Terry Crews Eats His Last Meal

hi I'm Terry Cruz and this is my last meal [Applause] [Music] woo every person has exactly two things in common we all got to eat and we're all going to die today's guest is actor author and former NFL linebacker you can catch him in the new movie The Killer game you can also see him on the America's Got Talent season finale T Cruz welcome to the show what's up my man how you doing Josh good to see you likewise man uh there were too many things to fit in the intro you're also a Furniture designer

you're also a painter uh you threw Hammer with former American record holder Lance steel you are the best damn courtroom sketch artist the wjrt channel Sol Flint Michigan ever saw whoa you went way back you really went into the the anals of my history man this is good I've been trying to figure out what makes all of the man that is Terry Cruz and there is so much there you've really been making the most of the one life you got oh dude I just do what I love man I learned that a long time ago

because you know coming up in flip Michigan you were kind of you either worked at the factory or you didn't and so I was like man I got to I can't do this for you know I can't be stuck over there so I just said I have to do as many things as I can possibly do whatever I love I decided I was going to do uh have you thought about your last meal before no I never did um but you know once I knew I was coming on this actually there were so many choices

I was I I think I gave you guys like five or six um because what can I say I can't imagine just having one last meal I just can't it's like it would have to be a whole like cornicopia of everything you know what I'm saying D we have a cornicopia of literally everything that you asked for we are putting together the largest last meals in history and it's just you and me and we got to take it all down man let's do it man let's do it we can die tomorrow right is that it

we might and we might might today I don't know let's it Terry for the first of six courses today we have the creamy rock shrimp this is tempura fried a little bit of a spicy mayonnaise with Yuzu in there we have the spicy tuna on crispy rice we have miso black cod and then we have a simple salad with a little bit of edamame some Citrus and fennel in there man please dig in and tell me all about it okay man L I've been wait for this like okay I got to start with my creamy

Rock listen first of all you got to understand the thing about this meal this is my noou special right and I would go to New York and I would be like one day I'll be able to go to noou and and then once things started to really click for me um and I'll never forget my wife and I were in New York and it was a little bit after White Chicks really started to take off and what was so nuts is that I remember they played my scene in the car with Marlin in in Time

Square and we were flipping out oh thank you I'm will grab a couple of these I'm will grab a couple of these thank go for it man thank you oh we got more in back too Terry don't hold back there in and um I took my wife we went to Noble and they knew who I was and then they escorted me up the stairs and I had my table and this was the meal that I had man and I always have this meal you mentioned growing up in Flint you were a part of the greater

Holy Temple Church of God in Christ and you said that there was no movies no secular music no dancing and that food was your only indulg yes is that why you have such a strong connection to food we would go to church probably five six times a week dang but it was everything we had to do because it was our entertainment it was our lessons it was everything but then we would go late I remember being as a kid there was a supper club called walles MH and dude there would be a huge bread out

at literally 11:45 p.m. Shez and you hamburgers hot dogs Wally was kind of like this uh it was basically like a Cheesecake Factory is you can have everything and dude people would eat like Champions but especially when you're like depriving people of so many other things and that one thing becomes so so so important to you and you start like tethering that to positive emotions and this is another thing I was an artist and I was an athlete but either world didn't accept me so I would go to football practice and they would be like

hey man you got to quit all that paint and stuff and then I go to art class hey you going to you got to quit all that football stuff and so I was like why why I will I with either either one it sounds like you were always caught in this conflict between two worlds right being like the artist and the athlete Growing Up In This Very uh heavy heavy church and then not necessarily feeling the belief did you ever actually feel comfortable as a kid no yeah no I was scared I spent a lot

of time very very afraid growing up in the church that I did the thing was everything will send you to hell so there was a concept of the Rapture and the Rapture is when Jesus come back and he's going to take the Saints and it's going to disappear and and the whole point was you don't want to get caught and left behind right so that was used as a manipulative tool in a lot of ways to keep get kids grounded they're like hey man Jesus coming back he going to catch you that was almost like

a boogeyman you know what I mean it was almost like and if you get left behind oh my God the the devil's going to have you and then and you were scared some kid like Michael Myers you had Jesus oh man right right and this is and it's really wild because it doesn't you're supposed to look at you know religion and God is a good thing but I looked at it it's like oh my God he's trying to catch me yeah you know so I spent all my time scared let me tell you one time

