"If You're Real God, Take Away My Anxiety & Depression" - Bryce Crawford | EP. 78

the beginning of my junior year my grandfather got pancreatic cancer there was kind of like this unintentional weight on my shoulders of like hey you got to make sure he gets saved before he passes away and my dad would ask me to go to the hospital with him and I would just kind of like push it away because I was like I'm going to go hang out with friends I'm going to go do my thing well that night he ends up passing away and I took on this burden of it's my fault and so I

already had this depression anxiety and then having this weight a feeling like I was responsible for someone's Eternal destination because of my actions and because of my selfish heart I'm not going to go visit him I don't want to visit him and it was it tormented me how are you doing now I'm just playing it's not often I sit down with somebody and they say something that makes me think you give me something to think DN I had a lot of fun on this interview you feeling comfortable yeah I'm feeling great is there anything I

could grab you no I feel great right now thank you so much you okay I was getting it out before could you get it out ready cuz you you and Reed sound like we're at the Urgent game I thought we were okay yeah Reed's been sick for 3 weeks bro that's not sick that's almost death like he literally called me like hey hey man I don't think I go to work and I was like are you in a cooler right now dude what are you where are you at and he's like I woke up with

with the shakes and I was he's like but I think I'll be goodbye tomorrow I was like no you're not like you stay the hell home like well hey man thanks for coming on the show that was a weird intro uh the intro welcome welcome awesome we we'll just go with it go he's still coughing in the background if you get sick I'm sorry it's you no he's not sick all right guys well welcome back to the George jenko show uh this episode kind of jumped last minute because I was super inspired uh Bryce Crawford

it's been like 24 hours that we've met and uh there's some people that I I I have the privilege to meet and get inspired by and you're one of them man and and I was telling Belle after we we were done eating yesterday I said um when I looked at you after speaking with you I felt like I was meeting a young cliff and I was like honored to be in your timeline to see where you go in life and what you do for god um I stumbled upon Bryce's content when I was uh at

home and I saw this man who was Fearless but not fake Fearless like so in love with the Lord that he was more in fear of what God was doing versus what the world was doing and he wanted to grab people's attention and that type of Love is what I'm inspired by because when I meet people like Cliff his son Stewart you um and some so many others that I should be saying but after our dinner yesterday I was like man I'd love to have this conversation um that so many other people uh your age

how old are you 21 yeah I'm 20 20 not even 21 not yet not yet all right man let's jump into this um so tell me exactly again where you're from and by the way I know there's a lot of things that we talked about that I do know right but I'm going to have to ask it again so that way yeah yeah it's cool it's cool I do listen to you when you speak yeah it's cool it's cool thanks for like listening and asking me I'm uh yeah I'm from Georgia I'm from a small

town in Georgia Carterville Georgia kind of like country we're only really known for Trevor Lawrence played football in our hometown just that's it if Trevor Lawrence didn't play football in our hometown no one would know where I'm from like it's just that's just how it is did you like growing up there in that small town I loved it I I love the small town vibe I just I love like we we just had everything we had all the restaurants cool Hometown restaurants everybody kind of knew everybody it was just it was it's not like you

know super small town with 30 people but it's just you know little small country town and you have your best friend who came out right yeah best friend he's here he's from Virginia but we were just we how did you guys meet we met on a Taco Bell drive-thru in Chicago when I was like 17 no way yeah yeah we were up there I was uh so we both had mutual friends and like on Facebook and real life like in real life yeah we had like mutual friends in real life um like we didn't know

each other though and I was in the Taco Bell drive-thru in Chicago there was like a bunch of us up there we were just like sharing Jesus in Chicago when I was like 17 and Josh jumped in the car that I was in in the Taco Bell drive-thru and we just hit it off and since that day so many questions we so many questions one um were you trying to get kidnapped and then two like like no no for real why did you jump into a stranger's car mutual friends were in there oh so oh

you saw your friend in the car yeah all right man you got to start leaving out like you like in my mind I just picture you at Taco Bell waiting to like go through the drive-thru and some dude just like and gets in and he's like want to talk about Jesus and and I was like it's pretty risky it's a pretty risky thing so your friend was in the car with him and then you got in and and we we just hit it off like we we just got along we would keep in touch like

I I do a really bad job of keeping in touch with people online you know it's I do I I love those relationships when you like don't see anyone for 6 months and then you see them again and it just picks up right where it left off it's super cool so that's how Josh and I always were we keep in touch here and there but um we started getting closer cuz we were going on these trips together and we would like share like you know share the same hotel room or like whatever same bunk bed

when we would go to these Camp Retreat things and um and then we just got super close and then I invited him to come live with us in LA and do what we're doing now so all right let let's take some pages back and and get to know like where you came from and to get this type of mindset did you grow up in a religious home did you know God before you went out and started like preaching his news or how did you come about all of this yeah I I grew up in church

I I I I feel like when I was born like we were just always going every Sunday but you know I'm from Georgia so in the South it's just kind of like a Bible Belt typical everybody goes to church it's kind of like when you meet someone you can ask like what church you go to I feel like it's a lot like questions people ask so I grew up going to church um for like a a good portion of my like young years then about like Middle School we stopped going as much it was just

kind of like here and there um were you excited that you didn't have to wake up on Sunday yeah it was definitely exciting for sure like you know like as a kid it's just like oh really like why do I got to wake up on Su how early did you have to wake up um not like 8:00 8:30 a.m. yeah on a Sunday bro that's crazy on a Sundays my mom my mom would give me hell before he went to church ironically like it was just I used to laugh like at when I was older

I was like dude like the amount of yelling and like threats and like just just such Darkness to get us to go into like you know like in church and smile at everybody but yeah dude no it was a drag she dragged me there and uh I have you ever gotten like smacked in church like hey be quiet don't don't act up um I I sat next to my grandma she was like super sweet to me so like I knew like if I was dozing off like she would just kind of be like all right

there there like you know like she just kind like let it happen you know what I mean I was like so ter F my my mom's like just like Southern Southern mom you know she she don't play she don't play and so I had to sit next to Grandma you know just in case get some sweetness that's so sweet that's not what I went through I wish my grandma was there but so after your family stopped going you know as much in middle school then what kind of started to bring you back towards your faith

yeah I didn't really start getting curious about God again until I was like a junior in high school um I yeah we just stopped going to church and I built this resentment towards God because so many people in my hometown claimed to know God or represent God but their life didn't reflect it and so it just kind of like rubbed me the wrong way and I just thought that was my representation of God is how people displayed him to me people telling me what to do with my life with God and then them doing the

