[Music] [Applause] Li [Applause] [Music] [Applause] your [Music] oh what do we mean by death to the [Music] world the world is the general name for all the Passions when we wish to call them passions by a common name we call them the world but when we wish to distinguish them by their special names we call them passions the passions are the following desire for possessions bodily pleasure from which comes sexual passion love of Honor which gives rise to Envy lust for power arrogance and pride of position the craving to Adorn oneself with luxurious clothes and
vain ornaments the itch for human Glory which is the source of rancor and resentment physical fear where these passions cease to be active there the world is [Music] dead [Music] someone has said of the saints that while alive they were dead for though living in the flesh they did not live for the [Music] flesh see for which of these passions you are alive then you will know how far you are alive to the world and how far you are dead do [Music] [Music] it the last true Rebellion is death to the world to be crucified
to the world and the world to [Music] us with the seed of dissatisfaction deeply planted in the heart of today's society Rebellion has been a small key to unlock the doors of change but the Rebellion that the world has known is not a fullness of true Rebellion since since our times have come to a point where things can't get much worse the few remaining lovers of Truth must search deeper into themselves and deeper into truth itself but to get to this point a revolution must take place a revolution in the hearts of these lovers of
Truth a revolution that annihilates all Earthly and worldly thinking and that nurtures a way of thinking that is not of this world because that which is of the flesh is of the flesh and that which is of the spirit there is a grave necessity for this internal Revolution for only by this progress can be made for how can one help a world with festering wounds until one mends one's own wounds after this spiritual surgery has taken place true Rebellion is an ideal that is attainable [Music] hallu in this age of confusion and destruction the necessary
distinction between good versus evil has been deathly confused the result of this is a philosophy of nothingness that no ultimate truth exists nihilism there is neither love or hatred good or bad life or death the result of this is a soul destroying idea that even God does not exist the natural reaction to all of this is an internal rebellion of the soul for the soul cannot deny its own existence at this point an allout unseen Warfare is fully engaged in the case of the lover of Truth the Rebellion manifests itself externally in a rebellion against
this corrupt world this is good but there are too many people who just stop at this point without searching any further how can one expect to uncover the answers true Rebellion will stop at nothing in the fight for the good of the world for the good of others and for the good of itself in whatever way it manifests itself it is necessary to wage a revolution in the heart in order to conquer evil with good so as to have a rebellion in truth this is the kind of rebellion that must take place or else it
isn't a rebellion at all I don't know just more like ready for it because like we're not living in a stupid fantasy of fancy cars and everything just trying to pretend it's not there cuz it is there we face more reality I think than normal people mhm so maybe uh world will improve because it might I don't know how but because you you're I mean more sense of reality then right I mean I don't think it'll like blow up or something but I mean the way it it is it's just I mean the way the
inflation everything I mean there'll either be a depression or a war or [Music] [Applause] something there once was a counterculture with this sole purpose of rebelling against the world this counterculture was wise in the sense that its philosophy was based on recognizing the [Music] corruption in this lies half the truth it represents more truth than the world would ever dare to acknowledge but this counterculture must not stop at this it must seek unto death the ultimate in truth if it is to accomplish that which it first set out to do they care for and tend
to the world's wounds this counterculture of punk was something that a handful of truth Seekers could easily identify with but it is very clear that the world is coming to a close to be a true Punk is to have nothing to do with that element which kills hurts causes pain but to ceriz the wounds to be in the world not of the world in actuality the true ideals of punk have yet to be introduced as does the fullness of their Rebellion these ideals and this philosophy are the world's best kept secret a secret that has
been in The Souls of those few lovers of Truth ever since the beginning of time in the hearts and souls of the true punks the monks monks are those who who for thousands of years have rebelled against the corruption of This World by severing all chains that bind themselves to the world to live in caves in holes in the ground and to dwell in deserts to eat maybe once a day or even once a week to wear the same clothes until they completely fall apart and to rarely sleep because the cause is more important than