when I was in church and I fell asleep and I'll never forget I woke up and all the pews were empty and everyone was gone and I went no no listen I'm a kid man I'm I'm you got understand this is the way they kept us straight and I went no I missed it I missed it it happen and I'm gone and dude I'm screaming like no no I'm running and no one's anywhere everyone was in the basement eating everyone was in the basement my mother was like I'm right here I'm and I was like

oh my God I thought you were gone I thought everybody was gone that's still that memory right now M it's like it happened yesterday yeah that's how pivotal it was like I couldn't it was just the panic and I spent so much time afraid and then Charles Manson was out the whole Charles Manson thing they were like he got a ro on his head he he can open doors with his eyes I believed it all I believed it all and it was crazy cuz I remember Helter Skelter was the movie that was out on television

and I was like and I was so scared that Charles Manson was G to come kill me you know you know not not only Jesus but Charles Manson cuz Charles Manson looked like Jesus yeah which was kind of crazy so I got them all conflated together it's so easy to laugh at now but also at the time like I'm a kid dud you're a kid yeah I'm a child and when you talk this kind of stuff you have to explain yourself but there was not a lot lot of explanation oh this is our therapy session

for today John I didn't go I'm here crying over over our last meal man let's do listen man we got shmp Charles Manson can't hurt you no it's over Terry for course number two we got the baby back ribs right here a little bit of pickled veg on the side a cornbread muffin some extra sauce we got the barbecue baked beans then of course some collard greens cooked down with some smoked turkey neck in there oh oh oh oh this is I'm going in going to ask some of these beans right here this is one

of my childhood favorite meals you have to understand why again we go we're we're going back to the Midwest okay and by going back to the Midwest we have to talk about a theme part called Ceder Point anybody who knows about Cedar Point I heard I heard I heard that I heard that wo studio audience is live today see listen Cedar Point is the bomb right because we were so far from Disneyland you ain't getting there so far from Disney World no way and nothing oh look at the sauce man oh my God nothing like

my uncle oh my God this is so rip oh you know everybody in every family had a resident barbecue expert mhm so he would come by the day before knowing we were going to see the point and he would barbecue these ribs he has his Special Sauce special smoke he smoked his sauce the whole thing in my a a will make the side she had the baked beans she had the greens she had the cornbread the whole plan was never to buy food in the par yeah yep you know what I mean like we already

knew ain't don't ask cuz we ain't paying for none of that we bought the tickets and so and we bought those on coupons drinking out of the water fountain you know what I mean right right and it was like no whatever you see out here don't worry about it because we bring in the food and man it was so it was one of of the best memories ever like no church no it was like fun fun fun all the coasters all the rides and then the family all get together by between noon and 1 we

break this out um I had a Cedar Point t-shirt and I'll never forget the day I ruined it because my uncle asked me to move the grill after he done cooking cuz we're going the next day and I and I kept the freaking seash on cuz I was going to wake up in it m so I could just jump in the car and I put the the grill next to my shirt and I put it down and it has all these sauce lines all over it I was like no and you can't get barbecue sauce

out of a that's done a white Cedar Point t-shirt that shirt's called a rag now yeah right exactly that's obviously such like an incredible happy memory from childhood but also you say that you were sort of constantly scared and you felt powerless how do you like hold those two truths at the same time like do you ever feel yourself getting so negatively tinged by your childhood that sort of ruins the positive memories it's the sin of comparison yeah when you're comparing yourself to other people you go oh man I didn't know it was bad but

when you're young you don't know you're poor yeah I wasn't allowed to do anything like I wasn't allowed to play sports I wasn't allowed to go to the movies or anything like that but I was allowed to draw and what I would do sit in my room and people would tell me about movies and I would draw what I thought the movies were did you make accurate predictions no they were all over the place right I would literally make movie posters and do all I never forget cuz I wasn't allowed to see it but I

love it when I finally did see it it was phenomenal was alien cuz alien came out around 1979 around that time and I just remember the commercial and I was like oh my God so I started drawing what I thought the alien looked like cuz I didn't know people my mother was very disturbed she's like that's some demons in there like and people in school were like d what's wrong with you you know I had a lot of blood and weird stuff in there but I was like this is what the movie is right and

