My Straight Roommate Did THIS To Me While I Was Sleeping | Gay Love Story

I thought I knew everything about my Straight roommate but one night while I was fast asleep he did something that completely shattered that belief when I woke up I couldn't believe what I saw what happened next was so exciting that it really turned my whole world upside down it started out like any other night I had just finished a long day of classes and work exhausted and ready to crash in bed nothing out of the ordinary at least that's what I thought I I've been living with my roommate Chris for over a year now and

he's straight has always been straight As far as I knew in fact when I first moved in I didn't think much of it we were both just looking for a place to crash just two college guys trying to make it in the world Chris and I hit it off right away we'd hang out grab beers talk about life but it never really went beyond that he was always kind of a jock big athletic always surrounded by girls and I was the quieter one more into books and gaming it was easy to fall into a comfortable

routine with him he was just that easygoing and I didn't really mind the differences between us I mean it wasn't like I had a reason to think things could ever go beyond what they were he had his girlfriend and I well I kept my attraction to him hidden I didn't think he'd ever see me that way besides he was straight but things started started to change about 2 weeks ago I'm not sure when it started maybe it was a gradual shift or maybe I'm just now realizing it but something was different we'd still hang out

still talk about whatever was on our minds but there were these little moments little glances brief touches nothing overt nothing that could be easily noticed but I noticed and I tried to ignore it I mean I told myself I was reading too much into it that maybe I was just imagining things it didn't help that Chris had started acting a little different around me more playful more flirtatious like he was trying to get a reaction out of me I remember one night in particular Chris and I had spent the evening watching some ridiculous action movie

both of us sprawled on the couch sharing a bag of chips he had been unusually touchy nudging my arm with his laughing a little too close but even then I pushed it aside it didn't mean anything right just Chris being himself but then that night the night it happened the one that stuck with me everything changed it was after a night out we had gone to a party just to unwind nothing serious I'd had a few drinks but nothing too crazy it wasn't like I was hammered we came back to the apartment late and I

remember feeling tired my body sore from standing for hours and dancing in a crowded space Chris had been quiet for most of the walk home but when we got inside he turned to me with a weird smile not his usual goofy grin but something more intense you good he asked his voice a little softer than usual I nodded shrugging off my jacket as I headed for my room I didn't think much of it yeah just tired going to crash all right bro he said dragging his feet then as I was about to close my door

I heard him speak again hey you mind if I crash in here tonight I don't know I just don't feel like sleeping alone I turned to face him raising an eyebrow huh he scratched the back of his neck looking a little awkward I mean I know it's weird but I'm kind of not feeling it just can we hang for a bit at this point my mind was racing what was going on we had shared a couch plenty of times but this felt different still I didn't want to make it weird so I said yeah sure

whatever Chris settled into the bed next to me and I remember how He adjusted his pillow for a few minutes we didn't say anything but then he shifted slightly closer to me his body warmth spreading across the bed that's when I felt it the tension something that hadn't been there before something I couldn't explain I tried to ignore it trying to focus on the dull hum of the city outside but Chris's presence was overwhelming there was no way to brush it off anymore something was definitely going on and I was starting to wonder if he

felt it too the next thing I knew my eyes fluttered closed and I was drifting off into a sleep that I didn't realize was about to change everything then I woke up in the middle of the night not from a noise or anything specific but from a feeling a sense that something wasn't quite right the room was dark save for the faint glow of street lights peeking through the blinds my body felt warm but not in a comfortable way there was a strange pressure on the bed beside me I turned my head blinking to adjust

to the dim light that's when I noticed it Chris was still there but he wasn't just lying beside me anymore no he was closer a lot closer I could feel his breath against the back of my neck warm and steady his arm was draped across my body his hand resting lightly on my chest and for a brief moment I froze my heart began to race in my chest as I tried to make sense of what was happening what was he doing I could have sworn I'd felt his body shift against mine while I was asleep

