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I always thought of myself as a devoted wife and mother my marriage wasn't perfect but it was stable predictable my husband and I had fallen into a routine of polite indifference over the years we lived together raised our kids together but somewhere along the way the spark that once connected us had faded into an unspoken distance I didn't mind I told myself it was normal just part of growing older together my son Ethan had recently turned 21 one and his group of friends practically lived at our house loud laughter and the clinking of beer bottles

echoed through our living room most weekends but I didn't mind it was comforting to see Ethan happy and surrounded by people who cared about him among them was a young man named Ryan who stood out for reasons I couldn't quite put my finger on Ryan was tall with sandy blonde hair and an easygoing charm that seemed to light up the room he was always polite and respectful but there was a quiet confidence about him that made me notice him in a way I probably shouldn't have at 24 he was barely older than Ethan but there

was something about him something magnetic it all started one lazy Saturday afternoon Ethan and his friends were out by the pool laughing and tossing a football around I was in the kitchen preparing snacks for them when Ryan walked in dripping wet and shirtless Mrs Carter he said flashing me that disarming smile do you need any help I waved him off trying to keep my eyes on the platter of sandwiches I was arranging no thank you Ryan you should go back and enjoy yourself but he didn't leave instead he leaned against the counter watching me with

an intensity that made my pulse Quicken you always take such good care of everyone he said softly you deserve to relax too his words caught me off guard and for a moment I forgot how to breathe it it wasn't just what he said it was the way he said it his voice low and sincere as if he saw something in me that I hadn't seen in myself for years I brushed it off laughing nervously that's what moms do I replied trying to keep the conversation light but the way he looked at me made it impossible

to ignore the unspoken tension hanging in the air over the next few weeks I found myself noticing Ryan more and more the way his laughter filled the room room the way he always found an excuse to linger in the kitchen when I was there I told myself it was harmless a silly Crush that I would never act on but deep down I knew there was more to it than that then one evening everything changed Ethan had gone out with the rest of his friends but Ryan stayed behind claiming he wasn't feeling well I offered to

make him some tea and sat with him in the living room the house unusually quiet without the usual chaos of of Young Voices as we talked I realized how easy it was to open up to him he listened in a way my husband hadn't in years his eyes never leaving mine I told him about my frustrations my fears the loneliness I hadn't even admitted to myself and when I finished he reached out and took my hand you're incredible Mrs Carter he said his voice barely above a whisper you deserve to feel alive before I could

respond he leaned in and kissed me softly at first then with a hunger that left me breathless every rational thought screamed at me to stop to pull away but I couldn't for the first time in years I felt wanted desired alive we pulled apart just as the front door opened and Ethan's voice called out Panic surged through me as Ryan quickly stepped back his expression unreadable I spent the rest of the evening in a haze barely able to meet my son's eyes guilt and exhilaration Waring within me in the days that followed Ryan and I

never spoke of what happened but the memory of that kiss lingered a dangerous secret we both carried I knew it was wrong knew I was risking everything but part of me couldn't help wondering what if that night after Ryan kissed me I barely slept I lay in bed beside my husband Steve his snoring rhythmic and oblivious to the storm raging inside me my mind replayed the kiss over and over the heat of Ryan's lips the way his hand lingered on mine the intensity of his gaze it had been years years since I'd felt that kind

of passion I wasn't sure if I was more terrified of what had happened or how much I craved it again the next day I tried to avoid Ryan entirely Ethan had a group project so I assumed Ryan wouldn't be coming over but as if the universe was testing my resolve the doorbell rang in the late afternoon my stomach dropped when I opened the door to find him standing there holding a small box of tools Ethan told me you needed help fixing the cabinet in the laundry room Ryan said casually though his eyes betrayed a flicker

of something deeper he was nervous too I hesitated for a moment but eventually stepped aside letting him in it's in the back I said stiffly leading the way the air between us was thick with unspoken tension Ryan worked quietly his usual charm replaced with an unusual seriousness I hovered near the doorway unsure if I should leave or stay my heart pounding so loudly I was sure he could hear it when he finished he turned to me his face unreadable Mrs Carter about the other night Ryan we can't I interrupted my voice shaky it was a

mistake a moment of weakness he stepped closer and I instinctively backed up until my back hit the wall he was inches away now his scent clean and masculine overwhelming my senses was it really a mistake he asked softly his voice barely above a whisper because I can't stop thinking about you about how it felt to kiss you I wanted to deny it to push him away but the truth was I couldn't stop thinking about him either my resolve crumbled as he reached out his hand brushing my cheek you deserve more than this life he murmured

you deserve to feel alive to feel wanted and just like that the walls I'd built around myself Came Crashing Down I closed the distance between us my lips finding his in a desperate hungry kiss this time there was no hesitation no guilt just pure unrestrained passion his hands roamed my body igniting a fire I hadn't felt in years I felt like a woman again not just a wife or a mother but a woman desirable needed we ended up in the laundry room the mundane surroundings of my domestic life a sharp contrast to The Reckless abandon

of what we were doing his touch his kisses they consumed me making me forget about everything else my marriage my family the consequences when it was over we sat in Silence the weight of what we'd done settling over us like a heavy blanket I avoided his gaze shame creeping in to replace the Euphoria I'd felt moments ago this can't happen again I whispered more to myself than to him but even as I said it I knew it was a lie