opposite of what they're telling me to do and it was just it was just weird and I it rubbed me the wrong way um and I I even went to a private Christian school and they were they're amazing I got a great education there and I I'm so thankful I I went there but even like I I grew up in in so many opportunities like to learn about Christianity and I I was just like having all this head knowledge and just nothing going on just it was in my head I would study it just to

pass the test or quiz you know my Bible class in school um but my that's cool though I like this I kind of want to dissect this a little bit if you don't mind yeah having a bad representation especially from your loved ones I've had family members or cousins or or close friends that I felt like were family like when they represent God the wrong way and there's a hypocrisy to their actions it makes you feel like well if they're not scared of God then like why should I be scared of God right and I

like that you highlighted that because I I noticed that when you do your videos when you speak to somebody I could tell that you've had the hours in with people that don't represent him the right way and I could see that you're trying to represent him with love and I I'm sad that you went through that but I'm excited because it molded you to be such a perfect disciple in this type of circumstance so I want you to tell me like how how can we get little kids or or grown men that have the heart

that you had when you were taking this test what's the best approach to to soften their heart to Christ for them to even really want to experience that relationship yeah I I I feel like a lot of people were just trying to like outsmart me like intellectually get me to understand God and and you know I get like they wielded his wisdom against you yeah yeah it was just like it's like you have to understand this like understand it understand it understand it and it it was just like you're trying to force something on me

that I'm trying to like process myself you know like I can't tell you the amount of times in school I heard someone say Jesus Christ died for you and he resurrected for you and if you believe in him you'll be saved and it's just like yeah like it just is nonchalant it's like yeah I know it like that's it but it's not here it was like the 18 Ines between my head and my heart never connected and I think you know we'll get in this later but in Waffle House like I finally experienced the love

for the first time and even even now like I'm on this journey of realizing like that love that you show people when you're trying to get them to understand Jesus doesn't compromise for their sin but you can still like pull the gold out of someone while calling them higher you know what I mean like calling them out of the lifestyle that they're living and so I I I think when when God was like just showing me that love that I felt like I was missing that was missing in the intellectual shot there's aw it's awesome

to explain facts about God but like if you're just like nonchalant saying it or like you're getting frustrated when someone's not understanding it like that that that's it just takes a pressure off my shoulders cuz I'm not the one saving someone because I'm outsmarting them intellectually like the Bible says you sew water and God brings the increase and so it just like takes the weight off my shoulders I feel like you're letting the Holy Spirit do the work right I want to Circle to this Waffle House story because I you know I'm going to let

you explain it and then I'm I'm going to explain my POV on it because I when you told me it you told me yesterday when we were at dinner and I cannot stop thinking about it and I think this is it everything that's meant to be even bad circumstances uh that the devil can win an opportunity um when we submit to God he could take those days and make them days is that we praise over so that day that you're talking about is a very dark day yeah but it's a day that I'll celebrate in

my heart every day and I told you that yesterday and I think I'm excited for you to tell the story so people could understand what I'm talking about dang thank you yeah I I I just I think when I entered into mind like I think when you get into High School your just like problems kind of like compile on top of each other and it's just Things become a little bit more serious you're growing up if I pulled out my phone right now and showed you like my Snapchat memories like a like a silly 13-year-old

14-year-old kid every night I've got pictures and videos of me crying complaining about about my anxiety and depression like killing me just complaining about my life on the outside when I would go to school like genuinely people loved me I remember my freshman year I everybody loved me but I would be a different person to everyone because I just wanted to feel loved I had like that hole inside my heart and so I wasn't filling it with drugs or substances I was like filling it with oh let me get this person to like me and

this person like me even if I got to be two different people to them because maybe their validation is going to make me feel better about myself and then I'd still go home and be like upset and anxious and depressed were you able to reflect your actions like this when you were doing them like did you were you knowing that you were doing this or did this all come to you after I I I think like sometimes I would know like I would have to do certain things to get people to like me but it

just be became a part of me because I was so used to doing it for everyone so I was just like kind of like people pleasing and doing it and wanting people to love me and I would go home and cry and I was you doing three Sports in high school and I was doing everything and people actually viewed me as this Christian Who Loved God but deep down I had this harbored resentment towards God funny that's that's really funny because now you're explaining to me hypocrisy literally I was a hypocrite you were angry with

people doing that and you became that for others yeah and you know I've realized uh an atheist friend of mine told me this and it stuck with me he goes the things that bother you the most in others or what you it bothers you about yourself yeah I just it it was just like tormenting and I I never opened up to it about anyone I would just like not even family members not even I tried to I would have these like six months seven month buildup of like storing this this bitterness and anger in my

heart and then I would have like a blow One Night in front of my parents and they would just be like you're fine like you're you know like and I I I'm not like like Downing them I just think that they didn't understand it because I was never telling them often it would just be like a buildup over six seven eight months it would happen and they were just kind of like what and then I would like go back I go to my room and just like be crying like they don't understand and then just

kind of shove it under the like kick the Ice Cube under the fridge six seven eight months go by boom build up blow up you're fine you're fine you're not upset I don't understand like everything's okay okay go back you know and it was just the same thing every night though like I was so depressed and anxious and and genuinely like people would lean on me for a Biblical understanding and as like a as like a Christlike figure even though deep down I was the biggest hypocrite on the planet I my uh my junior year

the year that I got I gave my life to Jesus that I put my faith and trust in him I the beginning of my junior year my grandfather got pancreatic cancer and uh he was in the hospital and that stuff is like no joke like you just can't you really can't do anything about it and I remember my family um it was kind of like there was kind of like this unintentional weight on my shoulders of like hey you got to make sure he gets saved before he passes away because we know Grandy's is not

a Believer like we got to just make sure and uh I know that they weren't intentionally putting that on me but that weight was like it was just like you're the Christian you go to private Christian School like you got to handle this and my dad would ask me to go to the hospital with him and I would just kind of like push it away because I was like I'm going to go hang out with friends I'm going to go do my thing I never prioritized it because deep down his soul wasn't a priority to

me because Jesus wasn't a priority in my life like if I really cared about his soul I would have gone because I I knew what how Jesus affected my life but I just kept pushing it off and then one night my dad said hey do you want to come with me to visit and I was like no I'm not going I'm just going to hang out here well that night he ends up passing away and I took on this burden of it's my fault I should have shared the gospel with him and I never did

and even though I don't believe it like I it was my fault and so I already had this depression anxiety and then having this weight of feeling like it was I was responsible for someone's Eternal destination because of my actions and because of my selfish heart oh I'm not going to go visit him I don't want to visit him like I I'm not going to go I'm just going to do my own thing I'm going to go hang out with friends friends that I see every day I'm just going to go spend time with them

