your new life is gonna cost you your old one

I feel like often times in life we repeat the same Cycles over and over again in the hopes that you know we get our desired outcome your new life is going to cost you your old one and in saying that I mean like you know you can't be too attached to uh your previous circumstance if you want to transcend that if you want to grow from that you know you can't constantly be referencing a point where you're low in attempts to get high you feel me like the more we are trapped in that perspective of

our past or perspective of ourselves we're in the same stagnant place we have no choice but to stay stagnant growth I feel like in part comes from you know visualization of where you want to be it's about knowing where you want to go that is like half of the way get in there you know it's you it's cool to sometimes run in a random Direction but in an attempt to actually grow as people and to get what we want you have to have some sort of Desire vision and you have to get rid of your

old perspective of yourself and your circumstance I feel like it's too easy to get caught up in you know what you in reality possess you know everybody has things they desire but I feel like most people get it from feeling like they already had it in a way you know um it's kind of like fake it till you make it but like in a real sense you know you sometimes you have to leave behind a previous identity I feel like we get so trapped in who we used to be and how we function within maybe

a SE Society or group to the point where we are too scared to act outside of you know the character we've been prescribed or prescribed to oursel I feel like character is somewhat a you know it's it should be a solid thing but the way at which we express ourselves I feel like it's it's subject to a lot of change and the more people allow themselves to change with their own you know feeling and change and shifts and perspective the closer they get to themselves and the closer they get to what they actually truly want

um you know we live in a pretty immersed Society a lot of us communicate with a lot of people on a daily basis not Maybe not maybe you see it maybe you interact with a lot of people you see a lot of people on social media and whatnot and that kind of comparison and stagnation I feel like forces us to limit ourselves in a way or limit our understanding of what we're actually capable of like you know you see you see people doing pretty amazing things on the internet I see people doing amazing things all

the time and it inspires me I love seeing it I love seeing like little underground artists uh postate their little snippers or like actual like painters and stuff post their their art I like seeing the progression love love seeing the development like uh for example for example for example for example there's this dude who watches my videos um I remember looking at his channel when he first subscribed I subscribed to him too and he had like he had like 200 and now he got like 30k and I love the style of his video I love

what he got going on honestly and if if he watching this he know he but regardless I feel like most of it is about you know that constant progression to a worthy ideal that constant movement towards where we want to be in life rather than focusing on you know exactly how things are now cuz you know in thinking so much about what you're trying to escape from you're sort of like reinforcing it you're sort of telling the world or telling yourself in a way that this is this is my reality this is how it is

instead of saying this is how I want it to be and this is what I need needed to be this is how I'm going to get there that type of mindset that type of being stuck in a certain place stuck with certain emotions um cuz I was reading a book called uh becoming Supernatural right and it was talking about how we get caught up in these like emotional Cycles we get caught up in we are addicted to some of the chemicals and emotions that are brought about by certain events in the same way like when

you experience something you feel it for the first time right that's when you I feel like that's when you're suffering you know he suffers more than necessary who suffers before necessary and he suffers and mind suffers much more than the reality cuz you know once you experiencing something once you know that's when you truly suffer that's when I feel like it it's vital then I feel like it gets revitalized within our mind over and over again and compounds upon the emotion that was once felt at the time of the event or circumstance and we feel

that event over and over again cuz our brain can't really distinguish between you know what's real and fake as it pertains to our mind sometimes like some people will think you know have breakdowns and nothing will be happening at that moment around them it's about somewhat separating yourself from previous circumstance you know remember the lesson forget the teach it you know you we have to move forward you know you only have so much time on this Earth You know I constantly been thinking about time recently you know um I'm I'm touching I'm about to touch

