I'm a 33 year old woman with no life. (my advice to young women)

I am a 33-year-old woman with no direction in life and I want to talk about it I will give you some advice at the end of how to deal with this and cope with no sense of direction but for now I kind of just want to tell you my story of how I got here and it's not long and it's not that sad and it's not like I'm not going to try to make you cry when I was maybe late teens to my 20s to like college age I had a vision in my head of

what I wanted out of my life of what my life was going to be like when I reached the age I'm at now and some of the things I wanted were okay of course I was going to graduate college which I did thank God and then I was going to get married I got married and then divorced there's more to that story but that's for another video I wanted a big career I started having a nice okay career and then that pummeled again I can talk about that later but that's how my life has been

so up and down that I no longer know what I want even though I've planned this life since I was really young and then when I graduated college I had an internship which is again that's pretty normal you graduate college you get an internship I got a really good internship when I was in college I studied video production I studied um um basically a very interesting version of Journalism and I wasn't I didn't know I wanted to be in journalism but um I knew for sure that I didn't want to tell like sad story so

I didn't really aim to do journalism but that's what basically my major was that's what I studied and I graduated that I did I was an okay student you know I got an internship for digital media coordinator and that went really well and then I was like okay this is good I I Gra graduated college I got an internship this is life is going to be good life is going to be good and then I never got jobs that's when I was around maybe 23 24 or 23 um I never was able to get a

job that made sense with my career what I wanted so instead of going into a dire ction of entertainment news reporter or working at a huge production company or working in some sort of film movie capacity working in entertainment or anything like that like I wanted I never got any of those jobs so the first 5 years I graduated in 20 2015 so the first 5 years of after my graduation it was constantly looking for work and constantly looking for jobs I never got them I never I had a few interviews but I never got

jobs I never got jobs and it just nobody wanted to hire me nobody wanted to give me opportunities nobody wanted I I don't know if they thought I was too dumb to do the work they kept the thing I kept getting was this is literally what I keep getting today in my 33 years is you don't have enough experience you don't know what you're doing so we can't hire you but it's like well how am I going to get experience if I don't if you don't hire me me and that's still the struggle today which

I will get into later about the state of my job hood and how I ended up having no Direction that's exactly what it was like when I got out of college it was constantly you don't have a job you don't have enough experience we can't hire you no job nothing I wanted I applied for you know companies like brick Co BuzzFeed Yahoo like all their like fun media Department jobs I applied for them nobody video I appli for video editing jobs nobody I went into the direction of getting a job just to live which is

which is fine sometimes you do have to do that so I ended up getting like retail jobs I got um customer service job I got a sales job like things like that even though it wasn't really what I wanted I still ended up getting those jobs I stayed in those in that direction for a while and those were fine even though I knew that I wasn't really what I wanted to do and then at 25 I got married the marriage did Last 5 Years which was great but unfortunately it didn't work out and there's the

end of that I may talk about that in another video but for now that's where I was at 25 I got married at 25 by the time I was 30 the marriage was over and then I had to kind of restart my life again so I ended up um moving ended up moving across this um across the state I was in San Francisco and then now I moved down to Los Angeles in the middle of Co and then last year literally a year ago after I've was looking and struggling and trying to find work that

I really liked I found a job as a project manager at a tech company and I was really scared when I first started that job something about the job didn't feel right but I I did it anyway I was really happy I had everything I needed I was I had insurance friends I was going somewhere with my life even though I didn't have a boyfriend or or a partner anymore I was really happy because I was like I was making good money and I was I had friends I I was socializing I was I was