like that that that hurt me and it was it tormented me how are you doing now I'm doing I'm doing way better now for sure because that I months I just carry this burden and I shared with you guys like uh his his wife my grandma absolute Saint just loves Jesus and is so passionate about Jesus a few months later it was in October my junior year because I gave I surrendered to Jesus in December um I'm beating myself up in my car after after practice one day and I'm just I just am crying in

my car I just can't believe even though I didn't even believe in God for myself I'm like is he in hell like is that my fault like what you know that that's just I just felt so ashamed and then I I had I literally felt it felt audible like he's okay just in my car and I'm just kind of like freaking out so I crying and crying and I call my grandma and I'm like I'm so sorry like I don't know I feel like this is my fault like I I didn't you know I'm just

like just kind of dumping it all all this stuff I'm holding in and she was like I visited him a few days before he passed away and and he put his faith in Jesus and we got to have conversations that we didn't get to have before he passed away and like you know it's not like it's it's not like the relief of like oh that you know it's not my fault anymore it's just like like God got done what he needed to get done even though I said no MH it was just like he got

done like what like what he needed to get done and it like so that that night I went home and I made a video on Tik Tok like you guys won't believe this like I just had this thing happen to me like God's like touching me right now I don't know what's going on and then I I just post it and go to sleep wake up 3 million people saw it 990,000 people followed me on Tik Tok and they were all asking me questions about God and I am so flustered because I don't even have

a relationship with him just I just shared an experience I had with him and I wasn't even like I I wasn't even like trying to get people to see the video I was just like so touched I was like it's not just he had so much grace for me I didn't even know like you know there's so much to unpack here man because I'm praying that I I say this correctly but from my perspective it seems to me that no man is wise enough or strong enough to do God's will he makes that man strong

enough and wise enough and I think that he could have easily let you know that your grandfather is saved before you went through this mental breakdown but I think he withheld that wisdom from you so you could feel this type of pain so that way when you're out in public and somebody says something rude to you or hurtful to you or or says something to make you angry you have this level of remorse because you've already felt what if God forbid could have been if you leave somebody high and dry before they accept Christ and

and I know you were like well I didn't know God but you're honest you said you didn't know God I know people that are like Pharisees where they pretend they know God just for that reward but you're honest and you're like I don't know God and if I could use myself as an example to help people to know God then I'll take that and I think that's why God chose you and so I want to take it back even further because there is kids that walk in your footsteps where they feel like you know what

I've handled this anxiety and depression I've tried every single thing including God and you have but some people want to take their life and they just feel like they've given it their all and I know that that's something that's tough that you dealt with and I would really like to dive into that if you don't mind and if you're comfortable yeah absolutely yeah I that battle of like wanting to take my life was a hidden battle no one knew about like I I I shared it with my mom like a few months ago and she

was just kind of like shocked because you never know never know but like that's the reality like you don't know like you just don't know when someone's feeling that way or going through that and so after I had that experience with my grandfather and things like that I I I would try to talk about Jesus because I felt like this responsibility after I made that video and all these people were like tell me more tell me more and so I would just like share what I was learning in school for two weeks and then just

completely stopped talking about God and was doing my own thing and because I didn't have a relationship with him like it wasn't important to me it was just oh I got to do this because people are asking me about it and it wasn't genuine so you can't you know you can't fake it I couldn't fake it for two weeks it was just I tried and I couldn't and that's just honest like I tried to fake it and so after that just spiraled back in even though even though that like just powerful like moment with God

and release with my grandfather it was just still anxiety and depression anxiety and depression and that stuff just feels like an incurable disease and I think the biggest high highs and really low lows Y is nauseating and sometimes you're like the highs aren't even worth it I don't want this anymore right I understand what you're saying it's it it it's just like the only way you feel like you can get rid of the pain is if take your own life because it's like it's miserable right now that's the lie it's like you're never going to

get over this so if you take your life the Pain's going to go away and that was just a lie I was believing yeah it's a dark lie sometimes the lies even are like it's better off without you right and sometimes you feel like you're doing other people a favor right and that's crazy man so crazy it's crazy I'm so so grateful you didn't but let's talk about why because that is God showing favor more than I've ever and I I want people to see a man like you because like we see so many people

sit on stage that are passionate about God and they want to hide all of their their problems but the truth is if we hid Paul's problems if we hid Simon's problems if we hid all of these people's problems we wouldn't be able to see God's glory and there's a lot coming from you so let's take it back to Waffle House I want you to paint me how you felt yeah I uh it was on Christmas December 25th 2020 I'll never forget the date um it was just buildup of anxiety and depression over the years and

and I'd had thoughts of taking my own life but I felt like Christmas that day um interactions with friends and family that day just weren't the best and I struggled with feeling loved and I was like this is the most unloved I felt on like a day where you give gifts and you're it's like the season of giving and I'm like this isn't cool and it's like you know you have the thoughts of like oh maybe I'm going to do it like contemplation but I was like this is the day where I'm going to do

it like I'm fed up and I'm just tired of feeling this way I'm tired of feeling unloved maybe it's better if I'm not here maybe the anxiety and depression will go away like I don't know and so after we got done doing Christmas with our families or whatever we came home I love Waffle House Waffle House is my favorite restaurant on the planet hands down and uh it was the only thing open on Christmas like if Waffle House is shut down like the world's actually ending like they're always open like they never ever close and

uh and so I knew it was open and I just told my parents I was like I was like yeah I'm just going to go get Waffle House for a snack but deep down I like set I had everything set like I was set I had it can can am I allowed to get detailed or like how detail however comfortable you are I just like wrote letters I had like letters to my family and stuff like that and like I had like a note with like um password on my phone and just where stuff was

voice memos like all this other stuff and then um I my grandfather um when I was young my other grandfather he used to carry this knife called a hawk Bill knife and it literally the the the blade kind of looks like a eagle's beak like it just kind of Curves and it's like a thick blade and he had given one to me and so I had it and so my my plan was just to take my life with that knife really it's a brutal way to go out brutal but I were you punishing yourself were

you angry with yourself is that why you chose that type of like way I I don't think I I didn't really like I wasn't like trying to punish myself I wasn't like oh I'm just trying to go out painful I think I was just like it was accessible you didn't know any other way it wasn't obvious like it was in my nightstand it was just like I can do this quick and no one's going to question anything like I'm just going to do it and so I went to Waffle House to kind of get like

my last meal and run away from my problems I walk in slam packed everybody's there and I I you know if if if you struggle with anxiety or depression even when you have a hard day sometimes you just don't want to be around people sometimes you just kind of want to be alone and I walk into the busiest restaurant Waffle House I've ever seen in my life and I knew that because I was there alone I wouldn't get to sit at a booth or anything and so I grabbed this random guy like 30 something years

