I Will Be Alright

you know what I'll be all right not because I'm strong or tough or any of that crap I'll be all right because I have to be that's the world ain't it you crawl you bleed you survive and for what to get hit again harder this time maybe I'm crazy maybe I'm stubborn but I'm still standing here dragging this messed up soul of mine through one day to the next people talk about pain like it's some poetic thing oh it'll make you stronger they say it builds character they don't know pain they don't know the kind

of Darkness that eats at your insides makes you Hollow leaves you screaming in your sleep that's real pain the kind that twists your guts until you're begging for it to end but it never does and you know what the worst part is I don't even get to Break N I got to keep going I got to take every hit every fall and get back up no matter how shattered I am because that's what Warriors do right we survive we endure even if every step feels like it's tearing us apart I've been betrayed beaten scarred in

ways nobody sees people look at me and they see strength they see courage they see a man who can handle anything they don't see the nights I've spent alone fists clenched trying not to scream from the weight of it all they don't see the days where I can barely hold myself together when every damn breath feels like a fight they don't see that this armor this mask it's all just keeping the pieces of me from falling apart I know there's no happy ending I know know that every battle I fight is just another step closer

to the end but here I am here I am standing in this hell facing down whatever comes next because that's the choice I made long ago I chose to be the one who stands when everyone else Falls to carry the burdens no one else would even if it means losing myself along the way you know how twisted that is that my strength comes from all the broken parts of me that every scar is a reminder of what I've survived of the pain I've swallowed and the Hope I've crushed just to make it through another day

they say you can't fight the world forever they say every man has his breaking point but they don't know me I don't break I shatter I bleed but I keep going because the moment I stop that's when it all catches up that's when everything I've fought to bury Rises up and tears me apart so I don't stop I keep fighting keep clawing my way through this mess and maybe one day maybe one day I'll find peace or maybe I won't maybe this is all there is is an endless fight a battle against shadows and ghosts

that never stay dead so yeah I'll be all right not because it's easy not because I want to be but because I don't have a choice because that's what Warriors do we carry on even when there's nothing left to carry we take the hits bear the scars and we keep going even when it feels like we're carrying the weight of the world alone because at the end of the day that's all we have the strength to stand the will to endure and the Silence of our own Broken Heart reminding us why we fight you know

what no one tells you about being strong it's lonely people think you're made of steel that nothing can break you so they leave you alone thinking you don't need anyone thinking you're fine but strength real strength it's just a wall a mask you put on so they don't see the hurt underneath they look at me and see a warrior they don't see the man who's been dragged through hell just to stand here and I swear sometimes sometimes I wonder if if it's all worth it if any of this means anything when every step forward feels

like it's dragging me deeper into the dark I used to think pain was temporary that it would pass that someday I'd be free of it but I was wrong pain sticks to to you seeps into your bones becomes a part of who you are it changes you makes you cold hard makes you look in the mirror and not recognize the person staring back I tell myself I can handle it that I can carry this weight but damn it's heavy and no one gets that no one understands what it's like to carry a burden so heavy

you're scared to even let it go scared of what's left when the weight is gone sometimes I don't even know why I'm fighting anymore what's the point of all this fighting surviving pushing through the pain for what people tell me to be strong to hold on but they don't see what I see they don't feel what I feel they don't know the darkness that wraps around you Whispers In Your Ear telling you to let go to give up and maybe they're right maybe I should let go let myself break but then I remember I can't

I made a promise a promise to keep going to fight to survive even if it kills me and the truth is I don't know if I'm living anymore I'm just surviving waking up each day putting on the armor going through the motions I don't feel alive not like I used to not like when I had something to fight for something that mattered now now it's just me and this Darkness this endless battle that doesn't seem to have an end it's exhausting you know fighting a fight that feels like it's never going to end but I

keep going because what else is there what else can I do people tell me to find peace to let go of the past to forgive but they don't understand how how can I forgive a world that's taken everything from me how can I find peace when every part of me is scarred broken they say time heals all wounds but time time's just another weapon another enemy time doesn't heal time just teaches you how to live with the pain and that's all I'm doing living with it surviving it pretending like it doesn't hurt even though it's

killing me inside and then there's the fear the fear of stopping of slowing down of letting myself feel because once I feel once I let this armor crack I'm afraid I won't be able to put it back together I'm afraid of what's underneath of what I'll see in the pieces of me that I've hidden away for so long people don't get that they think I'm strong because I don't break because I don't cry but but I don't cry because if I start I might not stop and maybe that's what scares me the most so I