but I hadn't woken up at least not until now his breath was steady like he was still sleeping but that closeness it was impossible to ignore I carefully tried to move but Chris's arm tightened around me pulling me in closer for a second I wondered if this was a mistake maybe he didn't realize how close we were maybe he was just drunk and Confused but then I felt something else something hard pressing against my back a sudden wave of realization hit me and I couldn't suppress the breath that escaped my lips my heart hammered in

my chest there was no mistaking it he was aroused Panic surged through me but at the same time I felt a strange sense of calm wash over me I had no idea what to do was I supposed to say something should I move away or was I over thinking things maybe this was just an accident right maybe I was imagining things but then just as quickly as the Panic set in Chris shifted again his face nuzzling the back of my neck his lips brushed against my skin in a soft almost tender gesture I could feel

his breath on me his body now pressed so close to mine that it was impossible to ignore the undeniable chemistry building between us what the hell is going on I thought my mind mind racing Chris straight Chris was acting like this but how could this be happening was he just playing around was this some weird joke but then he whispered and his voice was so low so quiet that I almost didn't catch it are you awake I barely nodded trying to control the pounding of my heart his hand shifted on my chest fingers grazing lightly

over my skin and I couldn't help but tense up the way his touch lingered felt too intentional I don't know why I'm doing this Chris's voice was shaky now filled with an uncertainty I wasn't used to hearing from him he paused for a second as if considering his next words my mind was screaming at me to move to get out of this situation before it escalated further but something held me there a mix of confusion desire and uncertainty I wasn't sure if I was ready to hear whatever he was about to say but I was

already too far in Chris I said softly my voice trembling despite my best efforts to remain calm he didn't pull away didn't apologize just tightened his grip on me ever so slightly his lips brushed my neck again and this time I could feel the heat of his breath more intensely as if he were testing the waters unsure whether I would pull away I don't know what's happening but I need to know something Chris said his voice barely a whisper I could feel the tension in his words like he was fighting with something inside himself what

is it I asked even though I could feel my own breath getting caught in my throat the tension between us was electric now his hand slid down my chest dangerously close to where my body responded without thinking I could feel every inch of him against me and I didn't know whether to pull away or let it happen I don't know if I can stop myself he confessed his voice ragged I'm not supposed to feel this way I can't but I want to my entire body froze Chris was confessing something but what was he talking about

his feelings for me or was he just confused drunk and caught up in the moment before I could say anything Chris's lips were suddenly against mine soft unsure but undeniably there and that was it I couldn't push him away I didn't know how to his kiss was tentative at first as if he were waiting for me to stop him but I didn't I couldn't the warmth of his body the way his lips moved against mine it felt too real to be a mistake I could feel the confusion the turmoil the hesitation in his kiss but

also a sense of longing it was clear that he didn't know what he was doing didn't know what was happening between us but there was no denying it anymore he wanted this and I didn't know what to do but what I didn't realize was that this was only the beginning at the moment I could feel Chris's kiss deepening his hand now gently cupping the side of my face as if he were trying to pull me closer into him his body was pressed so tightly against mine that I could feel every breath he took every move

movement of his chest my mind was racing a whirlwind of confusion and desire but for some reason I couldn't stop myself from responding my hand moved instinctively finding its way to his chest feeling the heat of his skin beneath the fabric of his shirt his heart was pounding just as fast as mine and for a split second I wondered if he was just as lost in this moment as I was or was this all just a mistake but before I could ful process what was happening Chris broke the kiss pulling away slightly his forehead rested

against mine and I could hear the Ragged breaths escaping from his lips I'm sorry he whispered his voice trembling slightly I don't know what I'm doing I shouldn't be doing this his words only left me more confused was he sorry for kissing me or was he apologizing for something deeper I could see the conflict in his eyes the struggle to reconcile what had just happened with the image of himself as the straight guy he always thought he was Chris you don't have to apologize I said my voice barely above a whisper the words felt like