old and I'm like hey I'll pay for your meal if you sit with me I'm just trying to eat right now he's like okay so we sit down pretty quick and as soon as we sit down he starts dumping his life problems on me has nothing to do with Jesus just my wife divorcing me this is my last time with a kid she's taking the kids from me taking my money I got nothing left I'm losing it last Christmas with our family just going going going and I'm like sitting there just thinking you have no

idea what I'm about to do dude and you're complaining to me about like your family situation and this this and that and I'm thinking like I'm about to go home and make a decision that I can't revoke and you're sitting here complaining about this that's what's going through my brain I'm like weighed down sad like Eyes eye bags like sad like my eyelids just sagging not because I'm I'm tired because I'm just you think it's your last day yeah it's just like oh this is really it and he's just talking talking and I'm just trying

to eat my Allstar special I just like get me out of here like I want it's crazy and I make jokes cuz I I deflect but it's it's the perfect storm you know what I'm saying it's the perfect storm so please continue so I'm he's just talking talking talking I'm hearing some not hearing everything just kind of in my own lane and then I just hear him say I love my wife she doesn't feel the same about me there's no growth in a relationship if the love isn't mutual and when he said that it was

just like an arrow struck my heart and all of that head knowledge I had about Jesus was just flashing in my brain scriptures I had heard when I was in you know growing up in church I would memorize the verse of the week so I could get a prize out of the treasure box all these scriptures I'd memorize when I was a little kid flashing through my brain stuff i' learned in school flashing through my brain the gospel finally making sense to me like all these things just Supernatural understanding of like who God is because

he said there's no growth in a relationship if the love isn't mutual and I went man I God I must have felt like God didn't love me because he was pursuing me and I wasn't even giving him a chance to love him back and I never experienced any growth in that relationship because I just didn't have love for him and so I couldn't experience his love because I just wasn't even giving my heart a chance to open up for it I wasn't giving my chance to like receive it and so I'm like sitting there having

this it felt like the whole world stopped and I'm like I like literally I I've never felt this before I literally feel the feeling I felt right now when I when I was sitting there like just so real like I just like feel so bad like when people message me or like when people like talk to me in person they say like man like I just want to like take my own life cuz you know sometimes when people say that and you know like they'll say that to people and sometimes people don't understand but like

it's just real it's so real real feeling and after I have this moment I I just kind of like I kind of freak out because I've never felt anything like it I've never experienced anything like it so I just kind of like throw money on the on the counter like to pay for the meal and I just like walk out and he's freaking out people are freaking out cuz they're like this kid this random guy like blow up like something happen and I like went in my car and I was just like God if you're

real take away my anxiety and depression cuz deep down like I really don't want to do this right now like I don't and I was just like if you're real take away my anxiety and depression and like since that day sitting here no more anxiety or depression and that was like my my crack door to just like get in the way of like man God like you got to be real and so instead of taking my life I gave my life to somebody who wanted it and so that's why I want to tell people about

Jesus not because I'm trying to I'm not trying to like run up my my my cards of like you gave your life to Jesus today check the box give it to me so I can run up my stats so I look good like I I'm not I don't care about that like I I just I got transformed from something that felt incurable and because of that like I want to share that opportunity with people that line you said was I didn't want my life so I gave it to someone that wanted it man it is

such an incredible testimony and it just speaks so loudly on like how pure like your soul is like when we met you yesterday I was like damn dude like you're you're just so genuine and your heart is so beautiful and it's the fact that you were going through all that and the second that you were saved by Jesus the first thing you wanted to do is bring everybody else to him and it just speaks louder than anything how does it feel being where you're at right now I just never thought this was real you know

like feeling loved like I just it it just doesn't feel real to me sometimes you know like all I just wanted to feel was love like I was just everyone's on a quest for love and I was going to cut my journey short and like just moments before like God just stepped in and I'm like I'm so grateful like so thankful and yeah I just don't take it for granted I I I never do I never do it's it's so special to me like I go to that Waffle House all the time and I only

sit in the same seat I sit in the same seat I would love to to go to that Waffle House with you one day I would love for you guys to come that's not the Arizona one right no no no it's in Carterville Georgia love to go there so what was those next few days like after this moment this epic like coming to Jesus moment what was that night what was the following day yeah I I I went on social media the very next day and I was like guys I had this Encounter With Jesus

it was insane I'm going to disappear and try to figure some stuff out while Christmas break so going and then when I come back I'm just going to talk about what I know and so I like locked myself in my room for the rest of Christmas break with a with my Bible cuz I had to have a Bible for school cuz I went to private Christian school and then uh this book that had like basic truths about Christianity and like who God was that like Jesus Is God and the Trinity and like all this stuff

I I wasn't trying to get like theological I just like wanted to make sure I had a foundation of like what I was believing was real and uh how did it feel reading the Bible or those books versus the times you were before like what was the difference and how did that feel you know like it felt like the scripture would come alive dude the the word became flesh dude it's so crazy that you said it exactly like that I would like to just just really quick just tap this in because I know somebody out

there is listening right now and if God forbid you are on the verge of like hey I'm making my exit because I feel like this is my time um before you do that I would like for you to do what he did and give your heart and body to somebody who wants it and I promise you Jesus Christ wants it I promise you he does and I think what we're trained to do in this type of world we live in is be so selfish without even knowing we're selfish um I think truly maybe if you

were calling out to God and he didn't answer you wasn't because your God didn't want to speak to you is because you didn't want him to speak to you I think you didn't want him to speak back I think a lot of people get scared of God himself speaking to you but before you do that choice that's unreversed really really really pray and hope that you you go and and just fully fully ask God to open up your eyes and ears and be a man who's capable of hearing the Lord before you do that because

it would be really unfortunate for you to leave this earth without hearing the one who created it thank you so much for getting so vulnerable And discussing that no thank you for asking yeah I just I kind want to be an open book you guys really encouraged me last night like yeah I think people people a lot of people think that they're alone in the battle and I think that's the encouragement it's like you're not alone um and even like when I like that night like that was like one of the first truths I got

to understand was like no one understands me better than Jesus because he felt everything that I'm feeling right now leading to the cross and I I truly believe the reason that my anxiety and depression went away was because I believe that it died 2,000 years ago on the cross and I just didn't know until that and I like one of the first scriptures I read after was uh in John 8 where it says who the son sets free is free indeed amen and I was just like man I feel like a a lot of like