I was again I'm a biggest nerd you could ever imagine just because of my imagination it forced me to imagine everything uh also like I don't think it's corny to be really excited about things I think that's something that a lot of especially young people are taught that that is corny to be excited but I don't think it is at all I also want to talk about the idea of like those hardships actually spurring someone towards success which of course can be true but then there's a flip side of that of you still feeling like

you have those hardships after you've reached the success so like how do you actually learn how to enjoy that I just wasn't thankful for what I had it was always like yeah but I'm I'm not there I'm not there when I get there was that just overcompensating for you thinking that you like needed to have that wall up I think it was yeah I think it was because it's like even in the religion stuff you're not there you know what I mean it's like when you go to heaven you still ain't you could all fall

apart at every minute it's always W it was always the feeling like anything could fall apart at any second so me and my wife went through a whole bunch man like we we basically broke up and it was a whole big deal and this was after we had been married 20 years damn but I was so like focused on just career I'm not there and once we we rebuilt our marriage I started to understand like oh wow you have to enjoy this stuff while it's here yeah so as the kids started getting older and moving

out I was like oh I think I missed the time with them like the the first one's gone and the second one started leaving and then the third one's gone and you go oh my God like I don't know if I really enjoyed while they were here that's a scary feeling especially because you probably convinced yourself that it was for them when you probably knew damn well it was it was for you time yeah and they knew it for me yeah you know what I mean that was the thing they was like okay yeah sure

Dad somebody got to pay for all this you know that kind of thing but they're like we just wanted to be with you yeah like we didn't care what it was cuz again it's the S of comparison again you know what I mean like when I was a kid I didn't have this so I'm going to give you all these things but they're like but Dad we just want you yeah I was like oh wait a minute and that took some years dude and my wife was always telling me the whole time like you need

to just chill and you need to be with them but I was always explaining to her no no but what happen if we don't have this she say we'll be fine yeah she's a smart lady man that's one reason why I'm still here I'd be dead without her I ain't going to lie to you cheers to having smart women are That's it man that's it that's it Terry for our course number three healthy interlude we have the grilled broccolini with a grilled bison ribeye finished with a little bit of grass bed butter we got the

baked sweet potato and then we have a panoply of smoothies we have the peanut butter we have the berry we have the Citrus and then we have the strawberry and look at them D I'm Sor I couldn't hear you my muscles were talking to me I couldn't hear myself I was staring first of all Josh Josh this you have to understand something about this this meal is my first like staple official like I'm I'm going to get healthy meal okay this is bison but I found a less processed this meat was the better it was

for you you know what I mean and it was so rich and iron and whole thing first time I ever had it I'll never forget it was like a Santa Fe New Mexico and old thing and it was just like oh my God this meat is so good oh oh and it's done perfectly you're turn it's hard to burn it yeah because it always stay look at that it always stays Juicy and Delicious when I retired from NFL I got tremendously out of shap because as football player was my whole life I retired we moved

to LA I was like I'm going to try to get into the industry and the whole thing but I was so depressed I used to just sit on the couch and eat pecan sandies that was my thing man oh the worst like too man oh yeah with a big glass of milk nice but they're so dry and I gained 50 lbs overweight I mean I was like and my wife came up behind me and she was in the mirror and she pinched my back back like who and I was like whoa what are you doing

who whoa whoa and she was like oh no it's okay hone just cute it's cute I was like what this ain't cute what are you talking about what are you T don't touch me like that I'm trying to tell you like I had no no reason cuz I had still seen myself like this super fit guy and she was like it's cute I love you anyway I was like don't stop playing with me I mean angry angry and she was like damn say calm down right went to the gym and I told the guy at

the counter I I'm going to work out here he was great that'll be uh $100 and then it's like $20 a month I said no no no you understand I'm going to work out here he said yeah you have to understand Josh I never paid to work out yeah in my life in my life yeah literally from high school all the way up through college through the pros you just go to the gym and I'm like you paying like you want me to pay and I hit me I was like I have to pay so

