he could have been something special my Doug's a good-looking guy ey but everyone agrees Billy would have been better looking when he grew up unfortunately with a drug addiction no one will ever know Doug tried a bunch of times to reach out

to Billy Billy's response was to steal from his brother and their parents then by more drugs when Billy turned 18 Doug stopped trying we've been married about 2 and A2 years when Billy got evicted I'll admit Tom Paula and I were pretty relentless on trying to get Doug to change his mind I think Tom and Paula felt they were out of options and I think they needed to ease their guilt they didn't want Billy to come back to live with him again they had just thrown him out several months earlier after he'd stolen a bunch

of money from them I wanted Doug to change his mine because you can't just turn your back on family also it was getting close to Christmas and it would have been a horrible holiday with Billy living on the street it was just a few days after Christmas when I let my fairy tale marriage come crashing down Doug had called and told me he was trying to fix the transmission for a middle-aged single mother of three there in town it was her only car so he and one of the other guys at work were going to

work through the night to get it fixed for her damn I love him I got home late from the beauty salon that night when I walked into the house I almost gagged the smoke from Billy's weed was like a fog I walked over and pounded on the bedroom door but he didn't answer me pissed off I opened up some windows and then went to take a shower after my shower I got ready for bed the smell of smoke still red but I needed to shut the windows because it was cold outside after shutting the windows

I went and banged on Billy's door again this time he answered the way he looked scared me eyes were bright red and I couldn't tell if it was from the smoke or if he'd been crying he had such a look of Despair and Gloom I really started worrying about him he turned around walked back over by the bed and sat on the floor next to his bong I stepped in and immediately felt a rush from the smoke i' smoked pot on occasion so I was familiar with what it was doing to me I went in

got a fan and brought it back into the room I opened a window and set the fan to start blowing the Smoke Out Billy just sat there mumbling when I was done I said down next to him even though that night is fuzzy I'm sure I remember the way things happened I remember I started in on him damn it Billy I said if Doug smells this when he gets home he'll kick your butt out maybe that would be for the best he mumbled when I looked at him I saw such sadness it was like he'd

given up hell it don't matter anyway he sighed while tilting his head back and looking at the ceiling I'm dying anyway I was shocked it took me a few seconds to respond oh Billy do you got AIDS he snorted and shook his head nah I hate needles but it's the other way of getting it that's proof I'm dying he looked at me and must have seen my confusion with a deep sad sigh he answered my unspoken question ah I crap he started even with some of the skanks I hang around I couldn't catch AIDS that

way even if I tried he sat there watching me as it finally dawned on me what he meant when it did I couldn't believe it I mean hell he just turned 19 did did you like go to a doctor yeah he nodded he said it was the drugs hell I checked out clean for STDs and AIDS but it don't make a whole lot of difference now does it I can't usually get it up and when I do I can't keep it hard for very long I can barely scrape enough money together to feed my habit

so buying some little blue pills ain't likely hell if I can't be much of a man I might as well end it so getting thrown out by my lucky Big Brother really doesn't mean we sat quietly for a few minutes I'm ashamed that I began to think of ways to help and most of them knew Doug wouldn't approve of Doug's not really lucky he just works hard I said that ain't what I was talking about he mumbled Billy looked at me with tears in his eyes then what I asked softly I was talking about you

he whispered I know I blushed I turned my head so he couldn't see it Doug's always been lucky because of you you give him the strength to do what he needs to do if it wasn't for you he'd be just as big of a screw up as I am so yeah he's lucky if I'd Found Someone Like You things would have been different he buried his head in his hands inside I know he was stroking my ego at least I do now then well things are hazy I think it was the smoke since it was

still pretty heavy in the room if I could do it all over I would have got up and left right there but I didn't what I did was open the door to the end of my marriage I looked over at him and I saw a broken kid someone who didn't have a reason to live my heart broke as I saw his pain I reached over and put my arms around him and hugged him he put his head on my shoulder and I gently stroked hair after a few minutes he reached up and gently touched my

cheek and then he kissed me softly Billy I whispered you shouldn't please Teresa he begged softly I've never kissed a good woman before please I know I should have stopped it right there but I froze I didn't kiss him back but I didn't stop him either he kissed me again and reached around me and pulled me tight I didn't respond I guess he thought my lack of response was a green light I tried to stop him Billy I whispered please Teresa I need a reason to live was that a line of course it was but