a lot of Christians were living like yeah I'm a Christian like I'm saved I'm going to heaven but I'm just going to struggle with this like thing forever and that's that's like someone getting out of jail and walking in here and sitting on the couch with them having an ankle monitor on like they're not really free m like they think they are but they're not really free and I was like a lot of people still live in Bound and I I you know I I had all that head knowledge and the 18 inches between my

head and my heart finally connected and I got a chance I I read John 8 and I read Psalm 23 The Good Shepherd the Lord's my shepherd I shall not want and I'm like it makes me like it it's just like powerful to think like we we criticize people we get angry at people because of their mess ups and this this and that and I was beating myself up so hard like you guys hit the nail on the head last night you guys encouraged me you were just like dude you care so much and just

like take a breather like it's okay and it is we got to remind ourselves that we're not the hero I love the way you put it like the 18 inches between your heart and your head and it's the same as like you're saying you had to fake it till you finally understood it and it's dude it's just so and that's why it's so cool like hearing testimonies because I feel like it only makes like personally like my faith stronger because I'm like yes that's exactly how like I felt that's exactly how like other people feel

and it's that like you know it in here and you act as if like okay this is what I should be doing but there's that you miss that inner connection that feeling of really truly understanding it and then when you finally do it just like it's like the Holy Spirit just like fires through you and that is like the most incredible feeling and I know like I yearned for that for so long cuz I would see in other people you know and I would be like man like what is that like there's that something like

you know why am I not feeling it why I'm not connecting to it and when you finally get that connection it feels like the world's biggest gift ever and so like yeah like you hearing it and explaining it is incredible C can we talk about what we were discussing at the at dinner when I was like hey you got to cut this out yeah because the you know it's so funny cuz I was but when we got in the car just to be open um when I saw you in my heart I was like okay

I got to go have dinner with this kid and I got to talk with him because I I had mentors in this industry Logan taught me a lot of things and Joe Koy taught me a lot of things and there's a lot of I learned that God could bring people to give you wisdom and when I met you I was like I don't know my heart's calling out to this kid like I I got to meet him maybe there's something that I should be telling him and when I sat across from you I saw a

younger me doing the same younger me things that I was doing and I was like no no no no no no no and why I got so Stern and I got so sad afterwards you give me as Bell like I I was like why was I so tough on this kid like I just met him I should have relaxed a little bit um that's why I meant a lot when you called me and you're like hey that really helped because bro was weighing on me and I think the reason why I kind of pressed into

you is because the devil only has one tool in his Arsenal and it's lying and when you were before you were saved you were lying to yourself and lying to others about how your heart felt and you were hiding your problems and you took that practice with this new life that you have and when you're trying to hide these problems it's like whoa whoa you're hiding the problem that God solved and nobody could clean up and learn from you if you're hiding what God's miracles did I I know like I was like telling you guys

I just wish people understood my heart and I wish people understood me and and like I I this morning like I was just thinking about how much freedom I experienced like there was just like so much like like yeah I want I yeah I want to live righteous I want to follow Jesus just like I want to honor him with my life but like I do mess up and that's the reality I I I get frustrated quick sometimes I try I still sometimes fall into the people pleasing aspect even even that was still something I

did before I was a Christian even sometimes I still try to people please and I don't want to do that before it was for you but now you're like doing it for God yeah oh I don't want to look back cuz I don't want to represent God wrong but it's like n dude like read the gospel anybody who knows God knows that you're not a great person right and you got your own problems but we have Grace and this is why like we have Grace with our neighbors I think that people that are rude and

and and conquering and evil to other humans is because they don't know how to deal with their own demons 100% do you get what I'm saying I what you're saying they just hate themselves so much that they hate the person next to them but the person that knows how to take accountability and work on himself is so generous to work on the person next to him this morning I'm just like I finally felt that freedom for the first time you guys encourag me with of like yeah I just like I'm like it's okay hey I

beat myself up I'm so hard on myself so hard on myself and I wasn't you know like when I keep that in the dark like genuinely pure reasons like I'm representing God like I just want to like be a good good influence and good light for people and even though I still struggled with frustration wasn't open about it if I got frustrated even about the smallest thing it would just it I would just feel so much 10 times more shame because I felt like that the things I left I I was telling Josh about this

this morning like the things that I left in the dark I gave the devil license to use against me ooh bro it was like you know the Bible says that he's like a roaring lion and this morning I I just got out of bed and I'm like you're not you're not a lion it says you're like one you're just a kitty cat in the corner with a megaphone amplifying my problems like you're just like you just don't mean anything to me right now like I'm going to go and I'm just going to like shout from

the rooftops I like that so encourag 20 years old man 20 20 years old hilarious because he's like I'm going to kill myself and then like now you're so young and he have such a long life so like the man who's going to kill himself why why did he want to kill himself because the devil knew what God was cooking up the devil knew listen if the devil's attacking you feel good feel special listen we're not attacking like if you go to war you're not going to go beat up on somebody that had no nothing

to hand like you know like if we're going to war right now we're going to go to war to Russia we're not going to go to like some small country that has no Army beat them down we it's meaningless we got to get to the problem this other Army could be problem they could take us out so if the devil's on you you're a problem you're a problem you are a problem if you are sitting at home and you're like well no God wants nothing to do with me now but there could be a knock

on your door any moment just like this gentleman right here one second he's about to order a special from Waffle House and kill himself and the devil is like yes let's go this guy's not going to be making videos converting millions of people to turn to Jesus that's real so when you are going out and about right and you want to go talk to strangers about Jesus and what do you do to prepare yourself to talk to them do you have a routine do you armor yourself up yeah that's a really great question I think

um I mean most of I definitely read the word and pray before a lot of my prayers just looks like uh God send us to the people that need to hear us today e we'll go out in the street for hours and only talk to two people seriously like we went to Hollywood last week and only talk to three people and it's packed because it's summer and all these tours here we only talk to three people and one one guy we talked to a month prior and he was totally turned off to Jesus and we

went back up and talked to him again oh yeah say hey where you at he was like not there brother we're like all right like you know this what it is but um pray and read sometimes we'll fast like um Josh and I I can talk about it now because it's over we did a fay water fast we went to Marty GR in New Orleans and like we did fed day water fast like leading up to it and and we just saw God do crazy stuff and reach crazy stuff like a gang member had gotten

shot in the foot and uh had pain in his foot and we prayed for his foot and the pain went away and he freaked out he was like you got superpowers bro and I was like I just got the Holy Spirit dude he was freaking out I think I watched that video it was dude the guy was like freaking out he was like what the heck what the the heck like you got superpowers and we're like no dude like it it was just amazing pray and read the word um but we it just looks like