I was excited even though I in the back of my head I knew something was wrong I still kind of just went through my life as best as I could about a year ago I got fired which is how I'm in my position right now about a year later is because I got fired from that job and it was really devastating and ever since then I'm back to my college days or early 20s where I'm having a hard time finding a job I haven't been able to find a good full-time solid benefits all those kinds

of jobs in the corporate realm I did get a few contract jobs um right after I got fired but again there were contract jobs they didn't that means it didn't last they weren't permanent they didn't have any benefits but one job lasted 6 months and another job lasted 2 months so I was able to kind of cover my bills in that way it feels like again that nobody wants to hire me it feels like again that nobody wants anything to do with me it feels like and I'm still getting that same thing I'm getting the

same like you're not good enough you don't have enough experience we can't hire you you don't have enough experience even though my experience has demonstrates everything on my resume they're still saying I don't have enough experience for the job so that's how I'm here now is I am 33 no job no family living off of unemployment I barely I could barely make ends me thank goodness I don't have any children I only have my cat to take care of but I still struggle financially again I'm on unemployment and food stamps I should make clear that

I'm on food stamps right now I'm not happy because I'm I'm struggling emotionally mentally I just can't seem to get my life together so I'm hoping that trying to create content for YouTube and trying to put my story out there will resonate with some people that are probably feeling the same way I'm feeling as far as where I'm going I'm hoping to you know start creating more content on YouTube and making more videos and putting more time towards something that I really want to do versus waiting for companies to tell me that they don't want

me or they don't want to hire me and they don't want to work with me and I'm not good enough because when I'm doing YouTube and I'm doing my own content I nobody's going to tell me that nobody's going to say to me hey you're not good enough you're fired you're not good enough you're not you you're not worth it you're not worth the investment nobody's going to tell me that so I'm really hoping that going on to some sort of video production on YouTube will get me to where I want to go mentally emotionally

financially and hopefully something will come out of this even if it's just knowing that somebody out there is going through this and knows that they're not alone when it comes to having a very directionless life so that's that's what I'm hoping to get out of this so you might be wondering what I do all day with now without having any sort of Direction I spend a lot of my days inside the house which sucks sometimes but it's really nice to have piece I do a lot of cooking I do a lot of cleaning I shop

a lot I'm always shopping for like groceries or clothes or um when I say clothes I mean more like window shopping I'm not really out here like buying bags or shoes or you know things like that I do more window shopping the other day I went to Ros rodale drive and that was really fun um some days I get really lonely but I power through it by watching TV reading my book I look for jobs all day every day um that also kills time I talk to my friends on the phone um things like that

so as as far as advice goes for young people I think that everybody in their life will have a time in their life where they just don't know where they're going and they don't have any control of what life is bringing I think that's a thing I think that's possible in um every Young person or older person's life you know some like you know when women um when their children Lees for college and they're feeling you know they they're empty nesters that's something that feels very directionless cuz you're like what do I do now that

my kids are out of the house you know when you get fired and you have you have to wait for your next gig as far as advice goes what I would say is these three things number one have a solid good support system know that there are people in your life that you can go to to talk to about anything and everything no matter what time no matter what you know where you are you can talk to them always have something planned and something to look forward to something I do a lot of that I

did a lot of this year is I went to a lot of shows I was able to go to a lot of my favorite shows I saw Beyonce yes amazing so that was something to look forward to um when the Barbie movie came out I made sure to plan an event with my friends and we had a really good time because again I was looking forward to that okay so my third third and probably final advice is knowing that this phase of life is not permanent and even though it feels permanent even though it feels

very long I'm assuming that I'm not going to do this in like 5 years 5 to 10 years I may be like this in the next year or two but knowing that I won't be like this in 5 to 10 years is kind of also what keeps me going it again it feels very permanent it feels feels like crap I don't have a direction I need help um it feels like that but it at the end of the day I know in my head that it's not even though my brain is telling me like girl

what are we doing if I am here in the next 5 to 10 years I I need to real really re-evaluate what is happening in my life because that's a that's going to be a huge problem if this video helped you in any way shape or form Please Subscribe like the video and I'm happy to kind of go into more detail about more stuff and where I am or where I'm going and I would love to share more so just make sure to subscribe and follow along with me as I try my best to figure

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