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I'll be 18 when you see this video I'm 15 right now I'm going to continue to put work in every single day and I know I'll be there someday 2018 the most enjoyable year of my life I was a 12-year-old kid who had just gotten his first girlfriend and I thought she was going to be the love of my life I would go to school every single day I'd play basketball every day after school and then I'd game every single night it was Heaven on Earth for fast forward around 8 months into 2018 my love

of my life broke up with me and ever since that event everything went to excuse my language [ __ ] I graduated primary school with my friends I had an amazing nights I won the sports award at school which was like the most prestigious award you could ever get I enjoyed my summer holidays like the the last summer holidays of my life I played basketball every single day because I had dreams of making the NBA point and I told myself because I had so much confidence that if I didn't make the NBA there would be

no point in even living but I was so sure of myself that I was going to make it that it was actually a thought there's no point in even living if I come second then our school hits here we [ __ ] go I walk into school the first day and this s kid who is like what what do what do you call him you know the road men in the UK it's like one of them and at this point he's very very scary to me I'm a really small kid I've just entered a new

environment my primary school was really small so no one was really going to do anything but now there was kids 5 years older than me at this school I get caught a [ __ ] by this guy first day because my socks are extremely high that was the start of a hectic High School experience I'm not going to mention this too much cuz most of you already know this but I was rejected by a girl on my third or fourth day of school we tried to start a conversation I just couldn't my face blow up

red and those two events brainwashed me into into believing that I could not relate to anybody I had no ability at getting girls there was no point so what does a 13-year-old do who doesn't fit in with the people around him he goes to something that allows him to escape video games and I later discovered what was the downfall of me porn I started watching this one or two times a week and especially because I couldn't get girls cuz I was so nervous it was Heaven and the more I watched it the more I wanted

to watch it so it grew into something I used to do at least three or four times a day I think it's around 2 or 3 weeks after year7 high school starts I find out that the most attractive at in at this time in my life the most attractive girl actually has a crush on there apparently she tells one of her friends who tell was one of my friendss cuz they were like really close and I thought my life was complete I've got the most attractive girl that's all I need but I told myself at

that point that I didn't want to get a girlfriend because I wanted to focus on basketball because basketball was more important and I didn't want any distractions yeah at that point though if I look back at it it was also I would use that as an excuse because I didn't want to get heartbroken again we talk every single afternoon gave me Comfort and when I played a bad game of basketball I would get very very upset with myself for the next couple of days I'll just be depressed right cuz I just thought I was a

failure but this girl was kind of a therapist for me I'd talk to her about my games you know I played bad she'd say to me that it's okay cuz she knew my dreams about playing in the NBA and I'm very glad that that happened because I don't know where I would be if it wasn't for that experience in my life later throughout that year of year seven I started to realize that practicing for half an hour per day was not going to be enough an hour a day just light work was not going to

be enough I had a little bit of talent but I needed to work as hard as I possibly could so I started training 90 minutes per day not just playing with my friends anymore I never played with my friends I would just set up cuz I was too courts I would set up on the other court with my cones I'd get there before anyone else got there and I would just train for 90 minutes and you can imagine how my friends thought of me when I did that really weird trying to be better than us

at least that's how I looked at it anyway now this continues for maybe about a year and on the most exciting day of my life good evening Melbourne's fight for Co normal has gone from bad to worse now Melbourne in Australia is back in lockdown because of a spike in Co residents and business owners in and alarmingly the chief psychist has highlighted the spike in children and I'm like [ __ ] yeah gaming basketball all day nothing else I have to worry about seeing girls at school I don't have to worry about my face going

reading class I can turn my camera off on the zoom meeting for the first two or 3 months of lockdown I loved it I started getting in the gym I started working out I started you know really practicing the video game I was playing and at that point in my life if you were good at this video game hey guys today I'll be showing you the best s build NBA 2K 20 um people would perceive you as powerful I was working on my body I was like one of the only ones showing up to class

so when I did get back to school I was ahead of people because everyone else was actually just being lazy but I'd either be grinding on my game or grinding in my life why couldn't this just last forever but then tryy outs come around for basketball the team that would help me make the NBA definitely help me get there get exposure to Scouts probably all across the world if I made this specific team I go there first day I actually do pretty well there's four groups or there's there's five groups sorry first group is the