the pleasures of this world in these deprivations and sufferings they would realize one thing there is no real suffering at all than to not know God this is the last true Rebellion to forsake the world and to embrace God Alone [Music] beneath the brittle surface the vain self-interested clinging love the maddening longing which only obscures but lies below there is a silently flowing river a river of compassion owls of Mercy a feeling of other people's pain blowing into a v vast ocean of [Music] sadness although it is a sadness one enters it willingly with joy
for there is such a tenderness in its pain and at last in the sadness there is perfect Freedom This Is The Love That Never Dies a proof of immortality this is the pain that the crucified one embraced willingly sharing or pain this is the cross he asked us to bear this is the death he asked us to die and at last in this death there is perfect peace you have one unheard message first unheard message at the time of acute self-consciousness at the birth of [Music] adulthood when the soul is still innocent and open has
not been hardened and the world is a big apple with possibilities that are seemingly Limitless and relationships can seem to be so perfect and so easily perfect and the Soul has just been awakened to the intense sense of personhood selfhood and asks for the first time the question of who he is and why he's here the soul is wide open and it seeks to go beyond itself the person feels deeply and intensely having not yet learned to block and hide these feelings which later Pro too painful he longs to share this feeling this self-awareness this
intensity this pain others and to feel what others feel everything is poured out [Music] freely sometimes too freely and there's no attempt to guard one's inner World from being trampled on the child who has never been hit by a car that he is not told of the dangers will have no fear of walking into a busy street however when the person gets older as time passes the perfect soulmate relationships which began so intensely like a wondrous blossoming flower become because there was nothing higher to hold them together and the seemingly Limitless possibilities which present themselves
in youth become smaller one possibility closing itself off after another once one goes further on a certain path for each person can only take one path the time then occurs what has formerly been feared and rejected a layer forms on top of the raw person and it cannot be helped pure vulnerability is too painful attempt at an answer at the time of acute self-consciousness and the awareness of the Eternal question why the person must be able to direct that self-awareness and painful yearning to something higher than himself to God who became flesh and suffered as
we do it is not enough to pour this painful yearning out to another person that may help for a time but it is not enough for eternity the human soul seeks Perfection and there is nothing perfect except God other human beings even if they they seem perfect at first always turn out to be imperfect and that can be a great source of disillusionment a human being can be a vehicle to reach the end God and almost always such a human being is needed but that person cannot be seen as an end in himself in our
postmodern age when youth have been denied a knowledge of God the Perfection is usually at first sought in one or usually several human beings or in unworthy lesser Vehicles wealth Beauty Fame again one must turn one's painful feelings of self- knowledge and longing to go outside oneself God for only he has the infinite love to meet them we know God through this very pain remembrance of God is pain of heart endured in the spirit of devotion but he who forgets God becomes self-indulgent and insensitive no one achieved anything without pain of heart the inward pain
and intensity experienced in adolescence is not only good but it is even vital for the future development of the Soul it's drawing closer to God it is a moment of truth and that is why it is so important that these strong feelings that all or nothing I won't settle for second best feeling god-given youthful idealism be quickly channeled to him who is not second best but who is Ultimate if this would happen more youth of today would turn to monasticism which is the All or Nothing life not settling for second best but giving up everything
for a higher end the kingdom not of this world but there must be strength and Backbone in young people to keep alive the flame of their idealistic yearning when all kinds of worldly tears attempt to choke out the newly sprouted seeds if one Channels One's pain self-awareness Etc upwards there is possibility for Endless growth in the spirit however if one keeps it flowing on a horizontal level it will lead to stagnation despair or selling out even if one can keep going always trying to be intense real if there's nothing else than that he will just
keep going around and around and around and around and around and around in circles not getting anywhere life cannot be imbued with meaning simply by attempting to live it [Music] [Applause] intensely the answer the truth is God who is nailed to the cross to whom may the Youth of today day churn in their pain apart so that they will grow not just into a boring worldly adult but into a saint growing into the likeness of God and will continue growing not just into middle or old age but throughout eternity in the words of Monk seraphim