they just slipped out but I meant them I didn't want him to pull away from me I didn't want to pull away I wanted to know what this was what it could be but I didn't know how to make sense of it he shook his head his hand running through his hair clearly frustrated with himself but I do he said his voice quieter now almost as if he were trying to convince himself I've never felt this way before I never thought I would I didn't mean for this to happen but it's like I can't control

myself I can't stop he trailed off and I could see the guilt in his eyes but beneath it I saw something else something raw something honest he didn't know how to make sense of his own feelings and to be honest neither did I I reached out and placed a hand on his arm gently stopping his frantic movements Chris I said softly looking directly into his eyes you don't have to figure this out right now we don't have to do anything you're not comfortable with but I don't think you should apologize for what you're feeling his

gaze flickered between my eyes and my lips the tension palpable in the air between us but I don't know what this means he confessed his voice heavy with uncertainty I've always thought I was straight this it's not supposed to happen it doesn't make sense I smiled a little trying to ease his tension though my own heart was still racing maybe it doesn't have to make sense right now maybe it's just something that's happening and we can figure it out together no pressure he swallowed hard and for a moment I thought he might pull away again

but then he sighed and a soft laugh escaped his lips nervous but real you always know how to make me feel better don't you I chuckled softly the tension in the room easing just a bit I try for a few moments we sat there in silence just breathing trying to process what had just happened I couldn't deny that I was still confused was this a one-time thing was he just experimenting or was this something deeper that neither of us understood but as the silence stretched on I couldn't help but feel a strange sense of calm

as if for the first time in a long while things didn't have to be figured out all at once I think Chris began again his voice quieter now I just need to know that I'm not not going crazy I don't want to mess things up between us you know I've never been this close to another guy and I don't know what that means about me I get it I replied gently squeezing his hand but you're not crazy Chris it's okay whatever this is we can take it slow I'm here he nodded slowly his eyes closing

for a brief second as he let out a slow breath yeah okay he didn't say anything more but the way he looked at me still un certain but with something softer in his gaze told me that he was processing it all in his own way I wanted to reach out again to kiss him to explore whatever this feeling was between us but I could tell he needed time to sort through his emotions to understand what it all meant and as much as I wanted to move forward I also knew that I couldn't force him into

something he wasn't ready for instead I just lay there beside him letting the Stillness fill the space between us the night wasn't over and neither was this strange unexpected chapter in our lives whatever happened next I knew one thing for sure things would never be the same between us again and what happened next was something I could never have imagined the days after that night were a blur of confusion and tension though neither of us spoke about it directly I could feel the unspoken words hanging in the air between us yet we both avoided bringing

up what had happened it was as if we were pretending that everything was fine that things hadn't changed but in reality nothing felt the same Chris seemed distant not in a cold way but in a way that suggested he was still grappling with the complexity of what had unfolded between us his laughter felt forced and though he was still the same guy I'd lived with for the past few months there was something different about the way he looked at me it wasn't a bad thing just new I on the other hand couldn't stop thinking about

that kiss it was seared into my memory every detail clear in my mind the warmth of his lips the softness of his touch the tension in his body it had been Electric in a way I couldn't explain and though I tried to convince myself that it was just a moment of weakness for him part of me hoped it wasn't but then there was the question that kept creeping in what now every time I saw Chris I wondered if he was going to pull away avoid me or even worse act like nothing had happened and sometimes

I couldn't help but wonder if he was just trying to figure out what this all meant if he even wanted to try to figure it out a few nights later I found myself sitting in the living room flipping through channels but barely paying attention my mind kept drifting ing back to Chris to that kiss to the silence that had stretched between us ever since I wasn't sure what to do but I knew one thing I couldn't stand the distance any longer that's when I heard the familiar sound of his footsteps coming down the hallway soft

but purposeful he appeared in the doorway his face hesitant as if he was unsure of whether or not he should be standing there hey he said his voice quieter than usual got a minute I sat up straight suddenly aware of the space between us of course I replied my heart rate quickening was this it was he finally going to talk about everything he walked in slowly taking a seat on the couch next to me the space between us was small but it felt like an ocean for a moment neither of us spoke the silence almost