asking like God who who do you want us to talk to today like that's it I think a lot of people like if a lot of people saw how we filmed the videos I think they'd be like what are these guys doing they're not talking to anyone just holding hands praying and they're like all right let's get game on bro game on game on go to him and we just go like and just no shame Josh is just standing there with the camera just like right there 3T from him and like but it it it's

so cool and you know I think I I was super encouraged cuz like the past month like and I I I want to clarify like we're not going out there trying to convert people to make our numbers go up we're just out trying to have respectful conversations because we want people to put their faith and trust in Jesus because they want to we're not trying to force anyone for the past like month two months we would go out and um no one was putting their faith and trust in Jesus and you notice some people they're

like ah this is a bunch of L's like we're taking L's right now but the conversations that we were having and putting on the internet thousands of people would message me and say we went out and and into our city because we saw you going amen and I'm like okay like the fruit here isn't people surrendering to Jesus the past two months the fruit here is people getting fired up for sharing their faith like that that was powerful also you you do you do what I do and it's just like you're so concerned of what

they think because you want to make sure that they know you're coming from from a good place so that way they could feel comfortable and that way they know you're honest and you're coming from the heart this is what I want you to practice and I pray that I take this because I I have a hard time doing this truth will come out we shouldn't be worried about that the truth is going to come out which means we're good we worry about it no we should let them worry about it the ones that are doing

things behind people's back the ones that are lying they're cheating they're abusing let those people sit around being like oh I hope this no no if you don't understand what I'm doing now fine I don't care cuz one day you'll find out that what I was doing was true do you get what I'm saying yeah that's so encouraging I feel like the past few weeks like I think I shared with you guys like I was telling my girlfriend I was like yeah I just don't like I feel like I'm not educated like I feel like

all I know is the gospel when I'm going out there and I'm like you know I feel like these guys are going to ask me a question and I'm not going to know how to respond and I'm going to blow it and it's just like my fault like I'm just going to totally drop the ball on this but she was just like encouraging me she was like yeah that's all you need to know it's like like you're good you know it's like that's all you need to know um you like your prayer for them is

not going to save them the gospel is yep and that's all you got to know and if they say something that you don't know just be like I don't know like it's just like it's cool and I was like dang I guess you're right and so it was just like so much of a freedom and release do you ever get bored with movies and TV shows now that you're like super into the gospel um do I ever get bored oh uh I kind of just watch the same movies there's definitely like um stuff I don't

listen to and watch anymore because it doesn't sit well with you anymore yeah well it's just like I the my eyes and ears are like the windows of my soul and what I consume I feel like it's what I become 100% say in the gopel yeah I'm just like I I don't want to get anywhere near that and I would even find myself like even after I became a Christian where I was like oh I feel like this depression I used to have is like kind of creeping up on me why and then I would

see what music I'm listening to and I'm like can't listen that right now music doesn't have an invitation to your soul it doesn't need it you play it it goes right into your soul bro yeah it was crazy I was like okay I'm just going to cut this music off and boom and I changed like what I was listening to and I was like oh that's just crazy how just changing what music I listen to was it just changed everything I mean it makes sense bro it's in your environment go ahead where did you find

that like knowledge to be able to be like okay I need to reflect on what's around me you know what I mean because sometimes certainly when you're you're new in your faith and you're already telling yourself like at that time okay I'm starting to get anxiety again what am I doing wrong like oh I'm listening to this music and I feel like normally most people and I know I do myself too I'd be like a man it's fine it's whatever like it's just music like it's not a big deal so like what made you like

gain that kind of like wisdom I think I was like so shocked that my depression anxiety got taken away that when I would sense it creeping back up on me like that old BR is dead in the ground there's not enough shovels I can dig it up and so when I feel it creeping up on me I'm like am I trying to shake a dead body right now or and like what's happening and I would just like man I want to know what's going on I know it's not me anymore um so I would say

oh I would just like research like oh okay what why is this happening there and I would go like there's this website called like open bibleinfo.com and it's like what does the Bible say about blank and it's just got a search bar and I would type in what does it say about this boom boom boom boom and it it would pull up all these scriptures like boom boom boom and I would just like try to figure it out but I also just I also feel like a lot of people don't have common sense and I

just just like having a common sense on my situation like okay I'm sad and I listen to a lot of sad music so I'm just going to cut the sad music out I think that it's a little bit of both I think the day that you ask God to take it away forever God says okay I'm going to exchange this with a different mindset yeah so I think that before you were just like you weren't you could have reflected just that like way but you didn't yeah I think now is because God gave you the

wisdom to reflect you know what saying he gave you the tools to be like I'm not going to take away anxiety away from you completely you're going to have to learn how to deal with it I will get rid of it complet by you practicing how to get rid of it do you get what I'm saying yeah yeah like renewing my mind my mind was so dirty and it was like like what yeah like researching the scriptures like okay this is what the Bible says like it's cool like yeah yeah like I get it so

I I think it was your faith that Jesus took care of it and it was your actions that walked in faith well so okay so then let me ask you both of you this if somebody knows this right they're told oh but you just have to have faith but they don't know what that feels like to have faith they think they're having faith Faith they think that they are trusting but maybe they're not and they're not seeing anything happen in their life and they're like no I am I'm telling him I I'm I'm having faith

but nothing is moving or working what do you tell that person yeah I I feel like faith is persistently pursuing God despite your circumstance and I think a lot of people don't give themselves credit and realize that sometimes they do have faith even when they feel like they don't like there were moments that I felt like I have I didn't have faith but but I was still praying for it why would my heart cry up that prayer If I Didn't Have Faith like oh I don't have faith but I'm still reading my Bible even when