I actually believed he was on the edge of Despair whether I was stoned or just stuned by the moment I didn't get up I didn't scream I didn't kick or do the things I should have if I wanted to fight for my marriage instead I just sat there confused torn on what I should do it wasn't making love there were no tender words or touches those were saved for my husband this was just sex it wasn't the incredible sex I usually had with my dog he knew what I like liked what I wanted and what

I needed he had something no other man will ever have my love once we were done I lay on top of him panting I could hear him breathlessly Whispering thank you thank you oh God thank you I lay there knowing I accomplished something i' given hope to someone who didn't have any do you know how that feels it feels incredible I rolled off Billy and stood up it was at that point I came back to reality then the magnitude of my betrayal hit me square in the face I quickly grabbed my clothes and started for

the bedroom door Billy called out to me Teresa I turned and stared at him as the tears began to fill my eyes never again Billy I said softly this will never happen again and Doug can't ever know you understand me he can't know ever Billy nodded and lay back on the bed he covered his face with his arms and I think I heard him begin to cry I went and took another shower I tried to scrub myself clean on the outside on the inside I tried to justify my actions but I couldn't I hadn't set

out to cheat on Doug but that's the way he'd see it the fact it was with his brother would kill him I cried myself to sleep that night I knew I'd changed us forever the next morning Doug was Furious the smell of pot was still noticeable he B through Billy out right then and there why he didn't I'm not really sure I was a mess still trying to get my emotions under control so Doug wouldn't think something was wrong that night I made love to my Doug like there would be no tomorrow in a way

I was scared there might not be when he asked I told him I'd had a nightmare that he' left me he was so kind and gentle with me that night my Doug was mine and I was his again I would never again be so stupid over the next few weeks I noticed Billy watching me but he never tried to talk to me alone he moved out 3 weeks later two weeks after he'd moved out I discovered I was pregnant Doug and I were thrilled I honestly never believed the child wasn't Ducks I mean we had

a very active sex life since we got married so I figured we'd done it at least 25 times since i' been with Billy not until Billy asked me if he might be the father did I start getting concerned I learned much to my anger and embarrassment that Billy had already confessed to Tom and Paula what had happened they weren't happy but they didn't throw me to the Wolves either after talking with him we decided to let our secret die and pray Doug would never find out I was sick I never kept anything from Doug before

but I knew this would destroy him every night I prayed the child was his and he'd never find out the day that doctor said there was a problem with a baby I knew my prayers weren't answered he said it could be fixed with surgery but depending on how bad it was they might have to do surgery right after it was born when he said that kind of birth defect had been linked to Coke abuse my heart stopped beating he asked me if I did drugs and I told him absolutely not then he asked Doug the

same thing and said they had studies showing if the father was a drug user it could cause defects too I almost died right there Doug started to come unglued until the doctor told him that when it came to birth defects they didn't know any anything for sure but I knew right then the seat of Doubt had been planted over the next few months I tried to assure Doug that it was his without letting him know there was a possibility it wasn't he never came right out and asked I knew I was holding on to just

a glimmer of hope the baby really was Dougs but there weren't any other options after the baby was born all hell broke loose Doug got a DNA test and found out that Billy was the daddy he threw my stuff out of the house that day not surprisingly my parents disowned me and I ended up moving in with Doug's parents Doug wouldn't even talk to me for 2 weeks he finally agreed to meet with me after his parents had been after him daily for almost a week I know our talk was one-sided but I had to

get my husband to listen to me he had to see how sorry I was and how much I needed him I pleaded and begged pouted and shouted screamed and cried I would have stood on my head if I would have thought it would make Doug listen and understand he really is my life my love my soulmate I tried everything I could think of but my husband just wasn't listening I begged him to forgive me and told him that it was just a bad mistake I explained it was just a mercy sex and didn't mean anything