I paay and then I went and got on a recumbent bike and read a magazine and and like in literally 10 minutes and then I put it down I went home you got to do your baby steps baby baby just little bitty things and I also got into smoothies during this time you know what I mean I feel like smoothies were new back then yeah we didn't always have smoothies dude there was no Jamba Juice you know what I mean this is all brand new I remember people were like smoothies this is the way you

can get your calories in and have your protein and do it's a meal and it's a drink that's how old I am cuz people didn't smooth there was no smoothie it was like either ice cream or water that you were riding a horse to the gym you know what I mean yeah that's what I'm saying like what's up so and let me taste this one peanut butter I love peanut butter man Little Greek yogurt in there oh with the Greek yogurt dude dude look at that I feel the muscles just Building look at that really

that's that no you got it good dude this is some healthy fat healthy protein the Greek yogurt is great Pro uh probiotic uh I want to ask you about how you first started working out though cuz you were 11 years old and you said you'd be doing crunches so obsessively that your stomach started to cramp yep a lot of people might start working out to get dates but you were working out to kill your father yeah very different very listen my father was very abusive m one of my earliest memories was him knocking my mother

out dang I was at 5 years old he worked in the factory and he worked all all day we go I remember leaving at 1 he would work second Shi we leave at 1:00 he would come home around 11:00 after his night at the bar MH and man they would fight and my mother was screaming and he you know turn haul off and don't make me do this don't make me pow and then he's I would never forget walking out and seeing her on the ground knocked out and he's like look what you made me

do and so I looked at him and I'm going oh boy okay remember as a young man you start to realize there's certain things you just start to get immediately I'm like this is your world you can do that to her you say you love her you say you love me too but dude you just did that to her what I mean that's a grown woman yeah what you going to do to me yeah and I was like hey man it's your world brother like I just didn't want to get that punch cuz you got

to understand my father the way he walked around the house it was like boom boom it's like Godzilla and I remember on the news you know cuz the news was was not a little different but at Nightly News it was only the big stuff that got on you know it wasn't like 24-hour news so they was like man kills entire family I was like my father could do that he could do that yeah did you think could or would it was a little bit of both yeah some days it would be like wood he but

he definitely was goody yeah yeah you know what I mean the question there was no question he could so I was like all right I got to protect my mother and I got to protect myself so as a little kid man I was out I literally we had this is back in the day and there at the end of one thing they my parents did let me do was comic books at the end of the comic books they would have these little books about tired of getting sand kicked in your face it was a little

cartoon that was like it was show a guy at the beach get his thing and it's a little workout number where you could get um learn how to get muscles and the pre- internet days it was that little thing and we me and my brother wrote we wrote the little um the little address they had on there and I think it was like you had to send like a dollar or something I put a dollar in the envelope and we got this book back that had these drawings of exercises like this is how hard it

was there there was no gems back then I remember the exercises were and it is dynamic tension right those kind they would draw how you sit against the wall and this and me and my like a buck right but your leg but but the a buck back then was like yeah $10 now you know what I mean like $20 now to be honest I said if if this works doing it once it's got to work better doing it four times yeah so what I would do was just keep doing it over and over and then

I learned about Dynamic tension with the Bruce Lee book and then so I was like I'm going to tense up to the point where and and all of a sudden things were cramp and muscles would go oh oh this is why you get the peak on top of the peak because I was like and my mother was like what is going on but Fitness it was one of my things because I did feel like I had to protect my family yeah I did feel like I had to protect my mom and uh let me tell

you man it it kind of came to a head when I actually did beat up my father but I was a grown man yeah and um it was kind of wild cuz he he uh and my first real year in acting and he hit my mother in the face well we were me and my wife were headed to Detroit to go and visit some friends and I get a call from my aunt the same aunt that would take us to Cedar Point and the whole thing with my uncle and she's like oh my God she

said y your dad just hit your mom and I said what and I was I said I'm a grown man but I'm a grown ass man now like and this is the thing when I went home for christm this was we call this a Christmas From Hell Christmas from hell so I I said dude I told him never to mess up I said dude just don't trip cuz my kids hadn't been around it m and knew my kids were shook like they never seen that yeah so I told him get everybody out of the house

and it was just me and him and I beat his ass for hours and I felt nothing did you expect to feel something like did you actually think that moment would be D I thought hey man this is it this this is the moment this is what I trained for this is what I wanted this is like what I this I was like how does it feel how does it feel a man I felt nothing like a man is never ever meant to hurt his parents yeah no matter what they did now I'm no better

than you like where is it when did like there's no Awards there's no medals there's no winners here yeah and I left and I never went back for 10 years 10 years but this there is a kind of a a nice into this because once I went to therapy after my wife and I broke up and the whole thing and I went to therapy for the first time in my therapy I discovered that I needed to com just address what happened mhm but the way I had to do it I had to find one thing