unbearable finally Chris cleared his throat I've been thinking about everything about what happened about you and me I swallowed trying to steady my own breath yeah he glanced over at me his eyes uncertain but searching I don't know how to explain it but I feel like I've been walking around in a fog since that night it's like I'm not sure who I am anymore I nodded trying to understand where he was coming from I get it I said my voice softer now this is confusing it's okay to be unsure we don't have to figure it

all out right away Chris ran a hand through his hair his fingers trembling slightly but what if I don't want to just forget about it what if I don't want to push this away what if I want to figure it out with you the words hit me like a punch to the chest and I couldn't help but look at him really look at him his face was open now vulnerable something I wasn't used to seeing in him I could see the honesty in his eyes the desire to make sense of something that didn't have a

clear answer my heart raced as I processed what he was saying he wasn't just apologizing he wasn't just avoiding me he was wanting to explore whatever this was whatever had been happening between us I I started but my voice caught in my throat I wasn't sure what to say what if this was just a phase for him what if he changed his mind later but I couldn't deny the pull I felt toward him Chris I said my voice barely above a whisper I've been thinking about this too a lot and I'm not going to pretend

that it's easy or that I have all the answers but I don't want to just ignore what's happening I don't want to pretend like it didn't matter Chris's eyes softened and he leaned in slightly his gaze is fixed on mine so you don't think I'm crazy I shook my head a small smile tugging at my lips not at all honestly I think we're both in Uncharted Territory here but I think I think it's worth exploring for the first time in days I saw a small flicker of relief in Chris's eyes he exhaled sharply like he

had been holding his breath you don't know how much I needed to hear that I didn't know what would happen next or where this would take us but I felt a surge of hope maybe we were both stepping into something unknown but for the first time in a while I wasn't afraid there was something about him about us that felt like it could turn into something real he shifted closer to me his hand resting lightly on the space between us there was a moment of hesitation as if he was waiting for my response my approval

I didn't need to say anything I just leaned in closing the distance between us and when our lips met again it was different this time there was no uncertainty no confusion just the promise of something new something we were both willing to explore together his lips moved from my neck back to mine and the kiss was so intense then it happened he turned me around and we did the thing in that that moment I lost myself completely surrendering to the pleasure and letting go of everything else giving in to the inevitable when we finally pulled

back the world seemed to stand still for a moment Chris's eyes were wide as if he was still processing everything that had just happened I could feel my own pulse racing and I had to bite my lip to keep my nerves in check that felt Chris started his voice low almost uncertain I didn't expect that I laughed though it was more out of nervousness than humor yeah me neither but there was something about the way he was looking at me now like he was seeing me in a new light it was like the walls that

had been up between us for so long had finally come down even if just a little I don't know what to do with this Chris admitted his voice quiet but honest I mean I've never felt this way before not about a guy at least I'm trying to make sense of it all I nodded slowly feeling the same sense of confusion and curiosity it's okay to not have it all figured out I don't know what this is either but I don't think that has to be a bad thing we can take it slow we don't need

to rush into anything he seemed to relax a little like he was hearing me understanding that we didn't need to put pressure on ourselves to Define what was happening between us right away and for the first time since that night I felt like we were both on the same page Chris ran a hand through his hair sighing as he leaned back against the couch I guess that's the thing right we don't have to have all the answers I just know that I want to see where this goes I want to figure this out with you

the sincerity in his voice made my heart flutter there was no uncertainty in what he was saying now he wasn't hesitant or scared he was just open and I realized that for the first time in a long while I was too I want that too I said my voice soft but steady I don't know what's going to happen next but I know I don't want to lose whatever this is between us Chris's lips curved into a small smile and he nodded yeah me neither so we just keep going right no pressure no rush I smiled

back feeling a wave of relief wash over me yeah we take it one step at a time the silence that followed felt different now not awkward or tense but comfortable it wasn't the kind of Silence that needed to be filled with words it was the kind that existed between two people who were starting to understand each other in a way that was new and exciting after a while Chris stood up and stretched a playful grin appearing on his face well since we're taking things slow I think I'm going to hit the sack it's been a