I even told him the God's honest truth that it wasn't near as good as when we did it still I got almost no response all he would say to me was you slept with my brother and had his kid over the next week his parents and I tried everything to get him to sit down and talk with us to try to find a way to work through this Billy even wrote him a letter trying to explain and apologize I'm not blind I could see how us constantly badgering him was affecting my husband I could see

the anger and frustration building in Duck all someone has to do is watch his eyes they his tail the more they squint the closer he is to exploding but I didn't have any other choice he just wouldn't listen I called him 15 times a day and went to his workplace a couple of times each day was I stalking Doug I guess it could have seemed that way but I've never backed away from a fight if it is about something important and there's nothing more important than my duck when he finally did talk to me I

almost wished he had he started with some words he never used and then got worse by the time he finished he'd call me every name in the book he ended up pulling off my wedding ring while I sat there petrified by his words up until then I'd seen my husband's rage but was never threatened by it now I was its Target and it scared the out of me about that time Tom and Paula told me it's best to leave things be and stopped helping me Doug had said some things to them that shook them up

pretty bad like I said his rage can be scary at times I lost it when he moved to Alabama for the first time I considered my life without my duck it was black and cold and there was no hope or joy in it the man I love hated me that night I mixed a bottle of sleeping pills with a fifth of Jack Daniels I woke up the next day in the hospital with a splitting headache and on suicide watch they said I'd started calling people after Doug wouldn't take any more of my calls they obviously

found me in time and pumped my stomach after that Doug junr that's the baby's name went to live with Tom and Paula I'm not allowed to to be around it much I like to say that bothers me but it doesn't the baby is a mistake just a painful reminder that I don't have my husband it took a little while but I was able to track Doug down in Alabama after I got out of the hospital I moved into the small trailer park where he was living needless to say he wasn't thrilled to see me I

got a job at a local beauty parlor and settled into my routine work call Doug work visit Doug work called duck soon I was visited by the bamama cops I had to change my routine of a bit when Doug filed a restraining order on me but I didn't stop trying to talk to him I couldn't because if I had I would have lost him completely it was about this time that Doug got his divorce I guess the judge heard the baby was his brothers and figured we wouldn't be able to work it out he just

didn't know us very well a couple of months after the divorce Doug moved again it took me 8 months to find him he moved to Texas this time when I moved to be near him I didn't pressure him like I had in the past I met some of the ladies whose husband and boyfriends worked with him I told them some of the highlights of our relationship mainly focusing on my desire to get back together with him I never lied to them I just didn't tell them everything I got another job in a salon so I

could take it slower this time if you're wondering about how I can get a job so quick the answer is simple I'm pretty I work fairly cheap and I do damn good work it took a little while but Martha could see how much I loved him and how sorry I was I'd ruined it for us I think she also saw how unhappy Doug was so even though he said said he wasn't interested in talking to me we all knew it was just a matter of time before he would that time finally came at his party

what Martha and I had planned backfired in the worst way possible what started as a promising night quickly turned bad Doug told everyone his version of our story it was condensed and very harsh I didn't dare interrupt him I could see his eyes squinting after he was done I begged him to come home with me and he told me to go kill myself I knew then I'd lost him for good after the party I fell part Martha got me to a hospital and several days later I found myself here in Atlanta Hospital under another suicide

