Why I decided to stop having sex.

in a world that places such an emphasis on sex and finding a partner what happens when you stop trying well that's what I'm going to tell you for a period of 5 years of my life from the ages of 17 to 22 I completely stopped trying no sex no dating I think the place to begin is the fact that it is well documented that young people are having less sex than before which is it's a subject that I find fascinating you know it's a reflection of our changing world and are changing Dynamics between the Sexes

and yes in this video I'm mainly going to be talking about heterosexual Dynamics between men and women what I have noticed is that everyone seems to want to say what you should or shouldn't do when it comes to sex some people see it as impure other people see it as sacred we use very strong nasty words to shame each other for doing it too much for not doing it enough and so I'm doing this precisely because it is so difficult to talk about and because I don't think it should be I think this should be

a normal thing to explore and this is one of the most important decisions of my life I am not who I am today if not for this this isn't because I don't like sex because I see sex as sinful or because I have a low sex drive this is a very intentional decision and all the more intentional because of my upbringing I grew up in a house where my parents were really open about this you know they didn't impose any restrictions other than to be you know responsible with safe sex to do this I'm going

to break this up into three parts why doing this kind of thing is so uncommon why I chose to do this and what it taught [Music] me over the last few years of my time on the internet I've noticed a sort of morbid interest in a meme a concept inel which stands for involuntary celibate it's referencing a person usually a man that maybe wants to have sex but is unable to find another partner that is willing I think this is a big fear for a lot of people perhaps there is such a morbid Fascination around

this because it is such a hot topic this is a fear for a lot of people and sex can really mean validation as in you are enough the default assumption seems to be that if you are not having sex it's because you can't get it or you're not trying hard enough but what if not having sex was a conscious decision not a permanent one you know not a renunciation of sex for your entire life but for a period of time a period of time dedicated to other aspects of your life one of the reasons why

I think this is so uncommon is because there's something so blinding about the Allure of sex or companionship which is what makes it so tricky and I think that this will always be the case with things that provide intense pleasure and again validation and on top of it nowadays we inundate ourselves with imagery sexual imagery the things that you see on social media on the internet are so often so suggestive that in some ways we're desensitized to it all you have to do is Hop on Instagram right and you can see essentially an unlimited amount

of beautiful limit there is no limit and of course I'm saying that as a guy but you can go on and see just about anything people with the perfect bodies and that's not even to speak about the impact of filters which makes everybody look more beautiful you can fill your mind with this distraction 24 hours a day I do have friends that have Discovery Pages or for you pages that are just wall-to-wall gorgeous women and there is something unnatural and unsettling about witnessing that all the time if you're single and not religious you're not technically

doing anything wrong but does that make it okay does that make it right my theory around why we do this is because it's so incredibly easy to mix up a want with a need this really began to occur to me when I first witnessed or experienced I should say for myself how short-lived the the pleasure of having sex really is it's so easy to want it so badly that you think you need it but you really don't I have to mention the role of societal pressures on this topic as well as all of the media

and stories that we consume about love and sex it's easy to arrive at the conclusion that that is where happiness comes from you find somebody that completes you and end of story well guess what I don't think it works that way I do not operate with the idea that if I just find the right person I'll finally be happy and this is probably more than a little corny for me to say but when it comes to happiness I am not going to wait around forever for the bus to arrive I'm just going to start walking

before I go any further I just have to say that I don't think I'd be able to speak openly about any of this stuff if not for years of therapy it's difficult saying yeah for a good chunk of my adulthood I purposely didn't do the thing that makes people feel desirable and also seem desirable therapy in many ways has been what has helped me have the confidence to make these decisions and be solid about these decisions and also to have the courage to question the assumptions that exist on how we should be living Our Lives

