the obsession of being alone

truth is I now don't travel back at all not even for the day I just try to live every day as if I've deliberately come back to this one day to enjoy it as if it was the full final day of my extraordinary ordinary [Music] life I am told I [Music] you know I've been thinking about this recently spending a lot more time alone it's never really in between you know you can be comfortable at times and you know I think it's the best feeling when you're at peace with whatever space you're in but being

alone can also feel muted you know it just doesn't feel as colorful as before and you know it just starts to feel like something's always missing and we have to search for a way to fix it and you know of course we don't have to do that but the one thing that I learned recently is no matter how many times things could get better for you the world can just throw so many things at us and make us feel like we all need it in order to feel complete and there's never an ending to how

many directions we could take our lives to you know there's always just going to be something [Music] missing you know I caught myself constantly trying to write down everything and instantly create something out of it because I felt I needed to complete it but I should remember not to get lost and bettering myself for the sake of trying to always prove something to my past self and I also think it's important to create on your terms too and there's so many opinions and feelings we hear that don't always speak to us and might put in

a different direction still because they may have made you start asking these questions like what's the point of even trying this anymore I just try to live on my terms and control what I can control and I just share my insights from my experiences and it's how I feel you know I shouldn't go against that because I think it doesn't make any sense you know those songs or movies that we always say was ahead of its time it's kind of like that you know yesterday it might not connect to us or make any sense but

then tomorrow it's like the best thing we've ever seen and it's exactly what we were looking for you know I think dissociating yourself from the world is completely different from cating time and taking a downtime to not just better yourself but feel more comfort and gratitude with being alone in a comfortable setting that suits you and you know this whole process of our lives and aging I don't know why there's this point where we need to get ourselves situated before experiencing anything spending time alone is about mindlessly enjoying the things that not just makes you

happy but content with this chaotic life we tend to live and you know I'm always just trying to find a purpose but now I just want to navigate through this chaos and instead of looking for a direction create a direction for yourself and you know live through your lens while appreciating what's around you and who you might bump into and I think everything just feels much better when you're Blinded By The Experience