I feel like I can't hear him because I'm reading him right now he wrote me my love letter I can hear him I don't feel like it I don't feel like I have faith I can hear him or oh like yeah it was it's just persistently pursuing him and I feel like a lot of people don't give themselves credit like I like even me like when I would feel those moments and God would just be like look at where you believed me here like look you did that right here and I also think that's the

power That's The Power of a testimony like you were saying how like Bryce you can encourage someone with your story because someone's going through and they don't have the faith like Revelation says the testimony of Jesus is the spirit of Prophecy meaning like when you release a testimony in the air you're asking God to do it again in that person's life with more power like man like if you don't have the faith like let me show you how God's changed my life and maybe that'll stir up your faith and some people may not be able

to correl that with faith maybe they're just like oh for some reason I feel this inner unction to just open my bible for the first time in a long time but God I just don't have faith like I don't for some reason I just feel like being slow to anger and quick to listen and slow to speak but I just don't feel like I have faith well then why are you trying to follow the word if you if you say you don't have faith like if you believe those words you're going to attempt to do

it and people just do it and oh like I don't have faith I don't think they correlate it I think that's what you're saying like the faith without works is dead like we don't have to work to get into heaven but our actions show that we actually have faith and I I I question that a lot of times like God do I have faith and God's just like hey just like check your heart like look at what you've been doing you're asking me like you're telling me that you don't have faith but like as far

as I'm concerned I see it right here and he's just like he's just such a good shepherd like he doesn't beat a sheep he's just like like leaning them like this like Oh no you're good man like you just that's a really good point of view I'm just curious because I know like the questions that like I would have before you know and now I'm like and you guys are good at explaining like that and giving advice for people and so I think it's interesting seeing like that point of view if you have a problem

with your faith you don't know who your savior is because I never worry about my mom becoming a good mother I don't worry about my dad being a good dad I see from the evidence of their history and their patterns they're good parents so I'm not going to sit here and worry about what my parents are doing if you're sitting here worrying about what God is doing then you don't know him and you have not acknowledged what he's already done in your life all right okay so let's talk about some positive things dude like what

what you got going on now that you're excited about is there any projects you got going on is there like what do you have goals like do you put in like that you want to yeah I mean this year we're just trying to reach 300 million people with the gospel through like digital Ministry um so just like that's why we're trying to like put out these videos um cuz you know like you can look at like a statistic but like the effect of someone being encouraged and then them sharing their faith like that's discipleship like

that's just that ripple effect of God knows how many more people are being impacted you know that's that's a goal we're uh we're planning on dang I hope this doesn't sabotage our plan we're planning on going to The Burning Man festival um that'll be you guys think it's hot here just wait till you go to the next place super judgmental when does that happen trading water for you to read a Bible verse bring a bunch of yo dude you should do that bro like hand out you should be the Living Water dude Burning Man they're

all so excited about getting naked and doing drugs that they forget to bring water you should and I I'll even pay for it if you guys can't Finance it like you should come with trucks of water and when people are thirsty don't ask them for anything just say hey Jesus wanted us to give you this water today and imagine when they're so thirsty and they taste that water they're going to be like and you should look at them in the soul and be like you see that feeling imagine what your soul will feel like dang

drink living water my friend O Come on can I come I'm about to start yeah you should come I'm not going to pass out water I'm just going to be rolling out there just I like that idea we did a thing at Marty gro we made these sweatshirts that said free spiritual readings on it and people this like lady comes to me she's like yeah I want one give me one I was like okay instead of tapping into that Crystal that that lady's doing on that desk I'm actually just going to ask God to tell

me what he thinks about you and we're just going to do it like that and we just use it as an excuse to pray for people people come up to us and be like yeah I want give me a reading brother like here's my hand and I'm like okay Jesus thank you so much for this person like just like just like just like doing like silly stuff like that or um so yeah we we just like have fun with it we we we were trying to plan stuff like that like going to Burning Man and

Marty Gro and we want to go to those dark areas but like you know those those areas are dark just like you know your local Hometown and then we just want to go to these cities and stuff we you said something about the ministry going out of the country I love what you said could you say that again oh yeah I just feel like a lot of missionaries leave the country when America's just as sick you know like a lot of people look at like the physical needs and go oh okay there's like third world

countries out here these need these people need food and water and like something we got convicted on we love praying for sick people broken bones like we think that that is just God uses it to soften people's hearts that are just like intellectually God's not real God heals them of something they're just like what the heck just happened you know what I mean but we got convicted because I was going in there more worried about praying for someone's sickness than giving them the gospel MH and people were still leaving sick even if they got healed

and all these people want to leave the country and go into these foreign countries and say well I'm going to serve these third world countries because they need the gospel but their Nextdoor Neighbors on the way to hell like that's just that's just the reality and it's like what are we going to do about our neighbor like where's our neighbor where's our neighbor like you know love hopes all things in people love is patient and kind First Corinthians and we forget about America we forget about our college campuses you know sometimes like I I I

got a message the other day with this dude was like I will drop everything I'll drop out of he was like I'll drop out of college I'll drop out of this just to come follow you around and see what you guys are about and I'm thinking dude your college campus is probably the biggest Mission field ever right like are you kidding me that's so such a great POV dude because everybody wants to get up and leave and go do something for God and God's like hey man I put you there for a reason yeah just

go on your own that was the dream I had about America was I this is crazy this is why we started doing what we did I had a dream one night where I'm in my grandma's house my absolute saint of a grandmother she comes up to me and she says hey you need to talk to that man at the table over there and I go okay Grandma I walk to the table sit down this old man's there his name's Lauren Cunningham I only knew him because there's a Ministry um that does missions all across the

globe fantastic Ministry by the way I love missionaries I love it when people go out of the country I think it's amazing I I love when people go to these especially these very um intense count countries with the gospel like I love it I think it's powerful this man that started this ministry had been to every country and continent on the plan on the planet even Antarctica he just stepped foot in Antarctica just to say he went there like he's been everywhere in this country I sit down at this table and he goes Bryce you

don't need to leave in the C you don't need to leave the country you need to stay in your own backyard and I woke up weeping I was like already crying all he said was the man that's visited every country and continent on the planet in my dream goes you don't need to leave the country just stay in your own backyard oh so we start making these videos hey so encouraged from South Africa your videos have have encouraged me to go in the in into the streets of South Africa and share the gospel wow hey

we're in the Netherlands we've got a hold of even the Amish I had an Amish dude come up to me and go bro I love your videos I'm like how the heck are you watching my videos he's like I sin and get on YouTube once in a while he was like he was like I sneak watch it on a laptop I'm like that's their porn you're their Porn Bro fun it's just like crazy like like people we don't have to leave the country like back in the day they used to fill stadiums we can reach

stadiums through a phone screen and people are like I don't know what to do and it's just like man you can just like focus on your neighbor like that is so interesting because and I think and it literally always comes back to our pride it's like people you know what I mean as this is difficult because it is important to go and like wherever your heart feels convicted to go and help then you need to go there and help but at the same time it's like we wake up and we're like I want to do

something huge so in order to do something huge I have to go and like have to go somewhere crazy but it's so true if you just like start where just where you are you can make the biggest impact I love when people go to places that they feel called to I want people like if I'm a Christian and love hopes all things and I believe the best in people someone genuinely feels called to go to a third world country I'm going to get behind that I'm going to support that but I just feel like that's

the that is the idea of what it looks like to be a missionary or serve Jesus is go to a third world country but I'm like I I I'm just like man America's falling apart like if anything like the gospel can save this like we can do it and everyone can play a part and everyone anyone watching listening you know you guys do it like you guys come in here you share Jesus boldly you talk about like the one I respect so much that you guys just share like the things that you struggle with and