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so clear to me because I too care about finding a partner and having a family like a lot of people for some reason it was clear to me that pursuing women was a very high cost activity in terms terms of energy time and resources I know it's kind of weird to talk about it in that way uh we have all these ideas around love being this just natural spontaneous thing right but sometimes finding love also takes a lot of effort right you have to put yourself out there resources spent on that are resources I'm not

spending on figuring out who I am and I hate to paint it in such a black and white way because you do learn a ton about yourself I have learned a ton about myself through relationships that I've had with other people but there was a period of time where I had a burning desire to figure out who I was to get clarity on what I want to do in life and therefore it just didn't feel like the best way to spend my time to go to lots of social events or to spend hours a day

swiping on apps to eventually hopefully find somebody that I can click with and again maybe there is a difference here between being a man and a woman in a heterosexual context in this particular regard because I see a lot of guys investing so much time and energy and resources into this and I just wasn't willing to do that for a section of my life for most of my life there has just been this looming urgency to figure out and find as much meaning as possible in my life what am I doing here what is the

impact I want to have what am I exploring and this began so early in life I mean at the age of 4 years old I was asking my grandparents what happens when you die at 13 I was panicking about how quickly time was passing this has been a very very present theme in my life for as long as I can remember I've had this passion this curiosity about telling stories about making things and sharing them and connecting with people and as I entered early adulthood it was finally my chance to figure some of this out

when I looked at things through that lens going and getting drinks with somebody I had very little in common with just felt so unimportant now of course I do not believe the idea that you should have yourself fully figured out before you find a partner that'll never be the case your house will never be fully in order I'm forever work in progress I'm still learning about myself and hopefully will be for the rest of my life but what I'm trying to point to here is that certain kinds of self- knowledge and self- understanding can only

be developed in solitude when you have that time and space to explore these things I just think it's really important to step away from distractions and look inwards I have a view that our lives are actually composed of many little lifetimes right and one of my lifetimes was this period of several years dedicated to intense work and experimentation and as I've grown into place of having clarity about these things about who I am and what I want to do it has felt as though that lifetime has naturally come to a close and a new one

has begun if you've been following my work for the last few years this is actually something that you've seen happen in real time as over the last few years I've felt this genuine opening up and curiosity and bandwidth to create Community to develop deeper connections to explore dating so this period obviously gave me Clarity on a few really big things the first is that I am totally okay with being on my own I don't need somebody I not only don't need to be in a relationship to be happy but I can live a really full

vibrant life doing my own thing there are a lot of things in life that provide a deeper sense of joy and meaning than superficial dates or hookups and on the point about being okay being on your own I think we'd all like to believe that but some sometimes you just have to experience that for yourself to really believe it to really know it just saying to yourself that you're okay on your own might not be enough another huge thing that came out of this time of my life is that I got major Clarity on my

voice as an artist as a Creator I had so much time to experiment and try different things out and even now thinking back on it I smile because I'm like wow what a time during the entire time that I lived in Mexico City I did didn't go on a single date and that period was marked by just an explosion of experiments artistically and creatively I feel like I grew so much in that time period it was really so fun and so fulfilling to be constantly pushing my boundaries to be just fully absorbed in what I

was doing and it's not something that I feel I'll ever be able to do to that extent again especially if I have a family one day I have to be honest and say that I am proud that I have been able to be prolific and create a large body of work at an early age and I think that's contributed a lot to my self-confidence and self-belief I also got Clarity on what I'm looking for you know it was a slow realization but I am looking for something very specific and unlike a lot of men who

seem to really enjoy the chase a woman being really beautiful that alone is just not enough for me I don't enjoy just pursuing women there are certain things I'm looking for like a level of introspection a willingness to do personal work emotional work and I think it was easier for me to get clarity on this by stepping entirely out of the whole dating world and to observe it from the outside and reflect on what I really care about in retrospect I really feel like I wasn't missing out on that much yes there are some couples

in my life that feel like they have something really special a really deep connection but they are in the minority when I did reenter the world of dating and had experiences with some of the shallowness that can be a part of of that it confirmed to me my belief that that is really not what I'm looking for look all of this comes back down to the simple idea that I just want to show up as intentionally as I can in my own life just because there's this General expectation you know that most people do things

in this certain way doesn't mean you have to human beings do all kinds of stuff that doesn't make sense I'm making this because I genuinely feel that this is an incredibly powerful way an experiment if you will to find some clarity in your own life if you feel like you're lacking that I believe that when you have a solid relationship with yourself it is so much easier to love others and as a final point a message I'd like to leave here it's easy to do things for the wrong reasons it's easy to do things that

feel good especially in the short term but is that the right decision sometimes life asks us to take a different path to be different to not follow the crowd and I'm learning that that's okay that sometimes that's the best thing you can do life is in many ways a journey of learning to be okay not having everyone's approval this was a step for me in that direction and I'm glad I took it