that I was thankful for him for and so I called him up and I said man I said I'm thankful for you I'm thankful that you had me because if you didn't have me I wouldn't exist yeah that's back and he said he cried he apologized he was like I'm sorry for what I did to you and your mom and the whole thing now at the time it was a wonderful moment when I realized how I could really be free was really forgiveness and I've been free ever since man it's a woo that's a deep

memory man but it's amazing how food can take you there you know no truly man I really appreciate you telling that story it's it's important I think especially guys like me who are in the fitness and these things there's a reason why you're doing this yeah I had a lot of insecurities man I was scared there's a deep pain that generally comes from me and the want to be powerful only comes from the feeling of powerlessness that you started with totally and it started to hit me man I was like oh and I can deal

with these things in the right way yeah oh man it's good so good man Terry we're moving into the more AV on guard section we got the zucchini we got the gaspacho with a little bit of crostina we got crispy smashed potatoes and then Peri Peri chicken yes sir tell me about it okay this is this is my world experience okay this is one of the thing my my wife and I we had the gaspacho in Italy once I started to travel for real I'll never forget my first movie was a movie called The Sixth

Day with Arnold schwarzeneger right oh look at that that cold so fresh with the cristini Terry stop with the smoothies and start drinking no I know that's the deal just the idea of cold soup I was like huh what and then I had it and I was like my life has changed forever and then uh the Perry Perry chicken is from South Africa oh my God flame grilled it's like a special thing and it you know the plate they have is nandos is is what they call it nandos there's nandos and then now there's like

15 different imitators they got Bandos they got Mandos oh that's good but this is that flavor remember cuaro I do remember I grew up on cuaro man I I would go to cuckaroo probably four times a week yeah that was a necessary thing and then it went out of business then the zucchini fly me and my wife went on our 34th anniversary last year and we went to the south of France and we had a chef and he made zucchini fly only way I had seen blonde was like as a dessert yeah did we get

it right cuz we had no idea what you're talking about yeah this is no this is good I said oh my God the fact that you could make this as a side dish it's just so beautiful and then we going into the smashed potatoes right here man one of my New York spots um Quality Meats and has the best potatoes in the world and I love these smash Skillet potato this is the indulgent meal this is when you're like MH we going big and we going we or we we ain't going home you know oh

I want to talk to you about power and like what it actually means because you're obviously very powerful in stature you speak very powerfully you have a very powerful onscreen presence you wrote a book about finding your true power what are the things that people get wrong about it the phrase I like to use is you telling everyone what to do does not make you the boss mhm you doing everything you told yourself to do M Makes You The Boss yeah Power is internal the whole thing is pointing the fingers at everybody else and never

doing what they say they're going to do yeah and that's where everybody gets caught because you go hey you just said to do this and you don't do it you tell people to be on time and yet you're never on time yeah the difference between some people is they feel like well they can say I had no choice I had no choice you know I it was I had to do this I had to do that I will never ever say that on my dying day if you put a gun to my head I have

a choice M this is last meals I have a choice the choice is am I going to live or am I going to die but it's still a choice yeah acknowledge your life is your choice you see what I mean that changed for me cuz there was a whole time when I was a victim so things start to come from your choices there's a choice on how I can do deal with certain things there's a choice if you get slided there's a choice on how you can handle these things you can go off and feel

like a victim or you can say you know what they're wrong I choose the higher ground yeah and do change my life forever that's power MH that's true power it's not about anybody else it's about me it's about my world me controlling everything about myself yeah and you have a great story about the Perry Perry chicken when you're shooting in South with Blended where the original pitch for that that Adam Sandler wrote the character was like really disrespectful towards African culture yes and you were faced with a choice at that moment right dud I had

to first of all the way it was written I was like Adam hey man can I talk to you he was like yeah sure buddy okay man we're going to be in trouble if I do this the way this is I said now I can't first of all I'm not going to do it that way yeah so are you open to ideas that I have so it was very stereotypical and weird and disrespectful to African culture and I decided okay let's make this guy like the Don Ho of the place let's give him suits let's