watch you may be wondering about the baby well I'm told it's doing great I haven't been around it since right before my first breakdown Tom and Paula are taking care of the baby right now they'll probably end up adopting it because let's face it I'm a shitty mother what else would you call a woman who can't stand a look at her own child I know that sounds horrible but every time I see it I remember my mistake and all it cost me it's not the baby's fault I know but that doesn't change anything does that

make me a terrible person hell yeah in my eyes it does I guess the doctors were right this did help me discover who I am of course who I found out I am makes me sick I'm a horrible wife and mother who lost her only reason to live I'll probably have to hide this little recording or they'll never let me out of here they say they want you to be honest but when you are it's scares them I've no doubt someday I'll figure out a way to deal with this I pray it's soon Doug just

sat there and stared at the text on his cell phone it had been 3 months since my party and my future was finally getting clear for the last 2 years since I'd left aresa I felt lost during that time I tried to date I even ended up in bed with a few of them it was empty and Hollow what I wanted I couldn't have I wanted my wife the way she was before she'd slept with my brother like I said it would never happen I knew I still loved her but I could never go back

to her she'd screwed my brother and had his baby she' even lied to me about whose baby it was everything I had every hope every dream was wrapped up in her she really was my soulmate and now all I had was my pain and anger I was lost I didn't know where I was going or what to do I used work to fill my time so I didn't have to think then I got the text and at that moment my world changed it said Teresa had killed herself before the text I couldn't find a reason

to live now I had a purpose I wrote two short notes enclosed them with a small black jewelry box and it's certified mail once I verified its delivery I packed up my truck and checked out of the motel with a grin I started the long trip back to Georgia what was in the package I'd mailed to my parents well there was a short note to my parents telling them that since the 304 had taken the easy way out it was up to me his uncle to look after my nephew's future I said I knew they

would be able to take care of him financially after Billy and I were out of the picture I ended it by wishing them better luck raising my nephew than it had raising Billy in me I'd addressed the little black box to my brother inside were four things the smashed remains of Teresa and my wedding rings a single 9mm bullet and a note with just three words on it time to run I knew Billy would be scared to hell and would run to my parents and try to get them to save him he did the same

I was bombarded by phone calls and SMS apparently Billy had joined a rehab after my divorce and was now back with my parents as per the SMS I had received from my parents Billy is now clean and has been clean for the last 8 months my parents even got a restraining order against me but I was hellbent on my revenge nothing was saving Billy from his fate I reached my destination and the only thing I had on my mind was Billy Teresa had cheated on me and now had paid the ultimate price for her actions

no I do not consider her redeemed as she took the path of a coward it's now time for Billy to pay for his actions I laid low and stayed at the local Motel 5 miles outside the town in the evening I went to town and tried to find Billy I searched the town with a singular Focus the kind of focus that comes when your world has been torn apart I didn't feel the cold didn't notice the tired ache in my legs I was fueled by something deeper something darker I started with the places I knew

he'd go first the die bar on Main Street where we used to shoe pool I walked in and the smell of stale beer hit me bringing back memories of better times but I wasn't here for memories I was here to find Billy the bartender gave me a weary look when I asked about him said he hadn't seen him maybe it was true maybe not didn't matter I kept moving I hit every spot I could think of every place that held a scrap of her shared past it was getting late when I finally found myself outside

that club on the edge of town it wasn't Billy's usual scene but something told me I'd find him there I walked in scanning the dimly lit room the Bas from the speakers thumping in my chest then I saw him Billy sitting at a corner table with a couple of his friends laughing like nothing was wrong like he hadn't destroyed my life I stayed in the shadow watching waiting for the right moment that's when I heard them talking one of his buddies a smug look on his face said something that stopped my heart cold you really

pulled it off Billy seducing Doug's wife just to get back at him man I didn't think you had it in you guess that's what happens when you grow up in the shadow of the perfect sun huh couldn't breathe the room spun is the truth hit me like a freight train Billy hadn't just been stupid or Reckless he done this on purpose because of some Twisted jealousy some need to hurt me I stormed out of that club before I did something I couldn't take back not yet anyway my heart was pounding fists clenched so tight my