that's what you encourage me with and that's the thing I respect the most about you guys and I know tons of people respect that but here and sharing about Jesus in here impacting people all across the globe you're reaching the nations from your house it's powerful like that's Ministry Ministry Ministry is is becoming the janitor at your high school cleaning the toilet when no one wants to there's this guy named brother Lawrence from the 1600s he was a Christian monk that that worked in this Monastery off the land you had to take like a boat

to get to this Monastery and he was known all across the globe powerful leaders religious leaders um leaders of countries would hit up brother Lawrence and go brother Lawrence we need your wisdom we need you to help us make this world altering decision and brother Lawrence would say I'll help you but you have to come to me I committed work to the Lord so if you need my help like you have to come visit me I told the L I promised the Lord I would do this work for him so they come and visit him

these powerful world leaders and religious leaders would come and he would sit them on the floor of the monastery while he mopped that's the work he promised to do to the Lord was mop the floors of the monastery and his ministry has impacted me to day it's 2024 yeah yeah it's an ego thing I got to go do the biggest thing and God's like I'm doing it I'm using you your utensil you're nothing right just let me work through you because you like this is what I always say this is a joke I when people

congratulate me and they're like oh thank you for doing what you're doing if they only knew that I was the reason why they probably didn't get that message sooner like if you're thinking me you're thinking the wrong partner because I'm always the anchor of the thing I'm always ruining it I'm either talking too much or I'm bringing my own ego but I'll never forget this I was arguing with my mom and me and my aunt had an issue and then I'm just I'm just irritated because growing up I never had problems with my family ever

so like now that I'm having it I'm like what the heck is going on bro so annoying and then I realized I go oh this is my boot camp think about this I can't run away from these people these are my family so if you're if you have your own family right and they have their own issues and you're like you wrote them off you haven't extended from your lobby you were born in that family and God wants to put training wheels on you giving you your family your uncle's a drunk and he's annoying well

guess what that's your uncle so how are you going to go preach to somebody else to get sober when you can't even talk to your own Uncle that's real do you get what I'm saying oh I don't know how to communicate with my Mom how are you going to communicate to somebody else's mom D so true what did you tell me the other day you look good no no no when and you um CU I want you to say when you said oh I mean I kind of just said it I just said it like

I said it in a cooler way to you I said I asked God to be a leader and he said start by Leading your home dang that that's actually something I need to repent of you need to chill out bro I need to repent like dude you need to chill out over there dude I I need to repent for real I I uh yeah I I got rocked this morning I just I I'm leading people on the internet and I've done a poor job of leading my friends family and my relationship and I just like

need to publicly repent for that cuz that's the last thing I want to do is lead all these people on the internet and then go home and be a bad friend son and you know husband in the future like that's the last thing I want to do um then it's all over it's good yeah don't let that weigh on you the devil's about I can see your eyes theil like yeah you're piece of crap for doing this and do no no no no chill the fact that you felt that good for you now what you

do to get rid of the anxiousness you feel ask God this day forward help me get this done and also take away this pain in my heart because that's going to slow you down think about it if you're working on something if me and you both are building a wall right and you and you me and you both mess up each time but each time I mess up I go whoops all right and then I I just put the next one and I keep going but then you're like whoops why would I do that I

am so stupid I shouldn't even hold this block mom you wouldn't believe this today I'm sitting no no Mom stop no I can't even I'm an idiot mom I couldn't even and I'm already done with my block I'm done with my wall and you can't get over the fact that you messed up right here but also let me tell you I think that it's you were arming up and you were prepping yourself and getting all this wisdom so that you would be able to be strong enough to then go back to your family and give

them this wisdom because I'm telling you how you feel right now is I've felt this so many times and I don't know why when it comes to your family it's like it almost feels like the task is just so big and it feels so much more heavy and maybe because it means so much more in a sense that it's like you almost want to toss it to the side and not even tackle it but don't feel bad at all and don't feel like you failed them you did not fail them you've been prepping yourself in

order to be able to go back and serve them thank you that's encouraging I'm going to make a t-shirt saying that's encouraging cuz when he says that I feel like it was I I actually I feel like yeah it was encouraging huh yeah but when you say that though I'm like that's such a good way of we talked about that today we're in the bathroom and like I love when he says encourage such a good response you know that's funny well dude thank you so much for coming here and and sharing your story uh I

I am very excited to do more episodes I feel like we're going to be good friends we're going to go turn up and burning man Burning Man and do so much have signs like you think you're burning man just wait like just that's crazy that's crazy I would actually love for you to come it'd be awesome no I wouldn't take it seriously I'd be joking the whole time people I don't know we'll show the video after this no honestly like my friends they when they went there just a party and I was like that that

just seems like hell bro like I don't even want to be there and you're calling there my man do your thing you're G to bring some your thing man you how you look at the other people like why do they go to third little countries like I'm not getting vaccinated and I'm not going to burning man dude I'm not doing any of that yeah you do you do that over there you keep killing it over there right here the Lord has put it in your heart my friend not mine uh but seriously keep bringing your

light everywhere and thank you so much for sharing yeah man for real thank you br encouraging I want to I want to encourage you guys though cuz you guys have encour me the past 24 hours that we've gotten to hang out like I just respect everything that you guys do and you guys are just so bold and it's really powerful I know you guys have tremendously blessed me just with our interactions but also like um even even prior you guys are just making an impact on I know my my friends and and and people that

I know and just you know seeing people impacted by what you guys are doing is really special and so I'm encouraged by you guys thank you for being obedient and and starting the show this is encouraging I I am encouraged by you and this is the best part by your actions you didn't even need to say anything dude and I was encouraged by you and and it falls in the category of my favorite quote preach the gospel every day to everyone you know and when it's very necessary use words my man your actions are speaking

louder than your words we are heavily heavily encouraged by you you're 20 years old and you're speaking to me like you're 55 I'm seeing God work through you from your wisdom and your ability to forgive and move on and and you know we got to dive a little deeper in your life and I just want to let you know like you the things that you don't even show and what you handle it and how you handle it bro like I would be very excited if my son was had your heart i' be I would be

I would I would trade everything to God I would I would say take everything take my health take my wheels take my houses take everything just give me a son who has a Heart Like Yours a million per that's so that should say a bro that's encouraging thank you like should I say it say it it's just how I feel thank you guys so much for watching today's episode make sure you guys go check out his stuff I'll put it in the description uh go support him go show him some love and uh I'm so

excited to see what God does for you man uh and I'll see you guys next time