give him let's not let's let's laugh with him and not at him let's not laugh at the culture let's all of us laugh together and it changed the whole dynamic of the movie and I was so thankful that he let me do that because there are times when you know other movies and other projects they you go nope that's the way it is sorry buddy and then when you shed that responsibility and you make the choice you said you didn't have a choice within then you feel shame about that and then you blame other people

so it just creates this Whirlpool of Shame where you're like diving down but it sounds like you're taking like radical accountability for everything in your life and I think that freaking rules man you know it took me a while to get to that thing and it was a really a bounce through you know what I mean but I'm so thankful I made it through through this pop cuz I didn't stop yeah and I didn't give up very hard to do okay you ready get course number five course we I know where are we I think

oh my God I think when you were 6 years old the Rapture did come this is either heaven or hell and I can't this is hell this is Hell Terry for course number five in your meal from hell we have the garlic bread we have the Caesar salad hand torn croutons and then we have the frittata a forato forato i forato as a kid what come second very very close mostly second it almost went to the top the top was pizza pizza bro like I could eat two large pizzas with everything all on my own

when my father he was a big Gambler right M oh oh my God this is so good he was a big Gambler so you know you you normally lose more than you win mhm but occasionally he would win and he would come home and it was one of the happiest days of my life meaning he was have money he he wake us all up oh let me get some of this garli bread please man you combine this all it just turns into pizza oh know that's what I'm saying and he would bring home two large

pizzas and we would be up at midnight we' be eating that pizza and he'd be stacking his money on the table and my mother and listen my mother and father that's the first time I ever saw him kiss really like in love and I was going wow like that's just like on t TV that's what I was said in my head yeah I realize cuz I mean I would live on pizza and college and whole thing but you realize oh my God I can't eat pizza all the time yeah you're like oh my God I'm

I'm gaining weight and the whole thing this fata changed my life it's a high protein pizza because it's it's it's the flavors are all there but instead of a bready crust it's egg yeah and the fata if you got to have a little bread and the little things that really C you get the garlic bread right in there oh my God and the season salad classic more cheese more cheese but vegetables it's good for you it's veggies man it's lettuce m m your mom was a big sweep Staker right so it's like that you got

a lot of your morality from movies because everywhere you looked around yourself as a kid you're like well I know what Elder Jones is doing behind the church so I can't get it from there yep what movie do you think have the strongest impression on your moral cod as an adult you know what Star Wars yeah Star Wars because it was about evil it was about good and I'll never forget like even with Empire Strikes Back and it was almost like finding the goodness in things that you wouldn't find like Yoda was a joke at

first mhm you thought Yoda was a cartoon character you're like oh he's cute he's Billy he's silly he he was the wisest one when Yoda got in his power when Luke's chip is is all bogged in the swamp and then Yoda sticks his three fingers out there and it raises up I get emotional now dude I get emotional about that cuz it's like look at his power and you start to learn about being good and what you know you didn't really die I get choked up because it's like I truly believe in my heart that

no one ever really dies our Spirits are never dead our Spirits have always been here so we just move to another state move to the next thing and it's get it it it supplants all that fear and scary oh what's going on into a whole another thing for me and again not like Star Wars is real but it gave me a lesson and wait a minute we are here when my mom passed away I could feel her you know what I mean I know she's proud of me I know she's looking and she's watching and

she's in a better place and she knows more than ever now you know what I mean because all has been revealed to her and we're all going to eventually get there so I don't fear moving to the next level and I think think Star Wars did a great job of just putting that Morality In a picture so that we can understand it but Star Wars has always always been one of the major major influences and it was the first movie that I ever got to see in a theater like or a drive-in theater and it

changed my life forever it it gave me it I I knew I was going to be in entertainment forever the first time I saw Star Wars I how important was it for you to repair your relationship with your mother because you finally confronted her about her abuse towards you because you had your father who never hit you you hit your mother and then your mother would pass that down to you and just the cycle it was tell I learned be a lot more gentle with it cuz my mother did a lot to survive yeah but

there was a lot of anger that she took out on us my mother would tell me I hate your do I hate her I wish she was dead she used to say stuff like that and we'd be like yeah uh can you pass the bre please yeah thank you um and she would be like I hate him uh and we were like okay but and so that's why it was like we knew she was mad we knew she was angry um and then she would take it out on it sometimes until as an adult and

