Porn ruined my life...

I was a 15-year-old boy and I had a girlfriend now this wasn't my first girlfriend but it was the first girlfriend that was willing to do hey you guys know what I mean right she was willing to do it so me being a 15-year-old boy with a super high libido a testosterone level through the roof I was super excited that I was finally going to do it for the first time I was super excited about the fact that this girl was my girlfriend now she wasn't just willing to do it but for some reason she

let me know through Amazon chat and from other people that she was an absolute freak and she was willing to do things that most adult women don't want to do and so I I don't know how she got these things into her mind why she wanted to do these things but hey that's beside the point me being a 15-year-old boy I think you can relate to me that with a 15-year-old testosterone level I was super super excited and I couldn't wait to actually start doing these things with her right I mean hey do you blame

me I was I was a 15-year-old boy that's all you think about at that age right so I was super excited there came a night when we were home alone my parents weren't home the moment was finally there I'm not going to go too much into detail because I want to make sure that this video doesn't get demonetized and also I'm not really sure about the legality of discussing teenage romances but hey you guys get the point the moment was there it was about to happen my body was filled with adrenaline I was super excited

you know what happened I couldn't get it up the moment was there I was about to lose my virginity the time had come but I struggled to perform and I instantly knew and this is the worst part I instantly knew that the reason that I couldn't get it up is because I I had watched too much porn because I knew that when I watched porn I noticed this while I was watching porn that the things that I watched had gotten more specific over time and that I started to need these specific things to get aroused

and that if I would click on any random video I wouldn't really get aroused and often I couldn't even get an erection anymore so I had sort of brainwashed myself I had reconditioned myself to become dependent on specific categories now they were relatively mild at first it was like I think it was like amateur and mil and big ass or something you know like the relatively mild categories like mil and step sister or something that the stuff that people watch right but my preferences started to become so specific that I had to watch these videos

and if it wasn't one of these videos if it wasn't one of my current flavors of the month I couldn't get it up and so I made the connection and I told myself hey wait a second if I struggle to get it up from any random video If a random girl doing sexy things in a video doesn't arous me anymore then maybe this is also the reason why I struggle to get it up from a real person because a real person isn't the same as my current flavor of month fetish and things got even worse

when I was a bit older because I had this phase in my life where I started to watch even more porn because there weren't any girls in my life and all I did was just isolate myself play World of Warcraft and eat junk food basically that was my life when I was a teenager I was relatively lucky that I was attractive enough and some girls were into me and I ended up having some girlfriends but in my late teens and early 20s I wasn't that lucky anymore because I just isolated and neglected myself and so

I had this big phase where there were absolutely no girls in my life and so from my current knowledge of what porn does to you I had no reason to not watch porn right because I wasn't having sex so I watched a load of porn and the preferences that I had became even more specific so specific that they developed into like actual fetishes you know like the very kinky stuff that makes you question what you're doing and makes you feel ashamed of yourself so before it was relatively mild you know it's mil big ass stuff

like that it's specific stuff that you need but it's not very very kinky fetish stuff but the more por I started to watch I noticed that my preferences became more and more specific until I started to watch stuff that really really make me feel ashamed of myself make me feel really bad and not only was this affecting my sexual performance now again I didn't actually have sex at that age but I am 100% sure that if I would have sex at that age that I had the same that I would have the same problem as

when I was 15 years old but then 100 times worse I I'm very sure that I wouldn't have been able to get it up but not only did it affect my sexual performance but having these actual fetishes started to really affect my confidence as well because you question what you're doing right and you start to think of yourself as some kind of a freak you start to lose your confidence because of it because you're watching weird right and I I guess I was always realistic enough to understand that I had conditioned myself into these fetishes

by watching more and more porn and going deeper and deeper into the fetishes but at the same time it made me feel like it made me feel horrible but it got even even worse than that because I didn't know it back then but watching porn watching a lot of porn also really numbs a thing called dopamine it numbs your dopamine system and your dopamine system is the thing that drives your life's reort and motivation systems right you might have heard about this before now I didn't know it back then that it was called dopamine but

I definitely recognized myself in the symptoms of having a num dopamine system I had no motivation to work towards my goals I wasn't really having a lot of fun doing the fun things in my life anymore and when I tried to do something that was productive I did not really get that sense of satisfaction where I felt proud of myself and I felt like doing something productive all that I think about is just ah I can't wait till I can quit doing this productive thing and I can start up the video games again but when