knuckles were white I needed to think needed a different plan this wasn't something I could rush into not if I wanted to make Billy truly pay I got in my car parked a few blocks away and just sat there for a while staring at nothing trying to calm the storm inside me but one thing was clear I wasn't going to let him out of my sight I wasn't going to give him the chance to slip away for 3 days I shadowed him and every night I returned to that club and watched him from a distance

during the day I followed him through town keeping far enough back that he wouldn't notice I learned his routine where he went who he talked to and most importantly when he was alone I waited for that moment for when I could make my move without anyone getting in the way on the third night he left the club alone finally giving me the opening i' been waiting for I followed him as he walked to his car parked in the back alley where the street lights barely reached he was fumbling with his keys he failed to notice

the footsteps getting Clos I moved fast grabbing him from behind and covering his mouth before he could scream he struggled but he was no match for the anger that had been building in me for days I dragged him to my car threw him in the trunk and slammed it shut the sound echoing in the empty alley as I got behind the wheel and drove off I didn't feel the rage anymore I felt cold calculating Billy had crossed a line and now it was my turn to show him what happened when you betray your own blood

Billy woke up in a pitch black room groggy and disoriented his head sounded as if he'd been hit but when he tried to move he realized he was tied to a chair his wrists and ankles bound tight Panic set in as he struggled against the ropes but they didn't budge his mouth was gagged muffling his desperate attempts to scream for help the air in the room was thick heavy with the smell of damn concrete and something else something metallic and cold he tried to make sense of where he was but the darkness swallowed everything then

he heard footsteps slow deliberate the sound echoing off the walls the door creaked open letting in a sliver of dim light Doug stepped into view his face hidden in Shadow he didn't say a word just stood there staring at Billy with a look that sent chills down his spine there was no anger in Doug's eyes no hatred just an unsettling calm that made Billy's blood run cold Doug walked over his movements deliberate controlled he pulled out a syringe filled with a clear liquid holding it up so Billy could see Billy's eyes widened in Terror as

he tried to shake his head to plead but the gag choked off any sound Doug didn't Flinch didn't hesitate he just leaned down pushed Billy's sleeve up and injected the needle into his arm Billy felt the liquid enter his bloodstream a cold Sensation that spread quickly through his body his vision blurred the room around him starting to spin he tried to keep his eyes on Doug tried to focus but the drug was already taking hold his muscles weakened his head slumped forward the Panic he felt just moments before faded into a dull distant fear Doug

stepped back still silent watching his Billy's Consciousness Slipped Away the last thing Billy saw before the darkness swallowed him again was the emotionless look on his brother's face an expression that told him whatever was coming next it was going to be far worse than anything he could imagine when Billy finally came to the sun was already high in the sky beating down mercilessly on the barren landscape around us I watched from short distance as he struggled to sit up his movements sluggish and disoriented the vast expanse of the Texas desert stretched out in every direction

offering nothing but sand scrub and an unforgiving horizon I walked toward him slowly the crunch of sand and gravel beneath my boots announcing my Approach he looked up at me confusion and fear evident in his eyes sweat was already dripping down his forehead and I could see his lips starting to crack from the dryness beside him lay a single bottle filled with a liquid and a syringe carefully placed next to it he glanced at them and then back at me eyes wide searching for answers I thought about killing you quickly I began my voice steady

but cold thought maybe you deserve an easy way out after what you did but then I realized that would be too merciful he tried to speak but his throat was dry and the words came out as a rasping whisper I didn't care to hear whatever excuses or please he had prepared you see betrayal like yours Cuts deep my own brother sleeping with my wife and now she's dead and you are still here I paused letting the weight of my words hang in his scorching air you took everything from me Billy so now I'm giving you