after therapy just like I had to confront my dad I had to go to my mother yeah I said you know what that the stuff you did that wasn't right and she said I don't I no and she denied she tried to deny it and I was like no that happened yeah and then finally she said you know what I I'm sorry and this one thing I tell my kids um cuz I didn't do everything perfect you look back and you go oh man I wish I could redo that I wish I could redo that

but this is a wonderful thing about life that as an adult I passed you your life the deed to your life but it comes as is like a house like if the basement's leaking ah sorry about that but it's your basement now you know oh man the roof needed repairing what happens is everybody goes back to their parents and be like this roof is leaking and and the basement flooded and you listen you can talk all that you want but the previous owner it's done you bought it it's your life it's up to you to

fix it's not your fault but it is your responsibility now same right listen sad is all these things I've been talking about I can't blame one thing in my life today that happens right now on my father or my mother I am 100% responsible it's because of my choices yeah it's me and it helps cuz you go if you don't like something change it if you look you don't have to be scared anymore it's over yeah cuz if we were going to continue a relationship I I had to talk to her I had to really

break it down and um and we did we came we came to a really really good settlement like just just of all how we were going to be all the way until she passed and it I love her to this day man and I just I'm I'm very thankful but I know I was given a deed to my life as is I can't I can't blame them for any other stuff it's matter of just like yo it's up to me it's up to you to find out what the differences are and how to change those

things that you need to correct yeah and that's where I'm at Terry meat sweats rain upon us we got the final course of your final meal the classic double cheeseburger a little bit of pickles some special sauce yes American cheese on that squishy bun we got the fresh french fries and then we got a strawberry shake oh my God my God thank you thank you now let's talk talk about this it shake so good your eyes crossed a little bit oh so good you know mean oh these hot fresh fries and then the cheeseburger with

the Special Sauce double uh-oh uhoh if you won't get messy you ain't eating it right I remember F my whole allowance going to get a cheeseburger fries and the cuz and I'm going to tell you this this a real big deep confession remember I told you my mother hated my dad mhm she cooked like she hated him intentionally or intentionally that would be something boiling on the stove and you be like what is that like there's a bone sticking out of and he wanted it with rice and she's like I remember he'd go to work

at 1 and we would go there and he oh this is so horrible and then she' make herself a whole another meal at night herself I'm serious doing all I'm like then we wake up I smell something go back to bed shut up so what I would do when I again when I got to the age when I was a teen and I could do Lawns we used to shovel snow but there was a place down the street and me and my best friend we would go get these double cheeseburgers fresh fries and a shake

you know it was like a mom pop spot I don't even remember the name of it cuz I know I ate good when I had a double cheeseburger fries and a shake I can no longer tell if you've died and we've gone to hell or maybe I've died and gone to hell cuz I've eaten so much that I'm hallucinating that I'm eating a cheeseburger with President Dwayne elando Mountain Dew Herbert kamach I'm freaking out a little bit um on Monday Night Football Chargers vers Colts you hit a man so hard that you knocked yourself out

and you said that while you were knocked out that was the most peaceful you'd ever been like you were back in the womb it was wonderful do you think that's what death is going to be like yeah I thisen I've never been high I've never been drunk I don't drink mhm uh no alcohol no drugs never been high in my life that was Bliss I remember cuz your body just shuts down like I hit I remember just all of a sudden there's this huge shock and blinding like blow you know your whole world cuz you're

already in a helmet M so you feel like you're in a car accident you know what I mean and then it was like like all the air like you're in you're in space it's like all the oxygen is nowhere and you're just floating and there's no up there's no down and I was like oh and I just looking around and I was in a dream state like immediately right but it felt like 2 weeks it was actually 20 seconds cuz then you lost all space and time you've lost all contact with it right I get

up and all of a sudden I'm looking I'm looking at the team I'm going wow what what's the you mean what's the you mean and everybody's like what are you talking about and it's a horseshoe on the on the Indianapolis goats helmet and I'm like I are we in UDA easy mistake anybody could have made that are we in UDA and I and and then I started to panic cuz people were like man stop and then I went uhoh and they call him pun te uhoh I think that's the that's my mind that's my that's

what I felt the ringing is still in the conion it is Monday 1994 oh wait a minute I'm just waking up from my dream right now Terry hit him he's got the ball it's so funny I might find out just wake up and all this whole the whole Hollywood career was part of this you're trapped in a snow globe I go toide they're yelling punt team I know I'm on punt team but I don't know what a punt is and I'm serious like I start crying damn it's emotional yeah cuz I know this is my