long day I laughed softly yeah me too I'm pretty tired but before he turned to leave the room he paused looking over at me with a slightly mischievous glint in his eyes good night by the way I raised an eyebrow wondering where this was going good night that's it Chris chuckled and leaned against the door frame I'm just making sure you're not going to overthink things while you're lying in bed I know that's your go-to move I rolled my eyes but couldn't help the smile that spread across my face you're right about that but you

don't have to worry I think I've got enough to keep me occupied tonight his smile softened and he nodded good sleep well with that he walked out of the room leaving me alone with my thoughts but for the first time in a while I wasn't over overthinking I wasn't lying in bed wondering what the future held all I could focus on was the fact that we'd taken that first step together and even though everything was still uncertain I had a feeling that it was going to be okay as I lay there staring up at the

ceiling I expected my mind to spiral like it always did replaying conversations dissecting every glance every word but tonight there was no frantic overthinking thinking no endless Loops of Doubt there was just the quiet hum of something new something real I turned onto my side my phone screen glowing faintly on the nightstand a message popped up from Chris still awake I smirked shaking my head I could picture him in his room lying in bed phone in hand probably fidgeting the way he did when he was nervous told you I wasn't overthinking I texted back a

few seconds passed before my phone buzzed again good just wanted to make sure I hesitated before replying you okay this time he took longer to respond the typing bubble appeared then disappeared then reappeared finally his message came through I don't know how to do this I stared at the words for a moment my fingers hovering over the keyboard neither do I after a brief pause another message followed but you're not freaking out I thought about that was I if this had happened even a few weeks ago maybe but now with the weight of our conversation

still lingering in the air with the way he'd looked at me before leaving my room no I'm not almost instantly he replied that makes one of us I exhaled slowly I could hear it in his words the uncertainty the fear of stepping into into something Uncharted I didn't blame him this was new for both of us but for Chris it was something he'd never even considered until now he was trying to figure it out in real time I don't expect you to have it all figured out tonight I typed we'll take it one step at

a time no pressure just be honest with me his response came quickly I can do that I smiled my chest tightening in a way that was both terrifying and exhil ating then just as I was about to set my phone down another message popped up can I come back my breath hitched I stared at the words for a second longer than necessary then sat up and turned toward the door a few moments later there was a soft knock I didn't say anything just got up and opened it Chris stood there looking like he wasn't sure

if this was a mistake or not his hair was a little messy and his hoodie hung Loosely on his frame he was gripping the Hem of it like his hands needed something to do hey he said quietly hey neither of us moved we just stood there staring breathing in the space between us finally Chris ran a hand through his hair and let out a breath I don't know why I came back I just I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts right now I nodded stepping aside come in he hesitated then walked past me

heading straight for my bed like it was second nature he sat down on the edge staring at his hands I closed the door and leaned against it watching him you ever have that feeling where something huge happens and it doesn't hit you until hours later he asked yeah I said sitting down next to him that's what's happening now Chris nodded exhaling slowly I don't even know what this means for me for us and that scares me I nudged his knee with mine that's okay we don't have to figure it out tonight but we both know

something changed and that's real even if we don't have the words for it yet Chris looked over at me then and for the first time I saw something settle in his expression like the chaos in his head had quieted even if just a little he nodded one step at a time I smiled one step at a time a beat of Silence then without thinking too much about it I reached for his hand not in a dramatic way just a touch a reminder he flinched just slightly but didn't pull away instead his fingers curled around mine

like he was testing the feeling of it and then he exhaled his shoulders finally relaxing we sat like that for a while not saying anything just breathing existing letting the weight of everything settle around around us and for the first time in a long time I wasn't afraid of what came next neither was he but it leaves me with a question what do you think of all this should I feel bad about what happened what would you do if this happened to you I'm curious to hear what you would have done and what you think

of my situation let me know in the comments below