a chance to earn my forgiveness or meet your fate out here I nudged the bottle with the tip of my boot making it roll slightly closer to him in that bottle there's just enough to keep you going for sometime maybe a bit longer if you stretch it and that syringe that's loaded with enough narcotics to numb the pain or in at all if you choose he stared at the items then back at me tears welling up in his eyes the reality of his situation was sinking in we about 300 M deep into this desert I

continued gesturing to the endless expanse around us no roads no towns no people just you and the elements if by some miracle you make it out alive Maybe maybe I'll consider forgiving you maybe we'll find a way to move past this but if not well I guess that's Justice served Billy started to shake his head muffled sounds of protest escaping his dry throat I could see the desperation the fear overtaking him but there was no room for sympathy in my heart not anymore I turned away walking back toward my truck parked a few yards away

as I opened the door I looked back one last time choices have consequences Billy this is yours I climbed into the driver's seat started the and drove off watching as his figure grew smaller and smaller in the rearview mirror until it was swallowed by the shimmering heat of the desert as the mil stretched between us a myriad of emotions battled Within Me anger pain a hint of satisfaction and maybe even a sliver of regret only time would tell if leaving him there was punishment enough or if I find myself haunted by this decision for the

rest of my days the desert has a way of revealing truths stripping everything down to its Bare Essence maybe out there alone under the Relentless Sun Billy would come to understand understand the gravity of what he'd done or maybe the desert would claim him and with him the last ties to a family that had been shattered Beyond repair either way I drove on the vast open road ahead offering no answers only the promise of endless Horizon and the hope of finding peace somewhere along the way 5 days later I was arrested by the cops for

the demise of Billy I was tried but then there was no evidence linking me to the crime I had my phone switched of while I was in Texas so there was no digital signature or any physical evidence of me being near him the motel owner was the same middle-aged single mother I helped years ago on a Christmas night I guess good deeds help you my parents were mad at me my mother cursed me with every biblical punishment that she could imagine and my father kept looking at me silently my lawyers had argued that Billy had

a history of running away and had a history of addiction his body was found with a syringe in arm and an empty bottle that had traces of vodka in it my lawyers argued that he ran away again and started his narcotics abuse and somehow got lost in a desert he argues that some addicts hitchhike their way from one state to other I was acquitted of all charges my parents still don't speak to me it does not bother me not anymore six months after everything that happened I found myself back in my hometown trying to piece

my life together I opened a garage just like I'd always wanted working with my hands helped keep my mind off the past off Billy the desert and everything that came with it fixing engines restoring old cars it gave me a sense of control something solid to hold on to the town hadn't changed much but I had the old familiar faces seemed a little more distant now but I kept to myself focused on the work it was easier that way the garage was doing well better than I expected word got around that I was back and

soon enough folks started bringing their cars in trusting me to get them running again it felt good to be useful to have a purpose then there was Sarah she brought her car in one day a busted up sedan that had seen better days she was a single mother just trying to make ends me we got to talking while I worked on her car nothing too deep deep at first just small talk about the town her kid and life in general but there was something about her a quiet strength that Drew me in we started seeing

each other more often after that I didn't plan on it didn't think I was ready to let anyone in not after everything but Sarah had a way of making things seem simple even when they weren't she didn't ask too many questions about my past didn't push me to open up she just let me be and somehow that was exactly what I needed her son Timmy was a good kid smart curious always asking about the cars I was working on I found myself spending more time with them helping out when I could fixing things around their

place just being there it was different having someone to care about again but in a way that felt right life wasn't perfect and there were still nights when the past crept in when the weight of what I'd done and what I'd lost pressed down on me but with Sarah and Timmy I felt like maybe I had a chance at something good again maybe this was the Fresh Start i' been searching for a way to rebuild one day at a time so I kept moving forward the garage Sarah Timmy they were my future now the past

would always be there a shadow lurking in the background but I wasn't going to let it Define me anymore not if I could help it