20 but that's that's that's nothing bro cuz I feel like the whole concept of Thomas kind of kind of messes with us you know and thinking that oh I'm 20 or when I'm 40 this when I'm 50 that you know we get stuck in that constant cycle you know year to year I feel like you know it's not the it's not a grand instantiation to change it's always always gradual we always have more time we always have more time to develop you know and thinking that you're just so old I feel like it puts us

in a in a box almost we feel like we're not able to express ourselves in certain ways or or do certain things and to some extent that's true you know you have to be more mature you have a couple more responsibilities but in terms of our our progression and actually what we desire I feel like we should never you know settle too much there's always more time there's always more time to figure out who you are always more time to experience always more time to to shed your previous self or previous mindset as it pertains

to who you are and how the world functions and get to that point where you want to get you know I'm saying that your new life is going to cost you your old and I mean that you have to somewhat Let Yourself Go you know stop holding on to your identity so much I feel like we hold ourselves in a cup so often you know like Bruce Le saying you got to be fluid like water and I feel like Society is a cup that just you know controls this you know outside the cup we are

infinite inside the cup we have definition and I feel like people crave that that sort of foundation for themselves they don't appreciate who they are while they're changing you know they want the the end result or they like the beginning and I feel like the most beautiful part of of you know existing of being alive of just experiencing is that constant change that oh yesterday I felt like this but today I feel like this I'm getting better or my this art I was making before was this way but now it's getting better it's you know

a relation to yourself realizing the change but not being attached to who you were prior to the change or after it's about realizing that the journey is almost never over you know he who thinks the journey is over is the one that's truly lost in experiencing who we are we ought to gain so much you know I feel like we don't really know ourselves to the extent that we should you know most people don't I feel like most people know their favorite color but do they really know their favorite color like I like the color

black but do I like it cuz it's just easy or do I like it cuz it's actually my favorite color you know but that's just like a very small instantiation of you know what I'm trying to get at you know like what music do you like what music do you really like what type of fashion do you actually want to wear how do you want to actually express yourself you know what would You' be doing if if you knew there was no like confines in the societal structure I feel like that's what the aim is

that's kind of what I'm trying to get to um just being so authentically myself that I I cease to care like I cease to care about you know the the external you know in a sense that like no no matter what I do I'm I'm going to be comfortable in my expression you know stop telling myself that or stop telling ourselves you know making ourselves feel bad for the way that at which we express our of course there's certain ways you know moral morality and and overall maybe uh social awareness that makes sense I I

can get behind that but in terms of the things that don't have to do with that you know just our day-to-day just how we listen to music like how we act when we're by ourselves or maybe when we think nobody's watching it's about being comfortable with your change comfortable not being your old self comfortable not having a solid foundation for who you are but like the the the foundation in a sense is trust is Faith in who you are it's faith in your character like I try to not limit myself in terms of my expression

or anything like that but I have faith in my own my my spirit my morals my mindset all of that to keep it solid no matter what occurs in life I'm I don't think that I'm going to deviate from my path I don't think that too much is going to happen I don't think I'm going to do anything negative I just kind of let myself go and I feel so much better like I feel more at peace I feel more powerful like I feel like what I do has a lot more meaning to me you

know and in trying to inspire meaning in other people you know you can only get some much and only showing appreciation and love to other people I feel like you can only get so much but once you start showing it to yourself it's almost like you just want to give it to other people just cuz and it doesn't you know it's kind of a non-reciprocal it's non-conditional it feels like you just want to you know have so much for yourself that you just want to spread it like most days I feel like I have so

much energy sometimes I hang out with people just cuz I'm like you know I'm so positive I think I can make this person more positive just by being around them even if they're already positive people I'm not saying I make people just happy just because I'm around them I'm saying I'm so happy I just want to be in someone's presence and experience that happiness with them and I got all of that from sort of Letting Go just letting go of who I was or who I thought I was letting go of you know a certain

connotation maybe I placed on myself and and focusing on the way I connotate certain things you have to be mindful of how you attach meaning and attach value and definition to the things that you experience you know overall you made it this far we 800 man what 800 I appreciate all of yall much much love on the road to anyways um but yeah if you watch this far thank you so much appreciate the the subscribers and support U we have a lot more coming out I got aast coming out on what's today on Tuesday I

think with my twin brother um it's going to be pretty good like I think it's going to be very enlightening and uh yeah