I started up the video games again I I was actually having that much fun my whole life became kind of like like a semide depressed existence and so if I think back about it right now porn was affecting my life on so so many different levels it was literally ruining my life I had no motivation to work towards my goals even the fun things in my life weren't fun anymore I couldn't get my dick up if I were to try it with the real person I couldn't even get my dick up from random porn video

but I need to watch these very specific kinky fetish things and because of that I had a very very negative self-image and I had no confidence at all it literally ruined my life without really really realizing it and it was sort of by accident that I discovered what can happen to your life if you quit porn cuz there came a point in my life where I started to play online poker I thought that would be a good idea CU I was used to grinding video games all day right and now I could grind poker and

hopefully make some money and I could do it in the comfort of my own home and I didn't have to get a job and uh interact with other people right so I felt like that would be like a good life decision for make for me to make at that point in my life I started to play online poker and as sort of a side effect of playing poker so much because I was really hardcore when it comes to Poker I ended up just not happen it to porn that much anymore and I discovered that if

I didn't do it for like a week or two weeks the faps that I would have were actually much better than the faps I had when I had faap every day and it was not just the fact that it felt better physically you know the actual physical sensation but I also noticed that even after like not doing it for two weeks that I didn't really need to watch the hardcore fetish stuff anymore but I could just see a random attractive girl and that attractive girl would actually turn me on and I could fap to just

the fantasy or an image of an attractive girl and I'd actually have a better fap than the faps that I would have to the hardcore fetish stuff when I was a porn addict and so Not only was this a better physical sensation to have but it was also a much better mental experience because it made me feel a lot better about myself and it made me feel a lot more confident about what I was doing I was sort of resetting my sexuality I actually felt like a healthy normal human male again and as sort of

a side effect of that of only fapping once every two weeks or something I also started to notice that whenever I did start fapping again and keep in mind that when I say I did start fapping again it wasn't just once that I do it after two weeks but it was more like several days where I do it like all day long or at least several times a day right you guys know what I'm talking about most of us have probably experienced that I noticed that when I had these days where I was faing all

the time again that I didn't really have the motivation or the energy to grind on poker all day long I started to feel less confident I started to have less fun in the things that I did I started to sort of fall back into the same feeling that I had before when I was was in like the lowest lows in my life and then I discovered that whenever I quit watching porn again for 2 weeks or sometimes even longer because I noticed that it make me feel good so I did it for like 3 weeks

four weeks several months sometimes I noticed that when I quit watching porn I started to feel really really good again my motivation to work towards my goals returned the fun that I had in life returned I could get satisfaction from doing produ Ive things again I felt confident I felt good about myself everything in my life that I'd been missing for so long had sort of returned to me because I quit watching porn porn was holding me back on so many different ways and I didn't really fully realize it all that time and after a

while the nofap video started to become a thing on YouTube and I saw them and I thought yes that is me that is exactly what happened to me and I knew that it was true and I knew that it wasn't some sort of a placebo effect because I had actually experienced all of these things without ever hearing about them I'd never heard about the word NOAB I never seen a NOAB video I sort of just accidentally discovered all of these effects myself and so now I had this this confirmation that I wasn't alone that there

are many other people who have experienced it is but porn can really really mess your life up it's going to differ from person to person I'm not saying that what happened to me is happening to everyone you might not be as affected by porn as I was but there are countless of other people in the world who've experienced the exact same thing as I have experienced if you watch too much porn this can happen to you the good news is and that's why I'm creating this video to give you some hope the good news is

that if you quit watching it these effects can reverse and you can get back all of the things that you're missing right now you can get back that motivation you can get back that fun that you get out of life you can get back your confidence and you can get back your erection quality oh uh by the way guys that story from when I was 15 years old I didn't tell you guys yet but I quit watching porn obviously CU I knew that it was porn and it took me like 2 weeks and then it

it worked again now I might have been lucky that I was young and that my mind wasn't that corrupted yet that my fetishes fetishes were relatively mild but yeah back then with the the brainwashing that I had done so far at that age it took me about two weeks and it was diamonds again and I had a pretty fun time with that girl as you can imagine but that's not the point of this video I'm not trying to brag about a girlfriend that I had when I was 15 the point point of this video is

to well I guess warn you what can happen again can happen I'm not saying this is happening to everyone right now but what can happen if you watch too much porn this has happened to me and it's happening to a lot of other guys and to also give you some hope that if you are already experiencing these effects that they can go away if you quit watching porn and things are going to be okay again okay now if you struggle to quit porn because there is a lot that you can say about quitting porn it's

it's easier set than done I mean it's not hard when you know how to do it but yeah you know a lot of guys struggle with it I struggle with it myself as well I know what it's like so if you're struggling with it right now I have a free community on school called the reclaim your life Community now in this community you'll get access to a free quitting born mini course I hope that that course teaches you something that you didn't know yet that can really help you ahead I person personally think that it

really sort of addresses the problem of why so many people struggle to quit I mean of course I personally think that because I created the course myself but yeah the the idea of the course is to help you understand why so many people struggle to quit and what the things are that you really need to do if you really want to quit and finally break free from this addiction now in this community you don't just get access to that course but you get access to other many courses as well and there's also a discussion section

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