is the best group okay this is the best group this is the team if I did not make this team I was not going to play for him then you have like the second third fourth and fifth team I got put in the fourth team off the bat cuz I didn't know I was I was new and new people are kind of rare right new good people are very very rare I stay in the fourth group and day one I'm already better than all of them so I move up to number three I move up

one spot okay and I'm feeling extremely proud of myself I genuinely believe if I just move up one group per day I'm going to make this first team and everything's going to go well I'm going to hopefully make the NBA one day but second try out I don't move I stay in the group three but I'm still kind of proud of myself I played very very well third day cuz there there's four days Third Day the coach calls me over with with with this other one dude who was doing extremely well he's new as well

right and he says to this other coach do you want these two cuz you know he's been eye and us he says yeah yeah but only this guy and it wasn't me I was 5'5 this other guy I was like 6f at the age of 15 or 14 it would have been at the time and that broke my heart and it killed my confidence and if I look back at it today I wish that never happened because I was actually good I was actually good bro but because of that it killed my confidence and I

stayed in group three I genuinely believe I was better than this other dude who ended up making the first team he ended up making it I genuinely believe I was better than him and if I just had some confidence I could have made it that happens in long story short I would say I was pretty I I don't I like to use this term very very lightly but depressed for a for a week or two I had no purpose I lost all my confidence I'm like I'm not making the NBA I'm too short I'm too

unathletic I can't do this I can't do it then I was sitting in class humanities class like history class and somehow I think of the idea to start a fitness YouTube channel I've been getting in the gym I've been loving the gym that's the second most enjoying thing after video games and basketball I've been loving it recently I've been making quite a lot of progress and I'm like holy [ __ ] let's do it my whole life has lit up I've been granted this sense of purpose again I told my parents about it they don't

necessarily agree they say Jack you're going to get judged on social media why you going to put yourself out there like that you can't make money until you hit 1,000 subscribers it's going to be so hard you know I'm only 15y old I don't know how you know to start a YouTube channel I don't know how to do anything right but I'm like Mom let's just try it let's just do it I had that belief I had that confidence again so I posted my first video and I wasn't planning to post my YouTube video link

on my Instagram story I wasn't planning to do it because I didn't really want my friends and the people at my school especially the girls at my school seeing my YouTube channel before I'd actually gotten some subscribers but I'm just like let's just do it let's just [ __ ] do it and see I either if I post this on my story it's game it's it's game you have to be successful with this there's no giving up now you can't give up on two dreams you've told others about twice well here we go the girl

that I was attracted to who I wanted to date at year9 year9 came around she wasn't my type anymore I didn't really find her attractive anymore she got into the wrong type of friend group or I don't know I don't really know I didn't really pay attention but I just lost attraction for her so it was me versus myself every single day this is my time this is my this is my year and I hope 2022 23 24 and 25 do me good I had no other sense of purpose except my YouTube channel this one

right here I post for the first few months and everything seems to go okay but there's a lot of rumors spreading about me you can just see people look at me differently I Lose Friends people start calling me uh Jack pigot instead of pigot or Jack and you can just tell they're you know they're becoming Spectators and not friends anymore this just only fed into the of myself that was ready to give up I didn't really want to do this I wasn't making any money people my age were getting jobs they were making 500 to

$11,000 per month at the age of 15 I was making nothing but working harder working weekends I didn't really have a childhood when I was 15 I didn't really have a Teenage life when I was 15 and then around 3 months after this around halfway through 2021 I'm seeing in class and that my classmates are talking about having a party tonight it's a fr Friday afternoon and I want to get invited even though I don't really want to go but I want to get invited still so I can still feel part of the group I

don't get invited but around 700 p.m. I go and take my dog for a walk just just around the block it's still daylight but still getting it's getting dark and I see the party which is happening when I walk past the house around the block I see it happening I see people you know drinking at the age of 15 people are yelling there's loud music and I'm like that is the party that they were talking about so I see that house and I just stop and I just walk the other way I walk home but

because I just want to see it again and just see and kind of feel like I'm there but I'm not I go back I put my hood on and I just stand there and just stare not really stare but just spend some time looking at the party I think I a quick workout as well you know there's like a park across the road and I can hear the music still going and this just Amplified my lonliness even more and made me feel you know very very left out you know following this event I try and