keep going keep fighting not because I want to but because I have to because that's all I know how to do I don't know how to be anything else but a warrior I don't know how to live without the fight and maybe that's the saddest part of all that I've spent so long fighting I've forgotten how to live I've forgotten what it's like to feel anything other than this pain this endless aching loneliness but in the end I tell myself it's worth it that one day all this suffering will mean something that one day I'll

look back and understand why I had to go through all this maybe I'll find peace maybe I'll find redemption or maybe maybe I'll just keep going keep fighting until there's nothing left until I'm just Another Broken Soul lost in the darkness fighting a war that can never be won but even in the quiet I can hear it the doubt the fear they linger like Shadows Whispering tempting me to just give in they tell me I've done enough that I don't have to keep fighting but that's not an option is it because if I let go

if I lay down this armor and let myself rest I know that Darkness will swallow me whole I can't afford to be weak not now not ever because once you show the world your scars they use them against you they call it strength but it's a prison locking me into a fight that feels like it'll never end I wish I wish I could be different I wish I could feel what other people feel find Joy find peace but all I see is this path of survival this road that's paved with my own blood and sweat

leading nowhere and every time I think I'm close to something real something good it slips away maybe I'm cursed to Walk This Road alone to face the darkness with no one by my side maybe that's the price of being who I am a warrior who knows only battle who knows only pain sometimes late at night I wonder if anyone would even notice if I were gone if all my struggles all my battles have left any mark on this world or am I just another ghost another Shadow passing through forgotten the moment I fade away they

call me strong but what strength worth if it's only seen in silence in solitude I've fought for so long yet The Emptiness remains like a wound that never heels a scar that never Fades but here's the thing about scars they are proof that you survived they're proof that you faced the fire that you walked through hell and came out the other side I may be broken I may be bruised but damn it I'm still here and maybe that's all that matters not the battles I've lost or the ones still ahead but the simple fact that

I'm still standing still breathing still fighting because as long as I'm alive there's a chance a chance to find some something more to feel something real maybe it's foolish maybe it's hopeless but it's all I have I don't know what the future holds maybe it's just more pain more loneliness more of this endless fight but if that's the price I have to pay to keep going then so be it I'll pay it again and again until there's nothing left of me because that's what Warriors do we don't quit we don't surrender we keep fighting even

when it feels like the world is against us because sometimes survival is the victory sometimes just making it through another day is the greatest battle of all and maybe maybe that's enough maybe that's all I need not Glory not peace but just the strength to keep going one day at a time to wake up put on this armor and face whatever comes next no matter how hard no matter how brutal because even if the world doesn't see it even if no one else knows I'll know I'll know that I stood when others would have fallen

I'll know that I fought when others would have run and and maybe in the end that's the only truth that matters so yeah I'll be all right not because it's easy not because it doesn't hurt but because I choose to be because I choose to face this pain this Darkness head on I may be broken I may be scarred but I am still a warrior and warriors don't give up Warriors don't back down we may be beaten we may be battered but we never break not completely not as long as there's even a sliver of

strength left within us and maybe one day when the battles are done when the wounds have finally healed I'll find that peace I've been searching for or maybe I won't maybe this life will always be a fight an endless struggle but either way I'll be all right because I know who I am I am a survivor I am a fighter and no matter how dark the night no matter how heavy the burden I will endure I will keep going because that's what Warriors do and if this is the life I've been given if this is

the path laid out for me then I'll walk it with everything I have I'll carry these scars these memories of battles won and lost like Badges of Honor they may remind me of the pain of the nights I thought I'd never make it through but they'll also remind me of my strength they'll remind me that no matter what this world throws at me I'll rise again and again because that's who I am that's all I know how to be a warrior who stands no matter how many times he's knocked down in theend end maybe that's

all we really have the will to keep going to face the darkness to Rise From the Ashes when the world thinks we're defeated there's no glory in it no applause no one cheering us on just a quiet stubborn resolve that says I will not be broken maybe that's the greatest power any of us have the power to keep going to find our way through the darkness one step at a time even when the light feels so far away so here I am standing alone in the silence facing the battles only I can see and I

know I know I'll be all right not because the road will get easier not because the pain will fade but because I'll keep fighting no matter what I'll carry this weight I'll bear these scars and I'll find my way through the night because that's who I I am a warrior a Survivor and as long as there's breath in my body I'll keep going until the very end