Rose a misfit in the modern world who went through years of living hell before finding the way out Christ is the only exit from this world all other exits sexual Rapture political Utopia economic independence are but blind alleys in which rought the corpses of the many who have tried them end of message to delete this message press seven to save it in the archives press n to hear more options message will be saved for 30 days [Music] foree [Music] do you know the Central Square in bissi during the demonstration the government speakers and the speakers
rostom stood there behind them on the building of the executive committee of the Communist party there always hung portraits of the party leaders in full figure two floors in height at the peak of the demonstration when the entire Square was packed with people and while a member of the government was delivering a speech suddenly the gigantic portrait of Stalin burst into flames father Gabriel had gained entrance into the Upper Floor of the executive committee building opened the window and poured kerosene on the back of the portraits uh is this maybe this is a is this
a legend some things of course have been enshrouded by Legend but he burned the portraits Lenin's portrait burned immediately horror came over the square they all froze from fear and everything became still while the pictures of the leaders were in Flames from the second floor window father Gabriel gave a sermon the Lord said Thou shalt not make unto thee Idols or any graven images Thou shalt not bow down thyself to them nor serve them for I am the Lord your God Thou shalt have no other gods Exodus 20: 3:5 the Georgians have always been Christians
so why are you bowing down before I Idols Jesus Christ died and on the third day rose again but your cast Idols will never be resurrected even during their life they were dead evidently he also said another phrase and perhaps more they brought him down they brought in some fire engines and raised ladders but when they brought him down the crowd fell upon him they kicked him hit him with rif butts flailed him with fire hoses they screamed let me finish off that louse how could they uh you know like how did they let him
like why wasn't he shot the reason they didn't shoot him is that They Carried him off almost like a corpse his face couldn't be made out he was his skull was fractured and there were 17 fractured bones in his body he lay almost unconscious for a month but he was treated carefully so that investigations could be conducted it seemed that they were going to arrange a short trial but they couldn't even get The Condemned men onto his Treacher he didn't respond to the treatment at all the entire time he was at death door but he
didn't die this is what I was told I had only just been born at the time beyond that I don't know anything with certitude Father Gabriel won't speak with anyone about it either it dragged on until the crush of amnesties or they tried for a long time to uncover a conspiracy to get out of him the names of the conspirators then either he was certified as psychologically not responsible for his actions or they helped him or it became too unpleasant to the authorities when within several years they released him he was suspended from Priestly Ministry
not only in the church but for 10 years time they wouldn't hire him anywhere it is fortunate for him that there was a house that he had a mother the old woman who opened the gate for [Music] you I'm though both of them lived on his pension since he was a certified lunatic he was allotted by the state 17 rues a month everywhere people knew and were afraid of [Music] [Music] him at first he wandered Among The Villages and was hired to guard The Vineyards or to tend the fire in churches then his mother became
paralized from all the trauma and he could no longer go anywhere for several years he could be found sitting at the Portico of some church with an outstretched hand [Music] [Music] spee [Music] me for [Music] when you are granted the ultimate privilege of hanging on a cross and the tears of Joyful liberating pain flood your eyes and you taste the sweetness and the perfect freedom of dying to this life then you no longer feel anger or rage and you know what it means to forgive everyone and everything you see how he when nailed to the
cross could have forgiven everyone who has ever lived and ever will live in a sense nothing has changed with you all the good in you remains all the evil in you remains all the passions remain and the struggle goes on but now you know you know know that there is nothing more Sublime beautiful and profound than the cross now you know what it means that he spilled his blood for you in agony of pain which even he was afraid and sorrowful to endure and when he asks you to drink his blood and eat his flesh
you are ready to shed your blood too to take up your cross and follow him to share in what he is in his ultimate liberating love a love that is pain but a pain that is a peace and a peace that surpasses all understanding and you see other human beings around you and you still see their weaknesses but now you feel such compassion and forgiveness for their failings as if they were like small children and you yourself feel like a child and so you go on still as the same person you fall and get up
again but now all the transient things in life are seen as secondary and you know that they are not everything that your soul truly desires for [Music] eternity and above them stands that Transcendent love the ultimate Act of love that the Universe had never known before and will never know [Music] again God became flesh mocked spat upon tortured and crucified by the creatures who he himself formed from the dust and he suffered it all for their sake