make the most out of school every single day and most of the days I do right it wasn't like school was an extremely bad environment to be in you know but it wasn't really the place for me I didn't really find much purpose there except hanging out with some of my really really close friends right who had stuck by me but then last year around this time cuz that continues for maybe two two years yeah the same type of stuff I'm posting content I'm not really seeing any success I get monetized I make like five

bucks a day it's something crazy even though my friends are making like you know $1,000 a month so I still feel behind this time last year around this time the only man man who wanted me to do better than him my dad passes away and it could it couldn't come at a worst time i' had seen my dad around 3 weeks before him passing he drops me off at home where I am right now because he was he lived around 3 hours away for work purposes and I only got to see him once every school

holiday so it was four times per year little did I know last time I'd see my dad was the last time I'd ever see him and it hit me bro I didn't believe it for the first like 2 or 3 days I did not believe it at all I know I've yapped about this the whole video but I didn't want to socialize after that happened all I wanted to do was work and work and work and work because it was a way for me to escape the way I was feeling it was the only way

I could feel proud of myself I know well I felt like my dad would be let down by me if I went out and had fun that was my idea and I've definitely changed but after I'd say the the following two 3 months of this event that's what happened I don't know if this was the reason but October last year I finally saw some success on YouTube finally I was getting 100 Subs a day then it went to 500 then it went to 1,000 and I went to 5,000 and I had gained 300,000 subscribers in

19 days I went from 10,000 subscribers to 310,000 subscribers in 3 months January came along 2024 and I'm going to be open and transparent with you cuz this is a very very transparent video I was making hundreds of dollars per day it was a massive jump and I couldn't believe it I had one or two shorts go extremely viral and because my viewers I think genuinely liked my content they started watching more and my videos watch them more and more and more so those videos started getting pushed out and it was just a Snowball Effect

and that's why I blew up so much and I'm only saying that to prove the point that the work you're putting in right now the videos I had made for years every single day if I hadn't made those videos I wouldn't have blown up the work you're putting in right now especially as a young person is going to pay off it finally felt like it was coming together finally I know it's you know kind of an ego thing but I was finally making more than my classmates who would not all of them but some of

them would talk [ __ ] at behind my back they'd probably say things like I'm not going to be successful I'm never going to be big and I'm just like finally I can just not not brag about it to any anyone else but just think to myself and just relax in the idea that I'm actually doing well for my age cuz I never thought I was I had followers but for no reason I was expiring inspiring people but no one cared about that at my school they only cared if I was making money for from

it so I was extremely happy that that happened and it was a away you know this success that I saw and I'm only saying this to motivate you my friend that's all I'm doing it that's all I'm saying it for cuz I don't like Bast or bragging it was kind of a way that would it was it was a way I could Escape my dad's my dad's death it was cuz it hit me hard extremely hard especially two or 3 months later and 2024 one of the best years of my life honestly it's been one

of the most stressful years of my life because schools picked up this is the last year of my schooling I have socialized a lot more but I've also felt the most lonely in my life and I've been on about loneliness this whole video but it's been the most prevalent thing in my life man and I know a lot of young people experience this and that's why like that's the basis of this video you know you know parties are really big now 18th birthday parties but not it's not nothing against the people I just don't like

the environment I just don't really like partying maybe I will like partying when I think I've made it in life which will probably be never yeah cuz I'm always driving for more which is a good thing but it's also a can be a negative as well curse with ambition now I love my dad but he always used I would never say this in probably a a regular video that I make but because this is longer the only the true ones are here um now my dad never really used to use alcohol for the right reason

you know he was an addict to it and this is all pure love and respect to my dad I don't care what I didn't care what he did he was still my dad and he still had you know pure intention for me and I still had pure intention for him and I think I had a lot of trauma surrounding that so that's one of the reasons why I am not a regular teenager at least I look myself in the mirror with pride now knowing that my hard work is paid off my circle is a lot

smaller than it once was but as I say you'd rather have one Diamond than 10 pieces of gold eh you rather have one Diamond than 10 pieces of runs hopefully my story inspired you that was everything of course there's some things I left out cuz I want to save some stories for other videos but yeah that's the foundation of it all much love my brother and I'll catch you in the next one peace