job I'm like What's the punt man what is a punt and they're like oh man get off me man I'm going crazy in the sideline right they finally I went in and they start piecing my life together like they're like okay Terry you're Terry gruz you have a wife and I like yeah I got a wife yeah yeah I know her I'm talking to the doctor like this he's telling me like how many kids do you have I was like oh man and finally my memory came back and they said okay you can play the

rest of the game see this there was no concussion protocol yeah back in the day you got your bell rung I played right yeah wait and it was hit of the week I got the T-shirt you get the T-shirt hit of the week you know what I mean and it's like whoa yeah and you realize oh my God now I really believe being an actor and Performing saved my life because what happens is when athlet especially athletes with head injuries when they're done they literally don't use their brain anymore yeah and dude if you don't

use it you lose it and that's why a lot of NFL players have had really really big problems and I have to be honest a lot of them died very very young yeah and I said man and I Knew by using my brain and always pushing it always forcing it into new levels new things it's it it helped it help helped me survive I think you actually died and went to the other plane and came back though to be that's incredible mhm dude but that's part of it that's how I know there's more than this

yeah t you ready for the lightning round I'm ready who's the one person Dead or Alive you'd want to share your actual last meal with Jesus uh what song do you want to be played at your funeral th000 miles oh man God me too me too that's my song now that's my song people know me about that that's my song I love you Vanessa thank you uh which the Killer game co-star would you least want to face in battle Do's roller cage oh my God Dave Batista all way man that's a tough some be right

there bu you can sell I love Dave I love Dave what's your biggest fear getting everything I want and not having the energy to do it m you know what I mean like to have this opportunity and not having and being too tired to go after it which NFL players portrait are you the most proud of painting um Stan humph there was a guy named Stan humph quarterback with chargers it was a beautiful painting man he went over his front his mantle piece and the whole thing was him standing over the city about to throw

the ball it was amazing incredible uh what's the hardest goodbye you've ever had to say to my wife when I was going to Camp I'll never forget when I was going to camp at the Redskins that was really hard cuz I I would missed her so much I I actually spent time in Germany doing all this and I got to see her for a minute and then I was pulled away again and I was like I just want to hold I want to her be back with me you know what I mean that was hard

cuz we go away for a month and a half and you're like oh of all the characters you played which one do you think deserves their own spin-off movie kamacho oh Dwayne Alexandro Mountain Dew Herbert kamacho put some respect deserves his own movie especially now especially now oh God I think we're Beyond parody uh finally Terry are you happy I am very very happy I'm so happy I'm so thankful I'm just so honored and man to go anywhere in the world and people know your name but also that I still have my family yeah that

I am a husband first I am a dad I truly have it all you know what I'm saying which is which is wonderful my wife and I just celebrated our 35th Anniversary yeah and it's beautiful man I mean I think not a lot of people ask the question what it means to be a good man in the world right now and you are asking the H lot of that question providing some good answers so I really appreciate you coming on the show thank you Josh thank you man and I'm full I'm really full and I'm

still doing it I'm going all the way in this this one of the best shakes I've ever had you guys I'm trying to tell you man you guys oh anybody want to come on this show they doing it for real it tastes amazing everything everything we only gave him 20 bucks to say that too his rates are very Reon Old Spice PID no if you want to deliver your last words to that camera right there God will not have his work made manifest by cowards which is Ralph Waldo Emerson I have it up in my

gym I have it in all my books which means it takes courage to do everything it took your mother courage to have you God will not have his work made manifest by cowards take it go for it it's the only way you're going to do anything is to be courageous I'm all jacked up on a run through a right now let's go that's part of the sh talking T I appreciate you man everyone make out everyone make out everyone make out that's the message that's the message everyone make sure to check out The Killers game

the Americans Got Talent season finale Terry anywhere else they can find you anywhere find me on the reruns everywhere oh everybody still Hates Chris comes out uh this fall on Comedy Central it's the animated version of Everybody Hates Chris man it's so beautiful I mean to get the chance to play Julius again it's nuts 20 years later me Shea Chris FR I'm I'm all over I'm animated y'all if I'm not animated enough I can't imagine you more animated yeah man thank you so much and thank you for stopping by mythical kitchen we got new videos

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